Lolcow Andrew Peter Carlson / Anaiah Carlson / Tamarlover / Xtamarlover - Jewish/Christian Wannabe Cult Leader, Stalker, Ugly af, dogfucker, mayor of spitsville

For example, if all these things about Tamar had not happened, and you had known me from high school, and you knew that I had followed a girl in the hallway, you wouldn't think a big deal about it. You'd say i shouldn't have done that but you wouldn't have found it that disturbing. You only find some of the things I share about myself so disturbing because of what I have done with Tamar and my ex.

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Have you ever noticed that you always interpret your religious beliefs to ethically justify behaving in whatever way you personally want, while moralizing about what other people do?
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I am one of the only religious people who actively teaches that he is not saved and is currently on his way to hell if he doesn't change who he is as a person morally and ethically. I've been teaching this about myself for the last seven years.
 
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Fangsofjeff said:
Why did you send it to her? Did you think she would like knowing that you want to poo in her mouth or spank her raw?
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Wrong i would never ever do that to her or desire to do that.

I sent her my 250 page book, and i put a few pages about my desires in there in the mix of everything else. I went all out and gave her everything she needs to know about me to make her decisions about me going forward. It is unlikely she read the whole book and I don't know how much of the book she has read. i may never know. Unless there is a trial and she cites like the entire book as evidence then I know wow she actually read it all.
 
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tamarlover said:
Wrong i would never ever do that to her or desire to do that.

I sent her my 250 page book, and i put a few pages about my desires in there in the mix of everything else. I went all out and gave her everything she needs to know about me to make her decisions about me going forward. It is unlikely she read the whole book and I don't know how much of the book she has read. i may never know. Unless there is a trial and she cites like the entire book as evidence then I know wow she actually read it all.
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Why won't you respect her decision then?
 
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Because its unacceptable.

It needs to be a valid decision. here are the valid decisions:

1.Marriage
or 2.Friendship
or 3.Acquaintanceship
or 4.Final Discussion over our issues and if i can't convince her in the final conversation to let me back into her life, then I walk away forever.

these four options are the only acceptable options. and she must pick one of them if she wants me out of her life forever
 
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tamarlover said:
Maybe I can tire and exhaust people to the point that they don't care about the drama involving me and Tamar. ;)
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tamarlover said:
Most of what I desire is not disturbing. I won't share anything with you, not even the nondisturbing things I desire with her, because its none of your business.

The things I share I share intentionally to get a reaction out of people here. For example, when I mentioned the girl I followed in the hall ways, and when I mentioned that I tickled women against their consent, why do you think I mentioned those things? It is obvious that people would react negatively to what I said. that's the point. Its entertaining to say things to people here and see how disturbed they are by it. Everything I mention here is intentional to get a rise out of people and bring the focus and attention on me. Every moment of your day I take and devote to me is me taking your precious time away from you. Which gives me joy and pleasure to take up your time in that manner. What better use of your time than to give your attention to one of the most important people in the world? I soak it up. Keep giving me your time and attention. Its delicious.
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Cato said:
Ah, the classic:
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I said it before, that meme is 100% Andrew. He would like to attempt to make us think he's kidding, but he's so tarded and transparent that a newly cleaned windshield is harder to see through.
 
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tamarlover said:
If i help her be my loving kind compassionate and forgiving as well as more understanding, she can help me be more mean and hateful and vengeful. Which would be good for me and good for her. a win win. I'm a softee often too much. She would help me stand up for myself and not take shit from other people and be firm and powerful and speak my mind and she would encourage a healthier amount of anger and hate than i currently have.

Doing whatever she wants me to do would be a sacrifice for her that would be initially very limiting, but over time, my influence on her would help her loosen up and not be so uptight of a person so she'd be less strict with me as a result.

I believe true love is trying to change everyone you know if at all possible to be what you think they should be.
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I was initially going to follow this up with all the various quotes of you being a "softee" that needs help being mean and hateful and vengeful, but if I did that I'd basically just be quoting the last 5 pages. Also, obligatory, if you were compassionate/understanding wouldn't you take her feelings into account and accept she doesn't want you etc.

Also, how do you think enabling someone to take advantage of you, will make them stop taking advantage of you? I think your influence would definitely rub off on her...but not to make her less strict, to make her even more comfortable with being a total bitch that just uses men. Just take a look at some of the Beauty Parlor threads on her, there's plenty of examples of people with similar mindsets to Tamar. The more people enable them, the more entitled they become.

Your views on true love are also pretty twisted. There's a pretty big difference between trying to help someone, and trying to completely change who someone is. You claim you love Tamar, but time and time again you've admitted that she's a bitch who just uses up men and doesn't care about anyone besides herself. You've said she is willingly making you suffer, and all this other negative stuff. But you also claim to love her. If you loved her, you wouldn't want to change her into a completely different person. You need to accept the reality of who she is. Instead of trying to spend all this time making her a completely different person, why not go out and try to find someone that actually has those qualities for real.
 
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tamarlover said:
No, i am not saying that i am kidding about what i've said here. False.
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Things that the Kiwi Farms can unanimously agree that you are never kidding about:
-never relenting your stalking towards that cunt Tamar(, until you are put in jail and repeatedly raped)
-your bending scripture and ethical texts to suit your excuses
-your love for anus, Dick, and the acts of spitting or defecating upon your lovers
 
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tamarlover said:
or 4.Final Discussion over our issues and if i can't convince her in the final conversation to let me back into her life, then I walk away forever.
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You would rules lawyer your way out of the promise to walk away forever and you know it. It wouldn't matter conversations you had with her, you wouldn't regard any conversation in which she didn't agree to let you back into her life as the "final" one.

There are no "our issues" to discuss. There is no "us" or "we" or "our".
 
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What if she told you the things we told you here? That someone with a history of stalking, obsession, rape, and child abuse, and a barely-existent work history, is not an ideal partner for someone who wants to live a life of being a stay-at-home mom to a bunch of kids?

Would that be enough? See, the way you change the rules, it seems like whatever she'd say, you'd demand she take it back and wouldn't accept it. There's no way you'd tolerate a "final conversation" where she told you exactly the things we've been saying here. And you'd have a chance of becoming violent if she didn't believe or accept your ridiculous explanations and excuses or your view of events.
 
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