Me and my brother were going back home after we went to Mc'Donalds and I called my boyfriend to meet us half way cause I wanted to go with him while my brother goes back home (we still live together with our mom, I'm in college and my brother in his last year of high school), before we separated we were going under a tunnel where suddenly a man attacked and pinned me to the ground and demanded to give him everything I have, my brother jumped on him and managed to pin him down (despite being younger my brother's training for military school so he's much stronger than me just like my boyfriend, the robber was also drunk which I could smell right away and unarmed so both us managed to pin him down till the police took him in), however my boyfriend literally just ... Ran away. Not even to get help, he just ran away the moment the robber attacked me.
He didn't even go back till I called him to give a statement to the police ... He justified himself by saying he just panicked when he saw the robber and ran away without thinking but like ... Is that supposed to make me feel better ? All that cuddle talk about how he'd protect me from anything and the first time he has to do it he just does this ? Even my brother taunted him afterwards about being a cowardly girl and I couldn't even defend him. I just feel like I lost all my attraction I had for him ...
Honestly I expected my brother to be the one to leave me cause we never had a good relationship, not even before I came out, at most we tolerated each other's existence. My boyfriend did apologize for his reaction but I asked him for space for now but I just don't know how can I get over this ... He literally let my asshole brother to save me instead of him, like how can you recover from this. And is it even worth recovering from something like this ?
Sorry if my throughts are incoherrent as I'm still reeling from this (the attack happened yesterday).