You're still externalizing and refusing to take ownership of your own emotions, Chris. 4chan and KF are both outside of your life. They only touch you if you let them -- by visiting, as you seem to still do for 4chan, or by joining up the way you did at KF. You told me before you have people in your life who support you, so how can you say "the blade hasn't been acknowledge at all"? Never mind that you walked into their midst and dared them to stick that blade in.
Chris, I have to say, if the only hero you can find is a mentally ill man bumbling about social media making a fool of themselves then I must say you are very hard up for heroes. This is why I encourage you to get outside your shell, see the world around you, or if nothing else read and get a perspective for history. There are so many better candidates for your respect than a person who sabotaged their own life and is now trying to exploit their infamy for profit. I guess it makes sense that you idolize Manning, since he leads the life you and people like you want -- a life where everyone offers praise and support for doing nothing, a life where everything needed is bought and paid for by others, a life that outwardly has high purpose even if that's just window dressing and the truth is a much more sad and shallow affair. If you really want to be Bradley... sorry, Chelsea Manning, then please feel free. But I don't think you'd like yourself in Manning's shoes any more than you like yourself in the shoes you're wearing now. God knows Manning doesn't like himself in those shoes.
Chealsea sems pretty happy to me, she seems so cute when she interacts with the trans people who look up to her... she's way stronger and braver than me.... and it's not even the bad kind of strong men want from me.... that inner strength is something i wish i had...
And as for that.... it never is that simple, even when i don't post people from both places stalk me and message me, some have even taken to calling me on the phone or e-mailing me when i get too upset to answer curiouscats. Some of those anons here, especially the 4chan ones have made it clear they want me to kill myself.
