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Spitting on her face and butt stuff, clearly.
Lolcow Andrew Peter Carlson / Anaiah Carlson / Tamarlover / Xtamarlover - Jewish/Christian Wannabe Cult Leader, Stalker, Ugly af, dogfucker, mayor of spitsville
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We messaged each other a ton before I moved in with her finally. Once I moved in with her, we did not do facebook or emails, because we didn't really have any reason to do since we were there with each other. We did text, but I didn't have a smart phone at the time, so I had to pick and choose which messages to keep and which to delete. I only kept the ones that were most important to me and at the time I had no realization how crazy she would become in the future. So I didn't bother to try saving all the text messages. In the beginning i did try to save all the text messages in a digital copy, but I found it tedious and decided to delete most of them. So the essential result is that most of my text messages I exchanged with her are gone. And the facebook messages are all before I moved in with her or after she broke up with me.
But what I can say is that from my perspective how it happened as I remember it is she broke up with me because she thought she might be married to Seth and our religious beliefs were beginning to have difficult clashes and she was feeling unhappy being with me due to those increasing religious incompatibilities, but she asked me to stay with her in Ohio even though she broke up with me. I couldn't stay in Ohio with her but not be in a relationship with her because that was too painful for me and seemed strange and I had just became a health food nut at that time, so I decided it would be best to go home instead of being a burden on complete strangers. So I went home. We continued to have a friendly relationship in which she told me she loved me, missed me, and we both hoped for a while that we might get back together. But she would not message me for a long time. As we continued to talk on a rare occasion, our theology began clashing more and more. She stayed in Ohio for six months about before going back home to Washington State. As she was getting ready to go back home, she started saying I was bondage to her. Our theology continued to clash in increasing escalation over the following months until she and I started arguing/fighting in private facebook messages about our beliefs, and she said she is not sure if I am saved, and that point I told her words to the effect of I know I am not saved but I also know she is not saved and is going to hell because she is evil. She was really upset that I said that to her, and decided to end friendship with me due to those intense religious differences. After this I tried to email and text her and use other facebook accounts to try to convince her to be my friend again. It wasn't working. I then posted a question on yahoo where I attacked her by name as a horrible person. She eventually saw it and was upset.
Then after this, I made a video on youtube addressed to her son. Since she had told me that I would always be his dad, I decided I would make a video for him that I hoped maybe when he was much older he would see. Well eventually she found out about the video, and got freaked out by me making a video like that. I did not mean anything bad or scary about it at all, but I was just trying to follow through with what she had told me and what I had promised. I think at that point. the video changed things for her, and she began to suspect that I was a horrible person. She started recasting everything that happened between us in her mind. She became involved in a christian group that specializes in alleged deliverance ministry delivering from demons supposedly. Well they convinced her that anyone who changes their name to a Hebrew name is demon possessed and that the Hebrew roots movement which I was a part of was a masonic or satanic cult. Based on this new knowledge she had, which was incompatible with her memories, she had to reinterpret her memories in light of this change of view about me. So instead of the fond memories she had of me, all the good things and the love that we had was twisted by her in her memory into a horrible thing that I had done to manipulate and trick her into being with me because of how sinister a person she thought I was so the person she thought I was she assumed that he couldn't have been sincere in those things, because of how horrible a person I think he is. And that's when she saw i still had pictures of her on my profile and she began accusing me of raping her and kidnapping her and her son. The hateful things she has said to me has increased over the years since that time. But that's how it happened according to my knowledge.
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Maybe once she realized how much pressure you put on her to alter her life to be with you, she figured out that you are not a good guy. It is possible to love someone in the moment and only realize with hindsight how dysfunctional and harmful the relationship truly was.
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@tamarlover
You seem to have had an in person relationship with Ariel which spanned a few weeks at her dad's place and then at least another few weeks in Ohio after that. Yet you claim that you've only had sex about 5 times. That seems extremely odd, especially as you were a 19 year old hanging around naked with her most of the day. Care to explain? It suggests that she was somewhat hesitant about having sex with you.
Also, was spending the majority of your time together naked her idea or yours?
You seem to have had an in person relationship with Ariel which spanned a few weeks at her dad's place and then at least another few weeks in Ohio after that. Yet you claim that you've only had sex about 5 times. That seems extremely odd, especially as you were a 19 year old hanging around naked with her most of the day. Care to explain? It suggests that she was somewhat hesitant about having sex with you.
Also, was spending the majority of your time together naked her idea or yours?
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I had sex with her something like 30-50 times. Only about 5 times did I have her pussy. All other sex that was done was unfairly one sided in my favor, which I regret that happened. She gladly pleasured me, but she began being frustrated that she was not being sexually fulfilled by me. And I was wrong to allow that to happen. It was not my intention for it to be one sided but it just ended up happening before I fully realized what had happened and it was too late. Because of some activities we had done, she was sore, so that prevented me from having her pussy for about a week. Then maybe a week later she started menstruating and that preventing me from being with her for a week since according to the Bible you are supposed to abstain for a week during that time. But our logic was well maybe it just means to abstain from her pussy so we were still doing sexual things when she was menstruating but she wasn't being pleasured. I had sex a few times in Illinois when I met my ex for the first time during the weekend of my cousin's wedding. About a month later, i moved into her dad's house, and had sex with her regularly for about 3 and a half weeks. Then we had to leave her dad's house and find somewhere else to live because he wasn't letting me stay there anymore. So she drove us all the way to Ohio, and along the way, we continued to do sexual things on the road every now and then. When we arrived in Ohio, we stayed there for two weeks about and we did not have sex or any sexual activity in Ohio a single time. I wanted to but she refused to have sex with me when we were in Ohio the entire time. Part of it was out of spite against me for having let our sex be so onesided. The other part was she didnt' want to have during the upcoming religious festivals we were going to observe with the group we were staying with in Ohio. We both enjoyed being naked a lot, but I initiated it more than she did.
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What did you do to this woman to put her vagina out of commission for a week? A day or two, sure, but a fucking week?
So not only is tamarlover a stalker, a sociopath, and a child abuser, but apparently he also has some extremely dysfunctional ideas on what constitutes sex activity.
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What do you mean by "one-sided" sex? Just blowjobs? Did you eat her out at all?
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Maybe she just said it was out of commission because she didn't enjoy having sex with him.
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Yes, I am also curious about this same thing. Could you be more specific about the sex acts you say she agreed to, especially any causing physical damage? What happened during those weeks?
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How relevant your username is now. Yeah, that thought crossed my mind too, but this is the guy who was nude around a child regularly - so I wouldn't have put it past him to have done something fucked up to her.
Imagine, giving a guy head 30 times and in return getting a wrecked cooch, a traumatized child, and a stalker.
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Have you ever masturbated so much or humped a bed so much that your penis gets raw wounds and semi bleeding cuts? I have. Something similar must have happened with my ex due to me having her rubbing against the bed too much while I was rubbing against her on top of her. The reason it lasted like a week is we continued sexual activity which made recovery from soreness slower. It was too sore to have her pussy, but not sore enough to do sexual activity still, but the amount we were still doing was inhibiting a quick recovery from her soreness.
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No because we're not you or @Connor Bible
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A large amount of it was blow jobs, her masturbating me, and me humping up against her body. I wanted to reciprocate orally but I was grossed out by the idea and couldn't bring myself to do it. Also selfconscious about it. She could do things so well it seemed, but I felt shy and inadequate in reciprocating some of the activities that I was more subconscious about. It was much easier and more comfortable to receive than give things I was uncomfortable doing.
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Hold up. Are you trying to say that you guys dry-humped so much her vagina got chafed? That is exceptional as fuck.
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How would that work? The only way I can imagine a girl rubbing her spread pussy on a bed is if she's doing the splits.. if it wasn't her opening that was rubbing against the bed, it shouldn't have made her pussy sore.
Did you ever do lewd stuff in front of her kid?
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Yes that is what happened. I did not do disturbing sex acts to her like you see in bdsm or violent relationships. I was unfairly one sided to her, and caused her to be sore via too much dry humping and I did some things like as I said before which she felt degraded afterwards, but i did not realize she felt degraded otherwise I would not have done them. Such as the spitting.
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You still didn't tell us what inappropriate sexual things you were apologizing for in those logs you posted yesterday.
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I have not had sexual relations with anyone else. Unless you count cyber sex, which I did several times with one of my friends, but I don't think that really counts.
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Male or female friend? What was it like?
In your eyes, would having cyber sex with someone while in a relationship count as adultery?