Comfy Summer
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- May 20, 2025
I can relate. Had necessary back surgery and my cerebrospinal fluid wouldn't stop leaking, had other 4 surgeries in close proximity just to fix that. After the last surgery my mind was in a really dark place, I was thinking I ruined my life. The severe pain of the first surgery + psychological effect of having so many procedures + lying down for days upon days + risk of infections... it was really bad.I had people I loved baby me every time I opened my eyes, I understood what was medically happening to me, the drugs they were giving me etc. But even so. . . I remember one bad night, where I couldn't pass urine, the exhausting pain, and constant effort to remain awake, I said in my head "Mother Mary please hear me, please make this stop and send me to Heaven", it's terrifying remembering this now. But I was so ground down, the pain of existing weighed more than the love and obligation I felt for everyone in my life.
I can't imagine that, but also knowing you mutilated your body and it's beyond repair. Troons really don't take the risks seriously.
Yeah, there's a religious like fervor in them. Their bodies are destroyed, but in their minds they are having "life-saving surgeries". It takes long for someone to admit they've been duped by a cult.I might be giving TIMS and TIFs too much credit, but I cannot imagine the willpower required to not only elect for this surgery, but to endure years of post operative therapy, quite frankly it's remarkable most of them last as long as they do, and it explains their bizarre pseudo-religious culture of self-affirmation.

