Megathread SRS and GRS surgeons and associated horrors - the medical community of experimental surgeons, the secret community of home butchers

[Slideshow Bill]

Even more horrifying, the breast buds are often scooped out entirely on the younger ones to prevent them from growing at all (this is especially common for very young disabled girls that receive the “Ashley Treatment.”). Then there’s the fact that pooners often gain weight after top surgery between eating more or just growing if they were underage during the operation. I’ve seen more than one pooner in this thread and elsewhere that ended up with empty looking breasts akin to a woman that lost 200+ pounds as early as a year after the operation because of this. The tissue will expand regardless.

There is absolutely no standard or consideration with these surgeries. These butchers aren’t seeing a developing child, just dollar signs.

The fun thing about this thread is that there is always one more thing I learn that sinks a pit in my soul. You can peak trans but peak trans "healthcare" horrors? There's always another threshold.

How do the nerves map vis a vis the brain?

Does the brain think "there's something new on the mons," or "there's something wrong with my arm"?

I had this thought because if it's the latter, I could see the brain unable to heal wounds on the junk.

I remember reading in the thread eons ago about a TIF that got a rotdog and when she touched it, her brain registered it as her arm being touched. Freaky shit.

 

[Mary Lee Harvey osWalsh]

How do the nerves map vis a vis the brain?

Does the brain think "there's something new on the mons," or "there's something wrong with my arm"?

I had this thought because if it's the latter, I could see the brain unable to heal wounds on the junk.

Good question. I know at least one TIF has claimed to feel a "phantom penis" or something equally retarded, trying to justify that their brain is totally wired to be a male brain you guys!!!!!! I highly doubt it made any resulting phalloplasty heal better.

But I do know that people who get limbs amputated and such will often feel phantom pain or phantom sensation as their brains still are mapped to that limb being there. I don't know how the brain maps to something new being added, but I imagine that it would be like an extension of skin or something. Like... maybe having a rotdog is akin to suddenly gaining a bunch of weight and having extra skin? Don't quote me on that: that's just a guess.

 

[Aunt Carol]

Good question. I know at least one TIF has claimed to feel a "phantom penis" or something equally retarded, trying to justify that their brain is totally wired to be a male brain you guys!!!!!!

I ran across something interesting to this effect earlier (see quoted post for the PDF).

Turns out OHSU has written up post-phalloplasty exercises, with an aim to help pooners incorporate the fleshroll into their mental map. (That's O for Oregon, and of course in Portland.)

It's optimistic; reads a lot like the "visualize a cone of protective light" stuff that you'd read in Wicca 101 texts back when weird teenage girls got to pick from different phases, not just pooner.



But I wish we saw this document cited more. Pooners are all convinced they'll wake up with a functional penis. If they learned that the best plan so far is a ton of purpose-driven shitty masturbation until their brain associates tugging on numb meat as a sexual feeling, maybe they'd reconsider having five operations and destroying their urinary tracts.

"Masturbated per the OHSU guidelines yesterday."

Erotic. I immediately had to look that up: here, and attached pdf.

Remember, "Any additional use of or engagement with your penis is a positive thing."

 

[dead in hudson]

Natal erogenous tissue my ass
This is lunacy and all of these people should be thrown in a loony bin

 

[Mad_Dog]

Sometimes a result just takes you aback to look at: this FTM - one of those "salmacian" lunatics - willingly chose to look like a victim who fell befoul of a spiteful (yet horny) member of the Greek pantheon.
OspreyFTM (Dr. Santucci; anterolateral thigh (ALT) phalloplasty without scrotoplasty, vaginectomy, clitoral burial or urethral lengthening)
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She looks like a troon, but somehow worse.
How are men better at being fake women than actual women?
Yet another with for the men, boys!

 

[Fat and Balding]

How are men better at being fake women than actual women?

Indecipherable dystopian nonsense. "Men are better at pretending to be women than women are at pretending to be women." Excuse me, put some fucking respect on Kikomi's name right now.

 

[Magic Pickle]

A rare instance in which not even morphine can make mutilation acceptable: a TiF receives a very badly stitched rotdog and immediately feels her surgeon did a poor job. Unfortunately, this phalloplasty follows after a metoidioplasty she had a few years ago, which indicates that she could never climb off the ever-speeding treadmill of tranny torture.
Ni-Bro2 (Dr. Marcelli; abdominal phalloplasty)
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Well, here you guys are, after the operation and how can I put it, I think it's terrible and I have big doubts about what it might do afterwards, I'm afraid of necrosis and I'm sure I'll have a detachment. I don't want to judge too quickly but I think my surgeon did some butchery. I am disappointed and I am clearly afraid for the next operations. What do you honestly think?

Spoiler: One hard yank, and it'd come clean off.

Psuedoboobos: a FTM's top surgery results leave her with a bit too much squish to her mallows remaining, and then - to add insult to injury - made her sutures look wavy.
Status-Reputation-51 (Dr. Bensa; bilateral cosmetic mastectomy)
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Feeling bad still have boobs​

I just can’t stop thinking I still have a boob, and it makes me feel so dysphoric !The right one seems pretty good even though the scar is a little too high on my muscle I think but I quite like it.But the left one feel awful, like having too much breast tissue left.My surgeon and my kinesiology therapist tell me “oh no it’s just that you have more muscle on your left side that’s it” but it really feels like they don’t pay attention or don’t want to admit… I’m 6 weeks post op, I know it’s not so long but I don’t see any difference since week 4. Do you really think it will get better or do you think it is definitely breast tissue and that I would get a revision or live with it like that..? Thank you so much I’m so worried right now …

Spoiler: Putting the "sir" in "surf's up", are we?

After sending her innocent clitoris to the shadow realm via metoidioplasty, a FTM is trying her hardest to feel that she made the right call in the end. What I find amusing about this is that she is a registered nurse, yet still remains entrenched in troonacy regarding the reality of her procedures. But hey, maybe we'll see her sport a rotdog of her own one day - after all, she says that she knows they have sensation, right?
Vasovasorum21
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I’m trying not to regret having had meta​

TLDR - dick is small and now feels like a clit again due to tethering
I had a very small dick before T, think pea sized. So when I got the growth I did I was ecstatic. Pre op I felt like I had a good size for me and when erect I grew to an inch or so. My dick is very far back, and my mons is huge so it never stood out of the folds, for lack of better phrasing.
After a lot of consideration throughout several years I finally felt like I needed to do it. I loved sex with my partner, so this was a big decision. But I wanted balls, and I want to pee standing up. And I really hated having a vagina.
I knew I wouldn’t be big or even average. My surgeon warned me of this but said he’d do it. In my operation note, he said he uncovered 1.5 inches. I was so excited, since I knew I’m a grower. But now I’m trying not to regret my choice. After all, it’s not like I can reverse course now.
I’ll have stage 2 soon and he said I’m a good candidate for that part. He’ll lift my dick a few inches and get rid of the mons and labia on the sides. But now that the swelling is down, my dick is so tethered. I’ve been trying to pump but it’s painful, even when I go super low on the pressure. I bought the LA pump to make sure. I think now I can start pumping more earnestly since this last week I’ve had no pain while pumping. But my foreskin is weirdly tethered.
When I was swollen I felt a dick, a cylinder with scar tissue on the bottom from the UL. After pumping its much larger, as expected. But I don’t grow in length when erect now. And now it feels like the bottom is more exposed and the top is completely enfolded. Imagine a cis dick pointing straight up, but with no length. I can also stick my finger between the top side of my dick and my foreskin. It’s really disconcerting and for a bit I was worried the tissue had split open. Sex still feels good, which was my big reason for meta over phallo. I have other reasons too so please don’t jump on the train of “you need phallo, it has sensation”. I know it does.
If anyone has similar anatomy, small and very much under the mons, I’d really love to hear how you’re doing. Does it get better after stage 2? Can you at least get a blow job? I don’t care about penetration, my partner doesn’t enjoy it.

“Of all the words of mice and men, the saddest are, "It might have been": Veinscrawler is back at it again, writing a frenzied essay that the likes of Frederick Douglass and Mark Twain would've surely shed noble tears upon reading. Just kidding! He's bitching about how being a dipshit retard getting dipshit retard surgeries lands you with dipshit retard consequences. Highlight for this one is that he brags about the lawyer saying he was so smart and so knowledgeable! Enjoy that ego-stroking for now, lad, for it may be the closest you find to erotic pleasure for the rest of time itself.
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PSA: A surgeon will most likely never face consequences for botching you​

For those who haven't seen my previous posts, 5 months ago I underwent a rushed, botched vulvoplasty at Boston Medical Center after a badly handled pre-operative process that led to the surgeons removing tissue from my body without my informed consent.
I've now spoken at length to a malpractice attorney recommended to me by GLAD Law. After reviewing the medical records I sent him, he said that it seems to him that the BMC surgeons are "sloppy" and probably not "up to the task" of performing this kind of surgery, and that he has spoken to a number of other patients who have had similar experiences suggesting that the surgeons are not actually fully competent at vulvoplasty/vaginoplasty. He said it's clear that they have false and missing information in my medical records, which suggests that at the very least they regularly cut corners on standard medical procedure and record-keeping. And based on my story, he believes that they did violate normal medical procedure and did not have my informed consent for this surgery, since I was being told conflicting information both before and after surgery about what would/did happen, which is supported by the conflicting information in my records. He encouraged me to go through with filing complaints to the Board of Registration in Medicine against Dr. Slama, Dr. Munarriz, and anyone else involved.
But he also said that he did not think a malpractice lawsuit would be fruitful, because 1) cases for transgender surgeries, particularly when based on lack of informed consent, are notoriously difficult to win since the law is very vague to give surgeons a lot of leeway in how they perform surgery, 2) informed consent malpractice cases require a lot of very expensive expert testimony (~$100,000+), and 3) he does not believe a jury in our current transphobic climate would be sympathetic to a transgender person who was mutilated during surgery since most people are ignorant and think of these surgeries as mutilation anyway. He expressed his condolences, and said that I was one of the most well-spoken and knowledgeable (both about the law and about the surgery) people that he has spoken to about this kind of issue, and that he regrets not being able to help me more.
For those unaware: Unless I am mistaken, there has never been a case on record of a transgender person successfully winning a lawsuit against a surgeon for botched gender-affirming genital surgery. Realistically, if a surgeon fucks you up, they will never face any consequences for it. The legal system simply does not care about trans people.
The lesson I've learned is that just because a surgeon has nothing but positive reviews, it does not mean that they won't mutilate you, lie to your face about it afterward, and then absolve themself of all responsibility. And if a surgeon does or says even one thing that makes you uncomfortable, regardless of anything else they say or do or promise you, you should just cancel immediately and never go back. I definitely wish I had.

 

[Aunt Carol]

Sex still feels good, which was my big reason for meta over phallo. I have other reasons too so please don’t jump on the train of “you need phallo, it has sensation”. I know it does.

She's jumping ahead of this, not like a believer but like someone who knows what she has to say, to be allowed to speak.

Anyway, someone in the Wild West of gender surgeries should try offering mons pubis liposuction as a standalone. This is a win-win:

It'd scratch that "do SOMETHING" itch for FtMs with way less risk, it'd get visible results if they're chubby, and the procedure would probably come in at the price point where they're able to pay out of pocket, instead of begging the insurance company and crying and crowdfunding.

Probably could do it with local anesthesia if it's just the mons, so that's straight profit, no splitting it with another doc or signing off on a CRNA.

eta: say you're a plastic surgeon with cars to pay off and baby mamas. You wanna suck some fat out, hand over the standard "So You Got Lipo" sheet you've been using since 1999 and get paid cash that doesn't go through the whole coding/billing process. The alternative is having to answer calls upon calls because someone's nerves (oh yeah those things) aren't automatically understanding a fleshwad is a penis, and you installed the fleshwad on someone with zero coping skills from a neo-culture that encourages lack of coping skills, plus if you're lucky you're consulting with a urologist and if you're unlucky you've got a vascular surgeon in there too. If you're super unlucky, or I guess lucky again, the patient ends up with Infectious Disease and a nephrologist and maybe they never come back for the final surgeries somehow.

 

[SweetieMouse]

Well, here you guys are, after the operation and how can I put it, I think it's terrible and I have big doubts about what it might do afterwards, I'm afraid of necrosis and I'm sure I'll have a detachment. I don't want to judge too quickly but I think my surgeon did some butchery. I am disappointed and I am clearly afraid for the next operations. What do you honestly think?

Unable to quote Dr. Pickle's latest post for some reason, but that frankendick looks like a personal vendetta against this patient. I swear some of these surgeons are sloppy on purpose. The bilateral cosmetic mastectomy is also such a terrible job. "Surgical precision" is a phrase for a reason, yet I see the complete opposite of precision in this thread.

The more of these transgender surgeries that I look at, the greater my suspicion grows that these surgeons do not give a flip about the trannies. Not only that, but they get a sort of sadistic pleasure in half-assing their procedures, because the never-ending revolving door of tranny patients is passive income to them.

How do the nerves map vis a vis the brain?

What Slideshow Bill said about the pooner sensing her arm being touched when she touched her rotdog is a good example. Your brain has a sensory map and after rotdog installation, it still has the old map. Neuroplasticity takes time. The brain will initially interpret the signal as an arm being touched (referred sensation), because that's what it always associated with that piece of skin its whole life. Now that that piece of skin is in a different location, the brain will have to learn overtime that this is now your "phallus" (lmao). However, it might not be possible to completely override the original mapping, so that arm sensation thing may never fully go away.
Nervous mapping is extremely complex and some of it is not too well-understood. If you understand the phantom limb phenomenon, just think of this as something similar to that.

 

[Ash's_Chainsaw_Hand]

Your wish is my command, Lil pooners Monster lipo. I mean mons. Sfw

 

[Sinner's Sandwich]

the brain will have to learn overtime that this is now your "phallus" (lmao).

Come on, this is impossible! The brain of a woman isn't going to magically learn over time that an arm flesh roll is somehow a penis. This is looney troon fantasy.

 

[SweetieMouse]

Come on, this is impossible! The brain of a woman isn't going to magically learn over time that an arm flesh roll is somehow a penis. This is looney troon fantasy.

Of course not, but at the very least its possible that she would begin to feel the sensation in the "phallus" instead of the phantom arm touch. As in, overtime, the brain would adapt to map the touch as coming from the new rotdog, instead of registering it as someone grabbing the arm.
But with that being said, it is very difficult to override your brain's original sensory mapping and some people feel phantom pain forever after having a limb amputated. The best these pooners can do is hold their new monstrosity and try really really hard to feel something there and delude themselves into it, like some sort of frankendick feng shui. It'd be no different than troons who start taking estrogen and start having "girl orgasms" that they describe in a way that suspiciously sounds like someone describing hentai.
So you're correct but it also just depends on many factors. For some it's impossible, for others it's possible. But yea, it'll never feel like a True and Honest Penis, I just meant that they'll no longer feel it in their arm.

 

[eat your greens]

This entire thread is horrifying beyond words. This thread, plus the stories on r/detrans are so eye opening. As someone who has spent much of my working life in healthcare or adjacent, I don’t understand how any of this is okay.

I’m starting to think it’s like autistic ABA therapy, insurance companies pay for it to alleviate the pain of an abnormal child, are all of these health insurance/ governments paying for a problem that has no actual cure but do it to placate the troons into thinking they are being helped?

I know of one troon who had surgery. Before he did it, was a store manager of a dollar general by day, an amateur wrestler as a hobby (yes really, even the wrestling persona trooned out). But because the butchering is so brutal to recover from, he basically spent the next 3 years unable to work, begging for money. He eventually developed a hernia near the government funded stinkditch, and when he was getting it scanned they incidentally found a rare cancer and he was dead within 4 months. So, all for nought.

 

[AfghanBlue]

Link to archive (coz paywall)

 

[Deepland Bystander]

Sometimes a result just takes you aback to look at: this FTM - one of those "salmacian" lunatics - willingly chose to look like a victim who fell befoul of a spiteful (yet horny) member of the Greek pantheon.
OspreyFTM (Dr. Santucci; anterolateral thigh (ALT) phalloplasty without scrotoplasty, vaginectomy, clitoral burial or urethral lengthening)
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This is the first time I see a pooner attempted a 'Futa irl'. If anyone says that women can't be degenerate coomers, show them this.

Not that it's better than MtF troons attempting the futa either. Both look like botched surgeries

 

[Screamer_2]

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[Aunt Carol]

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That's the spirit that built America!

 

[pooterino]

A rare instance in which not even morphine can make mutilation acceptable: a TiF receives a very badly stitched rotdog and immediately feels her surgeon did a poor job.

Ew. It reminds me of what we in certain parts of 'Merica call "white hots" or "white dogs" which I believe originate as pork-only sausages from... idk somewhere in Germany? Germanic settlers brought 'em around, anyway. They're tasty! Not like that poor TiF's fuckup.

Whatever, rot-dick-dogs that you can eat:

Spoiler: the wurst

 

[KiwiFuzz2]

Ew. It reminds me of what we in certain parts of 'Merica call "white hots" or "white dogs" which I believe originate as pork-only sausages from... idk somewhere in Germany? Germanic settlers brought 'em around, anyway. They're tasty! Not like that poor TiF's fuckup.

Whatever, rot-dick-dogs that you can eat:

Spoiler: the wurst

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Improper oxygenation of the attached tissue. A shunt and a firm regimen of blood thinners might save most of the length, but the tip of the phallus on the bottom is already dead.

 

[Coo Coo Bird]

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This was originally posted by TsaritsaYevfimiya / Effy on both r/Transmaxxing, r/boymoding, and 4chan's /lgbt/:

I self-performed orchiectomy (AMA; DO NOT CONCERN-POST!)

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I self-performed orchiectomy (AMA; DO NOT CONCERN-POST!)​

Three days ago I self-performed orchiectomy from start to finish. It was successful in regards to achieving the goal of removing testes without any significant complication or having another surgeon operate on me. However I see it as a failure because it was a poor performance. I cut the cords uneven and I ligated one cord without including the cremaster muscle. I did not take good care of hemostasis and developed mild hematoma that does not need surgical intervention. I will do a corrective surgery in the future to even out the cords and remove any remaining stump tissue in the scrotal region. Pic related: https://a.cockfile.com/bus1lj.jpg
Edit: It is okay to ask question about the nature of the surgery or about the possible risks. When I say concern-post I mean “OP please call 911 ASAP !!!11!!1!!”.
Edit 2: More pictures (will be deleted in 24 hours): https://a.cockfile.com/cbr1y8.jpg https://a.cockfile.com/PHLXtf.jpg https://a.cockfile.com/bRglDW.jpg

cezyou


besides the corrective surgery, what other surgeries do you have in mind for the future, if any? what are you doing to prevent the formation of scar tissue, if anything?


TsaritsaYevfimiya

Scrotectomy and maybe other cosmetic surgeries depending on the result of my performance in the revision surgery. Proper suturing to have good cosmetic results.

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TsaritsaYevfimiya

I don’t have autism or any other mental health diagnosis.

Positive-Dependent

post this to r/DIY

TsaritsaYevfimiya

I posted it on r/transdiy and stupid mods deleted it.

Cauchemar89 What did you do with your testicles after you removed them? Threw them away or do you plan to keep them?


TsaritsaYevfimiya

Buried in a pot.

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ksenu

You are the stupid one. This does not apply when one uses HRT.

TsaritsaYevfimiya

These side effects assume that I do not take exogenous sex hormones. I will have only infertility and maybe breast growth from it.

CoolerDude42069

.......Do you know what a boymoder is?
Those side effects except hot flashes are the goal, and since she is taking estrogen, that one is not a problem.

thesnownigro

So how did you achieve anesthesia?


TsaritsaYevfimiya

I used a 25 G needle with 30 ml syringe to inject 2:1 ratio of 0.5% bupivacaine to 2% lidocaine. 10 ml for each cord block, couple of mililiters for the incision and I used the remaining to occassionaly spurt on the surgery side.

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TsaritsaYevfimiya

They should teach children about surgery along with anatomy. Self-surgery is empowering, it gives you great control over your own body.

cool_colcoolcoool

Where did you buy the materials necessary for the surgery?


TsaritsaYevfimiya

Sutures from https://www.esutures.com . The rest are from local suppliers.

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TsaritsaYevfimiya

I would not call it mutilation since I performed it surgically. But thanks.

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TsaritsaYevfimiya

I initially posted this on transdiy but stupid mods decided to delete it and permaban me without any warning. I think one can still read the comments: https://old.reddit.com/r/TransDIY/comments/fks2hd/i_selfperformed_orchiectomy_ama_do_not_concernpost/

Archived here.

queerpoof

Wow! I have a few questions. How did you learn how to perform this surgery? What ultimately led you to decide to do this yourself? Did you use any local anesthetic? Were you nervous? In retrospect and considering the complication, are you glad you did it yourself or do you wish you had waited for someone else to do it?


TsaritsaYevfimiya

How did you learn how to perform this surgery?

I divided the study into following three areas.

• Surgical skills,
• Anatomy,
• Procedure.

I mainly used David Stoker’s Basic Surgical Skills & Technique for the first one, Hinman’s UroSurgical Anatomy for the second one, and surgery videos and some articles for the procedure. I read many other books and articles as well. There are also other considerations than the procedure itself. Like sterilizing the instruments and planning how one is going to set-up the OR.

What ultimately led you to decide to do this yourself?

The idea of bodily autonomy. I want to do more surgeries on myself and have full control over my body. This surgery was to gauge the gap between how I thought I will perform vs. how I actually performed.

Did you use any local anesthetic?

I used a 25 G needle with 30 ml syringe to inject 2:1 ratio of 0.5% bupivacaine to 2% lidocaine. 10 ml for each cord block, couple of mililiters for the incision and I used the remaining to occassionaly spurt on the surgery side.

Were you nervous?

Not at all. I only got frustrated during the surgery for not figuring out some things. My mistakes became clear to me after the surgery.

are you glad you did it yourself

I am glad I did it myself. I blame myself for the complication. If I had another chance, I would do it again without doing the same mistakes, I wouldn’t go to a licensed surgeon.

This was covered in the tranny sideshows thread back in 2020:

This group is moderated by ksenu and TsaritsaYevfimiya
ksenu = ksenia on 4chan/lgbt/
TsaritsaYevfimiya = effy on 4chan/lgbt/

Ksenu aka Mario Xerxes Castelán Castro is 23/24y old, from Mexico and wants to become a white female. He wants to look like Alina Davis.
He has his own philosophy and can be found on his website:

https://male-to-female.org/

It seems TsaritsaYevfimiya/effy is also involved in it.

Ksnenia is also mentioned in this thread here on the farms: 4chan's /lgbt/ - A culture clash between channers and the LGBTWTFBBQ

https://kiwifarms.st/threads/4chans-lgbt.28345/

Mid March TsaritsaYevfimiya /effy performed orchiectomy on himself (read: he cut off his dick & balls)

r/Boymode - I self-performed orchiectomy (AMA; DO NOT CONCERN-POST!)

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Spoiler: Some pics of the self-surgery can be found here (Spoiler only contains URLs so not actual pics)

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The 4chan thread is deleted but here is the archive:

/lgbt/ - Self-performed orchiectomy - Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, & Trans…

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And here's some more info plus a how-to written by TsaritsaYevfimiya /effy:

https://male-to-female.org/en/self-orchiectomy#asepsis

I'll just post the pictures of the surgery directly here:

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And yes he made a tutorial so you can try at home for yourself:

Self-performing orchiectomy​

I just had a look at his tutorial and I have to say, Tsarina Effy is way more thorough than Jadis Argiope was with Operation Trannie Freedom Part I and Part II. This trannie even included a whole list of medical references at the bottom of his tutorial. He has definitely written the definitive self-castration tutorial now.

Jadis Argiope is another tranny who did self-castration and posted a how-to guide:

Recipe For Self-Castration​

He's been interviewed several times about it:

Self Surgery: Meet the transgender woman who performed a sex change – on herself​

When Jadis Argiope decided she wanted to undergo a sex change but was unable to afford the operation she was left with only one option – to perform it herself.

Speaking on TLC UK’s newest show Self Surgery, which begins on the channel on Thursday night, the Arizona native spared no detail when it came to revealing the eye-watering details of the op.

And she recalled how the whole thing almost ended in disaster after she attempted to remove one of her testicles – only to come close to severing an artery in the process.

‘It was almost like a bomb, where you don’t know where to snip,’ Jadis explained, ‘and if you do it too wrong or too early you end up bleeding to death.

She also outlined her reasons for taking such drastic measures – which she filmed and put online (and yes, the footage does feature on the show in case you’re a tad squeamish).

‘I knew I needed to have my testicles out of my body,’ Jadis said.

‘I knew I would never be able to afford an operation performed by a real surgeon, and so I would have to take matters in to my own hand

She added: ‘I knew as long as I had this testicle in my body it would continue to poison me.

‘It was like a demon, a monster, someone hunting me down, so I had to get rid of it one way or another.’

Jadis eventually endured a 30-hour operation after finally seeking medical help for her botched procedure

And she is now in the care of a professional surgeon in the hope of finally getting her surgery – while hoping others in her position won’t ever have to go to the same lengths.

‘My hope’, she admitted, ‘is that in the not too distant future society will be more sensitive to transgender women so they won’t have to do the drastic things I had to do.’

Yet, he still suffers transhuman dysphoria and wants a Neuralink to alleviate it:

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And yeah, as you can tell, Jadis Illiana Argiope isn't his real name:

You see, when I came out, and first told everyone about the transition, the first questions from everyone were about bathroom privileges, gender pronouns, and what the Hell my new name was gonna be! And I didn’t know just where it would fit in, I just knew that I was meant to be called Argiope. Pronounced properly, Ar -jye (or a soft G) -oh -pee, it was the name, I discovered, from a very intimidating, yet marvelous spider I once came across in Texas. Argiope. It just fit fit. But where?

I considered Argiope Dionysus — to stick with the whole Grecco-Roman thing. Wilfred, Wendy, something feminine or at least androgynous starting with a “W”. W-Argiope-Hager? Hager was my last name; W-A-H were my old initials. And I really liked those initials because they were symmetrical and part of an old monogram I once came up with. Jeez!

So finally, I settled on Jadis Illiana Argiope. Jadis, being the name of the White Witch, The Queen in the Chronicles of Narnia. I took this name in honour of my mother. Illiana, being a name that my closest sister and I came up with many years ago, determined to be among the most beautiful sounding names a woman could have. And Argiope, mostly because it just fit, but the attraction to it can be accredited to my father because of the arachnofilia and the love of strange things he inspired in me and my younger siblings as a child. And so, I consider all three to be in honour and devotion to my Mother, Sister, and Father, all in ascending order.

That being said, I’ve always had a curiosity with names. They have meaning. And not just the personal qualities we give them, or the people we associate them with. Ultimately, every name is, or is derived from, a word. And from those words can be derived an even greater meaning. For me, my first name, my old name, translated to The Advancing Wolf; a name that implied a sense of cunning. My middle name was the name of either a Viso- or Ostro-Goth chieftain or something like that, and meant King of All Things. My last name, I honestly don’t really know. But with what I had, together it inspired a mock-up foreshadowing, and delusions of grandeur. Needless to say, even though it didn’t quite seem to fit, what I found attractive about it was a fantasy that I might one day get to grasp the world; to know and to keep, if just for a little while. Feelings inspiring dreams of control and power. A world that never made sense to me, that I might one day get have the privilege to give it order; mine.

What’s In A Name?

So Jadis Argiope is Wolgang Alarich Haeger.



On the r/TransSurgeriesWiki (Archive) has an entire section for self surgeries:

DIY Surgery​

It should go without saying, but this is exceptionally dangerous.

reddit

• r/stirringcastration - seems to be a diy castration sub
• reply to People asking about vial coring so I wrote an article, see the articles Orchiectomy and Orchiectomy part 2
• A warning tale by IndividualExciting99 in 2023 - "I have tried several methods of self castration only one had any success??. about 18 weeks ago I injected both testicles with 3mm of hypretonic (30%) saline this was not painful at all and both testicles became swollen. this was about 3 inches in diamiter... All was well after a couple of days both testicles went down. Both were soft with no hard lumps or aparent internal structures. I was smiling inside finally I had done it, what a relief.. a couple of days later my left ball started to swell and was painful. fuck was it painful. codene and ibroprofen together failed to touch the pain. I walked into the local hospital and spoke to triage. at this point my testicle was about 7 inches long 2,5 inches diameter and so tender. triage called the uroligy consultant who felt prodded and poked then he said "this has to come off NOW" so i was admited and a emergengy op scheduled. when I came round it was not nice i reacted badly to the shit they gave to knock me out.. any way this left me wit no left testicle and a right testicle aboy the size of a single peanut... To anyone trying to kill their balls by injection all i can say is DONT"
• Jeez, trans woman prisoner who did her own orchiectomy is now denied estrogen, they'll only give her testosterone by _shagger_ in 2023
• Explaination to the doctor by Suspicious_Papaya_96 in 2022
• reply to Knowing if you're ready.. by ashleyjm in 2022
• reply to Knowing if you're ready.. by ashleyjm in 2022 - alcohol injections followed by surgeons orchi
• Absorption of EstroGel after home orchiectomy by AshlyBotex in 2020
• April 28 on the left, yesterday on the right, after eight stir sessions. Something looks a little different...can’t quite put my finger on it by stirrednuts in 2020 - there's plenty more in their post history, also look on r/M2E
• April 10th. Status on my journey to become an Eunuch. by Meetoo73 in 2020
• I self-performed orchiectomy (AMA; DO NOT CONCERN-POST!) by TsaritsaYevfimiya in 2020 - in r/transmaxxing
• I self-performed orchiectomy (AMA; DO NOT CONCERN-POST!) by TsaritsaYevfimiya in 2020 - in r/Boymode
• This is what it looks like with legs closed. On the previous picture my legs were spread. The random scar is from my self surgery and not the doctors fault. I talked to someone in the healthcare system, and they can remove the hair inside the vagina. So I feel a little better now. by stupidstories in 2020
  • reply to I had bottom surgery yesterday. Everything went great and now I'm finally done with the whole transitioning phase of being trans. Even bought myself a support shark to help me recover. by stupidstories in 2019
• I self-performed orchiectomy (AMA; DO NOT CONCERN-POST!) by TsaritsaYevfimiya in 2020
• Alcohol injections by staygrateful123 in 2020
• {IM-hrt} Estrogen lv's Post-up and progesteron use Questions by barb32 in 2020, also see earlier posts here and here
• Considering CaCl2 injection... Any advice? in 2019
• In the hospital after almost bleeding out after having an unlicensed orchi. by empresskittycat in 2017 - "So, about a year ago I got into contact with someone who had her orchiectomy done by a man who used to do them on sheep and it was his fetish so he had done it on her... So, yesterday he came over to my apartment. The procedure I was completely awake for and it was horrible, horrible pain. My testicles kept going back inside my scrotum so he kept having to push them out. Then he got one off and the artery started bleeding. He sutured it (badly) and then got the other one out and off. By the end of it I had been screaming and writihing in pain, but he finished and I was so happy to have them gone. He left me and my partner for me to rest in bed. Well, about ten minutes later I heard what sounded like water being poured onto the bed and there was blood everywhere. It was just gushing. So, my partner called the paramedics. They came and got me into the ambulence which was hard because I live on the second floor and I could not stand up without possibly completely bleeding out. I got to the hospital and they put me into proper surgery. They reopened me up, cleaned me out, made sure to remove any debris the first guy left over and now I am still here, still in immense pain. The police were called by the hospital too and my unlicensed surgeon is now under investigation. I feel a little bad for him since he was such a nice guy, or seemed to be... The "Surgeon" was arrested last night so he will not be able to do his risky business again. While I feel kind of bad for him, after reading comments here I think it is probably for the best."

kitten den

• https://mesityl.substack.com/p/orchiectomy
• https://mesityl.substack.com/p/orchiectomy-part-2

YouTube

• I Cut Off My Penis - The Life of a Nullo by Three Eye Films in 2022

ABC News

• Man who cut off 52yo's testicle in Port Macquarie motel room was just trying to help, court hears in 2017

gbtimes
Chinese man sues after illegal transgender surgery in 2016

nbc4i

• Man arrested for botching castration on victim he met on dark web, deputies say in 2019

ABC7 Chicago

• Denver DA charges O'Hare pilot in castration case in 2017

Roland Mery

• EdgeMediaNetwork - Man in Wales Performs Self-Serve Sex-Change Surgery in 2009
• WalesOnline - I was so desperate for a sex change i did it myself in 2019

The Daily Beast

• Inside the World of Backstreet Castrators, Cutters and Eunuch-Makers by Mark Hay in 2021

PinkNews

• ‘Eunuch maker’ arrested after police raid on flat over alleged live-streamed castrations in 2022 - "Seven men were arrested in a north London flat after reports of castration procedures that were broadcast live online."

The Baffler

• Doctors Who? Radical lessons from the history of DIY transition by Jules Gill-Peterson in 2022

Wikipedia

• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Self-surgery

Papers

• Attempted self-castration with bilateral intratesticular injections of calcium chloride by Matthew S Correia in 2023
• 2022 - Choosing Castration: A Thematic Analysis of the Perceived Pros and Cons of Genital Injuries and Ablation by Men Who Voluntarily Sought Castration by Erik Wibowo, Samantha T S Wong, Richard J Wassersug, Thomas W Johnson
• 2022 - Male genital self-mutilation due to tomophobia - case report and review of literature by Jagadish Rao Padubidri, K S Akshath, Tanya Singh, Matthew Antony Manoj - "... we present the case of a 45-year-old man who was found deceased in his home in a pool of blood with a knife and a pair of scissors lying next to him. In addition to this, parts of the intestine were found next to the body. The patient was diagnosed with hydrocoele and had a known history of tomophobia which caused him to take matters into his own hands by incising his scrotum which led to his demise."
• 2022 - Genital self-amputation-its psychological urge by Srinath Ravichandran, Peter Mark Smith, Vincent Tang = "This case report highlights a rare case of self-inflicted bilateral testicular amputation and partial penile amputation in a patient who is a transwoman with a psychiatric history... The testes were not re-implanted as the patient refused and, after psychiatric discussion, was deemed to have capacity. She then re-presented within a week with self-inflicted partial amputation of penis. On both admissions, the patient had psychiatric evaluation but she was sectioned under the mental health act the second time." - this is in the UK
• 2022 - Genital Mutilation in Males by Carlos Toribio-Vázquez, Álvaro Yebes, José Quesada-Olarte, Andrea Rodriguez, María Alonso-Bartolomé, Héctor Ayllon, Luis Martinez-Piñeiro
• 2021 - Male Genital Self-Mutilation with Complete Exposure of Both Testes by Pedro Vila-Braña, Almudena Sabio-Bonilla, Alba Tamayo-Gómez, Ana Jiménez-Dominguez, M Ángeles Rosales-Muñoz, Elena Palenciano-Ruiz, Jorge Alcázar-Beltrán, Ignacio Puche-Sanz
• 2021 - Genital self-mutilation: A challenging pathology (Review) by Sorin Lupu, Ovidiu Gabriel Bratu, Delia Mirela Tit, Simona Bungau, Octavian Maghiar, Teodor Andrei Maghiar, Camelia C Scarneciu, Ioan Scarneciu
• 2020 - Presentation and resolution of gender dysphoria as a positive symptom in a young schizophrenic man who presented with self-emasculation: Frontiers of bioethics, psychiatry, and microsurgical genital reconstruction by Rand N Wilcox Vanden Berg, Christopher D Gaffney, Darius A Paduch - "Gender dysphoria can present as a positive symptom of schizophrenia. Completion of gender affirmation surgeries should not occur as a result of male genital self-mutilation via a deferral of emergent surgical reconstruction. Instead, gender affirmation should be considered after a full workup and assessment for resolution of any acute psychosis." - this is in the USA
• 2018 - Management of self-inflicted orchiectomy in psychiatric patient. Case report and non-systematic review of the literature by Marco Garofalo, Alessandro Colella, Paolo Sadini, Lorenzo Bianchi, Giacomo Saraceni, Eugenio Brunocilla, Giorgio Gentile, Fulvio Colombo
• 2014 - The hidden world of self-castration and testicular self-injury by Thomas W Johnson, Michael S Irwig
• 2014 - Voluntary genital ablations: contrasting the cutters and their clients by Robyn A Jackowich, Rachel Vale, Kayla Vale, Richard J Wassersug, Thomas W Johnson
• 2013 - Nonprescribed Hormone Use and Self-Performed Surgeries: “Do-It-Yourself” Transitions in Transgender Communities in Ontario, Canada by Nooshin Khobzi Rotondi, Greta R. Bauer, Kyle Scanlon, Matthias Kaay, Robb Travers, and Anna Travers
• 2012 - Self-castration by a transsexual woman: financial and psychological costs: a case report. by St Peter M, Trinidad A, Irwig MS
• 2012 - Three cases of penile self-mutilation by Suguru Yoneda, Takanori Kinjo, Takeshi Oida, Kentaro Takezawa, Hironori Nomura, Norihide Tei, Shingo Takada, Kiyomi Matsumiya
• 2007 - Male genital self-amputation in the Middle East. A simple repair by anterior urethrostomy by Samir S Shirodkar, Fayez T Hammad, Naseem A Qureshi
• 2006 - Traumatic luxation of the testis due to self-mutilation: a case report by Yuji Ishibiki, Tsutomu Matsumura
• 2003 - An American hijra: a report of a case of genital self-mutilation to become India's "third sex". by Master V, Santucci R.
• 2002 - A case of complete self-mutilation of penis by Masayuki Tomita, Shigetaka Maeda, Takahiro Kimura, Isao Ikemoto, Yukihiko Oishi
• 2002 - Successful penile replantation following autoamputation: twice! by B G Volkmer, S Maier
• 1999 - Psychiatric and surgical management of male genital self-mutilation by Y Suraya, K C Saw
• 1996 - On background factors of male genital self-mutilation by M Nakaya
• 1995 - Self-castration in a transsexual. by S J McGovern
• 1991 - Psychiatric aspects of male genital self-mutilation by T Martin, W F Gattaz
• 1982 - Self-performed bilateral orchiectomy in transsexuals. by Krieger MJ, McAninch JW, Weimer SR
• 1980 - Genital Self-Surgery by J Money
• 1979 - Genital and Abdominal Self-surgery A Case Report by Ned H. Kalin
• 1979 - Male genital self-mutilation by H Greilsheimer, J E Groves
• 1976 - Three Cases of Genital Self-Surgery and Their Relationship to Transexualism by J Money, M De Priest

r/StirringCastration is pretty gross, I think it may belong more in the Nullo thread, though.

Been stirring every three to four days. / Archive

I’ve been stirring regularly and I found I like putting a vertical and horizontal needle in each testicle. I feel like I have an easier time getting a good stirring.

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7 months gone and loving life more than ever. / Archive

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