But yeah, just to like, I guess put a cap on it. Like we decided as a team to step away, like with our team, internal team. There are capable people that are taking it over. Do not regret at all how things have gone. I'm the happiest I've ever been. I know people are like, cope. But I truly am genuinely the happiest I've ever been in my life right now. I feel so freed. Just the idea that like, we don't have to be silent. The being silent was fucking, like soul crushing. Yeah, I didn't realize how important that was to me. And I think us in general is, you know, feeling like we can't fucking, like we have to, I don't know, like censor ourselves for the, you know, for other people for... Constantly censoring ourselves for other people. Yeah, and it's hard. I just don't think we're that personality type. No, definitely not me. You're more that way than I am. It was hard for me, for sure. For you, it was kind of whatever. But yeah, I'm stoked. It is, I don't know, feels like a little bit of a weight has been lifted. And yeah, I mean, it's, I think it's gonna be a new chapter for us, which I'm excited about. Yeah, there's gonna be a lot of content creation and a lot of just authentically, I can just tell that you are ready to be yourself. Spread my wings. Yeah, spread your wings. I'm gonna spread my wings. Oh, okay. I'm ready to spread my wings in a different way. I'm like fully ready to just start cooking and baking. And I think I'm gonna take some, I'm gonna go to like a culinary program and like, I think it's so freeing. Like, I honestly, the amount of hate I've gotten online recently has made me realize that I do not give a shit. It gets to the point where it's kind of like, it's overwhelming. It's like, well, this is like... I don't, it does not hurt my feelings. It's a steady supply now. Yeah, I mean, it's just a way of life. For it to be painful, kind of like torture, you know, you gotta, it's gotta be more unpredictable. Yeah, it's like... It's gotta surprise you. It's like, you know, when you get in the shower and you make it too hot, but you're, and you're like, ah, ah, ah, but then you don't want to like turn it down because you know eventually it's not gonna be hot enough, so you just kind of soak it. And then you have to turn it even hotter. Right, a little bit later, yeah. That's what it feels like right now. I like that analogy. So you're saying that people should turn up the hate? I don't think they can anymore. You should see the shit that I get. Yeah, true. Like my DMs... It's not enough. They're numb. I know, truly though, like my DMs are like, there's one girl that literally commented, I'm not kidding you, publicly. She had her public profile and everything. She said, slit your wrists the long way. Slit your wrists the long way. Well, because they, I don't know how like into that culture you are, but like if you, they say like, if you want to like die, you do the long way. If you don't want to die, you do a cross. So it's very specific. It's like actually kill yourself. Yeah, but you would like, when you miss the veins, it's a lot easier to miss the veins if you're doing it the long way. No, there's like a main artery in there. Interesting. But anyways, the point being, like when somebody says that to you, they're genuinely saying like fucking, yeah, they're taken to the next level. The most like graphic, like 13, which, you know what, it didn't bother. I was a little shocked that this person had their public profile. It's like a normal girl. That's so weird. It always freaks me out, but... Oh, that's what I wanted to do for a coffee table book. Yeah. Is not hate comments, but like you take people's public profile and pictures or whatever and you make a collage of them. Yeah. Like so peaceful, so sweet. And then like right in the middle of that page is their hate comment. That's a good idea. Like you go and find like their Facebook profile and like find pictures of them smiling and being happy and like with their mom and their dad and stuff. Likes to show that they have like a family and people who care about them. And then right in the middle just says like kill yourself. Yeah. No profile. Legit. And some of them, some of them are like so nasty, like they're like, I'm going to find you and kill you and like, like I've gotten all types of whatever, which is very fascinating because a lot of them do. Genuine. They have public profile pages, which is like, but none of it. It's really interesting that none of it because back in the day, it would have really upset me. I think like a combination of therapy and drugs, but even Ethan, like on his podcast, talking about me putting stuff in your oatmeal or saying that I'm whatever he's saying. Right. None of that bothers me. Like I, I feel like I'm invincible. I don't and maybe it's because I don't really care what my internet. Like I don't really, I'm not here to seek a career online really anymore. I mean, like I'll do the podcast with you and I like to post pictures or whatever, but like I don't, I don't, I genuinely don't care. And I don't know if that's why. Right. There's like, there really isn't. I remember like doing content cops and stuff where there was this sense of the internet has like picked a winner. Yeah. You know what I mean? There's a winner and there's a loser. Yeah. And it's like, I think once you kind of ascend past that idea where it's like, yeah, I'm like definitely a loser to like a huge swath of people online. Yeah. And it's like, I don't really care to be a winner in their eyes. I don't care. So that does make it easier just knowing there really isn't much of a, of a battle to take place. I think also when you don't respect the person. Yeah. It doesn't mean whole lot of offense to, uh, bro lines, but I don't want to win. I want to win bro. Do you win at any cost? You don't want to win this war that you're in the Twitter. You don't want to. Yeah. You don't want the Twitter. You can't start the war. Not, not going for the win. Wait, wait, the content deputies, your last video about Ethan Klein. What don't you want to win? You want to win? He's saying all this crazy stuff about you. It's, but it is like, I think a big part of it is like just not respecting him or his opinions. I think back in the day, I remember like people threatening to hate videos or making hate videos. There was that one, uh, creep show art or whatever. Yeah. And back in the day, like if I would see a video about me, it would, my soul, like it would hurt so bad. And now like when I see clips of like, uh, either Ethan or, you know, tweets or whatever, like it is so genuinely funny most of the time. Um, that I, it's just kind of fun, which is neat to be at that place. But I do think, I think that was my phone. I do think a big, a big part of it though is I just don't care. Like, well, it also, I think it also helps that there's nothing you can really do about it. No, that's true. You know what I mean? Like when I think about, uh, like hate videos or fucking just certain sides of the internet, I'm like, there ain't nothing to fucking do. No, I know. Like I'm not gonna like pitch you like my train of logic and how I've arrived at where I've arrived. Like, you know, I can't really, that's a lot of labor as well. It's like, I don't really want to do that labor. Yeah. Um, so it's not worth it. Yeah. Yeah. I kind of think that that's why some people always think it's like a, like a left versus right grift kind of thing. The accusations of grifting. Yeah. Because truthfully when you go from like kind of like one side to the other, depending on, I don't know, um, how people view it, it very much feels like, oh, you've like completely abandoned your principles. But I think in a lot of ways it's like, no, like the work that it's going to take to explain the journey that I've been on is so personal and specific. And it's not worth it because you're not there. They're not gonna listen anyways. Like they're not, they're not asking any of those questions earnestly. Yeah. Like it's not earnest questions, right? Like there's a reason why the debates with, um, Ethan that happened with Sam Cedar and Hassan ended the same way. Yeah. Like it's not an earnest conversation and that's, you know, a very public thing, but all these viewers that are following these like hate accounts and are, you know, consuming all this stuff, like they're not interacting with it earnestly. They're not there to like discover the truth. They're there because they have like specific, they have like their fighter that they've picked and they like wanna. Yeah. And it's all about strategy and strategy and like whatever else. So like it's, I think also just when we've been on the internet for as long as we have, it's just like, it's hard to see any of it as like authentic. Like I just don't, I don't see any of it. It's true. It's very far from that.
