Lolcow Andrew Peter Carlson / Anaiah Carlson / Tamarlover / Xtamarlover - Jewish/Christian Wannabe Cult Leader, Stalker, Ugly af, dogfucker, mayor of spitsville

[ConSluttant]

I know what's good for her better than she does, and besides if its more important to her that I am out of her life, the only way that can happen is if she talks with me to give me closure. Otherwise I'll always be there trying to be part of her life. The smartest thing to do for her to get me out of her life is after the protective order is ended to agree to talk with me in an attempt to convince me that I must leave her alone the rest of her life.

She makes horrible choices for herself and her children, like entering relationships with people frivolously. You can say all you want about me, but its not healthy to go through so many guys and put her children through that kind of crap all the time of getting new dads every few months.

just one more. But it has to be a fair chance.

I thought I replied to some of your posts other times. Just wondering. This doesn't apply to my situation. But if you knew your friend was going on a date with someone who was planning on killing her that night and you tried to contact the authorities but they didn't take you seriously, and you tried to warn your friend but they didn't were angry you insinuated that and ended friendship because of it. Would you follow her in an attempt to prevent her from being killed? or would you let her live her life and make her choices knowing full well what's going to happen. Again this does not totally apply to my situation but aspects of it do.

I didn't believe in the feminist version of "mansplaining" before now. However, it is real, and it is THIS GUY. Thanks, THIS GUY, for fucking it up for all us other men out there. You proved them right. You jackass.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Openly admitting to stalking someone, with a years long plan to continue to do so, is a bit of an issue as well haha.



A restraining order, past or present, still shows up on background checks.

https://www.usajobs.gov/Help/faq/application/eligibility/ex-offender/

 

[Yellow Yam Scam]

https://www.usajobs.gov/Help/faq/application/eligibility/ex-offender/

All this is saying is that you can get a job sweeping the floor at the local DMV (Not mopping, they won't trust you to handle a mop bucket.)

 

[autism420]

But if you knew your friend was going on a date with someone who was planning on killing her that night and you tried to contact the authorities but they didn't take you seriously, and you tried to warn your friend but they didn't were angry you insinuated that and ended friendship because of it.

What evidence do you have that her husband is going to kill her?

 

[vodka]

Just wondering. This doesn't apply to my situation. But if you knew your friend was going on a date with someone who was planning on killing her that night and you tried to contact the authorities but they didn't take you seriously, and you tried to warn your friend but they didn't were angry you insinuated that and ended friendship because of it. Would you follow her in an attempt to prevent her from being killed? or would you let her live her life and make her choices knowing full well what's going to happen. Again this does not totally apply to my situation but aspects of it do.

Why would you even ask? Like you said, it doesn't have relevance to your situation and it seems like you're just trying to find ways to justify your insane behaviour and stalking. Yeah, her husband doesn't seem great based on his record but neither do you, Mr. Restraining Order. You don't know if she's being abused for sure and it's not your responsibility to save her from anything.

 

[sysctl --system]

I'd like to learn as many languages as possible. But I'd like to start with the more important ones like French, Italian, Arabic, German, Chinese. Eventually maybe Greek, Latin, Hebrew. things like that. If i could learn as many languages as possible that would be ideal.

Probably a bad start when you don't specify Cantonese or Mandarin.

How deep does your linguistic research go? Is it just a side hobby?

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

What evidence do you have that her husband is going to kill her?

Why would you even ask? Like you said, it doesn't have relevance to your situation and it seems like you're just trying to find ways to justify your insane behaviour and stalking. Yeah, her husband doesn't seem great based on his record but neither do you, Mr. Restraining Order. You don't know if she's being abused for sure and it's not your responsibility to save her from anything.

I'm just using it as an analogy. I don't have any reason to think she's be killed by her husband. But I'm worried about her destroying her life by her life choices.

I didn't say it doesn't have relevance to my situation, but that it doesn't perfectly apply to the same extent.

If I leave her alone for good then i feel like I am dooming her.

 

[DrJonesHat]

I don't need her to be with me, but I need her to be my friend. I will be happy to settle and compromise with her to be just friends. But to not be in any part of her life, that is something I refuse at least for now.

That's not up to you. If someone doesn't want you in their life, you don't get to be in it, period, discussion over. It may suck, but that's life. I think the fact she has a restraining against you should drive home the fact she doesn't want you around in any capacity. Get lost already. And you don't get to decide if her marriage is valid. That's between her and her husband. You are an aspiring cult leader, and I shudder to think of the fate awaiting impressionable people who fall into your clutches.

If I leave her alone for good then i feel like I am dooming her.

You've got a savior complex, which is very arrogant of you. Why do you assume you are the only one who can "save" her? Maybe she doesn't want to be saved. Maybe she'll save herself. Regardless, you are not, and will never be a part of her life again. But by all means, continue posting. This thread can be used as evidence in your stalking trial.

 

[autism420]

I'm just using it as an analogy. I don't have any reason to think she's be killed by her husband. But I'm worried about her destroying her life by her life choices.

I didn't say it doesn't have relevance to my situation, but that it doesn't perfectly apply to the same extent.

If I leave her alone for good then i feel like I am dooming her.

Has it ever occured to you that people are free to make their own choices and she knows her own situation better than you ever could?

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Probably a bad start when you don't specify Cantonese or Mandarin.

How deep does your linguistic research go? Is it just a side hobby?

As I mentioned I'd like to learn as many languages as possible. I think Mandarin is the one i want to learn first though of the two you mentioned. Up until now, my principle interest has been studying universal grammar, language rules, pronunciation changes. I've dabbled in various languages and done some private translation work for myself. The languages I've dabbled from the most to least are Hebrew, French, Greek, Latin, Italian, Old English.

I want to learn many languages so I can read all kinds of fascinating writings in their original languages, and to be able to communicate with people in different cultures and open whole new worlds of knowledge. And I want to make my own version of the Bible but in order to do that I need to master dozens of languages first. So thats the plan. And if I can get professional education for some of the languages as well and get a degree, then I could use my skills in employment which would work well for me I think once I get to that point. It will take me many years but its definitely a worthy pursuit to undergo.

 

[DrJonesHat]

Has it ever occured to you that people are free to make their own choices and she knows her own situation better than you ever could?

He's said he knows her better than she knows herself, which is the hallmark of someone who is obsessed with controlling people. She sounds pretty broken, but I wouldn't wish a stalker on anyone other than an actual stalker.

 

[Florence]

And I want to make my own version of the Bible but in order to do that I need to master dozens of languages first.

Why the Bible? Surely as a Jew you'd be focused on translating the Torah or the Tanakh?

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

10:30-12:30 regarding people with records getting hired in jobs.

 

[autism420]

So you've never had a job in your life?

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Why the Bible? Surely as a Jew you'd be focused on translating the Torah or the Tanakh?

The Torah and Tanakh is part of the Bible. I'm working on the whole thing. Much more outside of the Bible that ought to be worked on. Like 300 books. It's going to take decades to accomplish but its one of my most important life goals.

So you've never had a job in your life?

I had one job for 10 months, as I mentioned earlier in the thread. Also i worked for 2 months on a farm.

 

[Mary Lee Walsh]

Okay i cant believe it i normally never get through reading an entire 16 pages of a lolcow... but andrew my God are you fascinating. Dude i gotta say i know having atsimu makes it hard to see but youve gotten tons of constructive, caring feedback from a bunch of guys who seem to want to help you.

Hey andjew, i was curious if you have doubts that you'll be able to find someone else that's attracted to you. I mean perhaps theres more under the surface (or whatever the saying is) that none of us have taken into consideration

 

[autism420]

I had one job for 10 months, as I mentioned earlier in the thread. Also i worked for 2 months on a farm.

lol no woman is ever going to want to marry a jobless, non-educated stalker. You're absolutely pathetic.

 

[IAmNotDavid]

I came to this thread to laugh at you and now I just feel bad because your situation reminds me of a less severe version of what my buddy went through. You are ignoring a lot of the advice people are giving you, so maybe what I told my buddy will get through.

Ok, Tamar is amazing. You love her, great. Guess what, she isn't coming to you because you don't impress her. You are not impressive, and you have no worthy accomplishments.

Do what everyone else has said. You have two years where you can't see her, build yourself up to be the best so that when it isn't illegal to contact her again, you can be impressive. 2 years of accomplishments all at once looks way better than a small success every few months. You have one big chance, don't mess it up by spreading things out.

And hey, while you're improving yourself during those two years there's a good chance you'll find Tamar 2.0 and you can woo her instead and forget about Tamar 1.0.

Use Tamar as motivation to change into the "amazing" guy you think she deserves.

Also actually change your name because anyone who is interested in you who finds this thread is going to be scared away.

 

[Tempest]

@tamarlover what are your thoughts on kiwi farms in general, the people here, this thread? have you read any of the other threads here?

 

[GV 998]

I'm just using it as an analogy. I don't have any reason to think she's be killed by her husband. But I'm worried about her destroying her life by her life choices.

I didn't say it doesn't have relevance to my situation, but that it doesn't perfectly apply to the same extent.

If I leave her alone for good then i feel like I am dooming her.

Let me ask you something. And I'd like you to answer me honestly. Be 100% honest with yourself, even if you think it sounds bad

Let's say, hypothetically, I could tell you that she will meet a man in say,2 weeks, that will give her the life she needs to be happy, safe, provided for, and loved, for the rest of her life. He will be the best decision she's ever made. However, it's NOT YOU, and for her to stay happy, you can never see her again.

Are you ok with this? Would you be contented with yourself, and feel free to try to find someone else to make YOU happy?

If you honestly answered, in your heart, that no, you would still try to convince Tamar to be with you, then that proves beyond a shadow of a doubt that you do not in fact love her, you are obsessed with her.

And I am sure you must comprehend that obsession isn't healthy. And your logical step should be to stop