Borderline is uncurable from what I understand, and antipsychotics are merely used to mitigate the intensity of it, and the irritability of autism.
I figured I'd kill two birds with one stone.
I understand it's haloperidol typically used in very severe cases of Borderline but with its side-effects profile, excessive potency, and ranking in the Moncrieff studies as the most neurodegenerative (risperidone and olanzipine were joint-least neurodegenerative especially at LED), I'm reluctant to ever go near the stuff.
I'm not categorically schizophrenic. As Fionbarr pointed out:
- Though delusional, I acknowledge and have insight into it.
- Many of my delusions are culturally influenced as a matter not of axiomatic beliefs but at least second-hand if not direct observations.
- KiwiFarms fuels some of these.
- My thoughts, despite being delusional, off anti-psychotics, are still very linear and followable given the right cultural context (he, coincidentally, has read some of the Juche-screeds of Jong-il and was a socialist himself in youth).
- It was up to me if I wanted it; I basically said "let's give the lowest dose a trial and tritate from there". (Sorry I always get the spelling of tritate wrong).
- I did this for my mother more than anyone. I love her and my impetuousness was something I found unforgivable from the earliest moments to myself. (The January 2016 incident).
- I forgot to ask for a fucking mood-stabilizer though! Valproate would be my main choice given its qualities, again, LED because it's strong and primarily used in institutional settings but it's non-dopaminergic, so that's a bonus, although it's anti-progestigenic, so perhaps this should only be a medium-term intervention.