Stephanie Cianfriglia / Sapphire Crimson Claw / Yarrow Brown / the-ghost-fucker / transmascdruid / anarchoenby77 / darktwistedpussy / Druid of Endicot - Xe/xyr ghost-fucker, womb wizard, hand sanitizer sommelier, trans-boomer, violently abuses her elderly parents, has sexual fantasies about raping children

[NoFeline]

I hate that despite reading everything here, part of me is badly trying to give Stephanie the benefit of the doubt by thinking “maybe her dad has said things we don’t know about” or “sometimes people won’t leave their abusers for a number of reasons”.

If she is genuinely autistic, sometimes autistic people aren't able to describe their experiences with an abuser in a meaningful way, like hyperfocusing on one detail/story and not painting the full picture

I'm really starting to doubt she's autistic though. Maybe a condition that can be mistaken for autism? Before it was brought up that she has "autistic symptoms" but was not diagnosed with autism, and has had delusions from a young age, is still excessively paranoid about her family, thinks people want to murder spoonies (as evidenced in her retweets)... I'm aware that at least in children Autism and Schizophrenia/Schizoaffective can be confused with each other, maybe she's a genuine schizo, god knows.

 

[Chicken Picnic]

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My mum said if i didnt brush my teeth people would think i'm a "dirty cow" when i was like 7. Not emotional abuse, just a bit of a dick move to say to a child. A lot of people have parents with questionable actions- narc parents are a nightmare for example. But I know a lot of kiwis have experience with that, just by the way people get upset at cows like Margaret Palermo for how they treat their kids. Automatically assuming no one understands or hates you because they call you out on shit coping mechanisms or say "hey, thats not cool" is just childish, nothing to do with regressing emotionally due to CSA. Emotional abuse can and does fuck up a lot of people, but you can't just stop living your life because of it, you have to take matters into your own hands and help yourself overcome it. A good therapist will validate your experience whilst telling you the wrongthink in your own beliefs. :powerlevel: but having a parent that constantly is an emotional/narc mess fucks you up, it makes you anxious at small things and everything else Steph says, but what she says just sounds like parroting from those tumblr "your feelings are valid" and "you dont understand what its like to have someone angrily wash a dish at you" posts that are everywhere in the mental health circles. I'm sensitive to people's reactions to me, I'm always worried about being told ive done something wrong, but i still moved out and now with the help of a good psychologist I have a job without having 24/7 anxiety over getting fired for something like missing a crumb off the floor when cleaning.

maybe she's a genuine schizo, god knows.

Doubt it, she knows its weird. She specifically hasnt told her therapist about the nitty gritty, because she knows that its not normal. She doesn't think they are a figment of a delusion, but she also hides it from professionals whilst posting tons about it online. Doesn't add up, its not consistent enough to be like a schizophrenic style psychosis. If she was delusional she would fully believe it and see no issue in telling everyone and anyone- as to her they would be as real as anyone else, or she would likely tell very few people as she would be worried about the reaction (eg psychiatric treatment). Take CWC's current state atm, she has fully stated she doesn't need to go to a therapist because she isnt delusional: sonichu and co along with their world and other dimensional antics are all real and she goes there all the time. Meanwhile, Steph is seeing a therapist for... some things (i assume depression/anxiety/mood stuff) but for some reason, even though her therapist apparently accepts her gender and otherkin shit, wont mention she has the hots for serial killers and fucks their ghosts frequently cause they are in a loving relationship. Either shes a great therapist who accepts you or she isnt, if you don't tell your therapist every little thing, they can't help you. Thats rule 1. It's awkward and sometimes a bit upsetting, but if you wanna get better you have to do it.

 

[keyboredsm4sh]

If she is genuinely autistic, sometimes autistic people aren't able to describe their experiences with an abuser in a meaningful way, like hyperfocusing on one detail/story and not painting the full picture

I'm really starting to doubt she's autistic though. Maybe a condition that can be mistaken for autism? Before it was brought up that she has "autistic symptoms" but was not diagnosed with autism, and has had delusions from a young age, is still excessively paranoid about her family, thinks people want to murder spoonies (as evidenced in her retweets)... I'm aware that at least in children Autism and Schizophrenia/Schizoaffective can be confused with each other, maybe she's a genuine schizo, god knows.

Giving her even more benefit of the doubt (more than she probably deserves), I had done a google search (not that it proves anything) about rudeness in schizos because of Pam's... behavior and word choice to random shmucks on the internet. Apparently wild claims and general rudeness come from being paranoid everyone's out to get you in schizoids, so. But if we're playing the armchair psychologist, I'd think she's also got a great deal of narcissism or histrionic shit. No real psychologist would want to unpack that.

I'm going to guess she picked her own therapist. Doubt her parents would let her go near "holistic" "medicine".

 

[NoFeline]

She doesn't think they are a figment of a delusion, but she also hides it from professionals whilst posting tons about it online. Doesn't add up, its not consistent enough to be like a schizophrenic style psychosis. If she was delusional she would fully believe it and see no issue in telling everyone and anyone- as to her they would be as real as anyone else, or she would likely tell very few people as she would be worried about the reaction (eg psychiatric treatment).

I don't mean the ghosts. Of course this isn't the movies, schizophrenia is a lot more than just seeing things that aren't there--
(though Stephanie herself has said before that she doesn't see her ghosts anyways, just convinces herself that they're there by...feeling their energy or something)
Assuming for a moment that she's telling the truth about having delusions, I know that most of it is just bizarre beliefs with no basis in reality, and from :powerlevel: that people can live fairly normal lives with it up until something sets them off. She could have just been indoctrinated into the cult of tumblr, or signing up for the site could have triggered something worse.

Currently, she is not seeing a psychiatrist or psychologist, only a therapist...and I have to wonder how long that's been going on. They're not typically qualified to make any diagnosis...tbf the woman she's seeing right now isn't qualified to find her way out of a paper bag.

 

[keyboredsm4sh]

I don't mean the ghosts. Of course this isn't the movies, schizophrenia is a lot more than just seeing things that aren't there--
(though Stephanie herself has said before that she doesn't see her ghosts anyways, just convinces herself that they're there by...feeling their energy or something)
Assuming for a moment that she's telling the truth about having delusions, I know that most of it is just bizarre beliefs with no basis in reality, and from :powerlevel: that people can live fairly normal lives with it up until something sets them off. She could have just been indoctrinated into the cult of tumblr, or signing up for the site could have triggered something worse.

Currently, she is not seeing a psychiatrist or psychologist, only a therapist...and I have to wonder how long that's been going on. They're not typically qualified to make any diagnosis...tbf the woman she's seeing right now isn't qualified to find her way out of a paper bag.

Can people just randomly sign up for therapy without any sort of psychiatric consultation?

 

[Bellsprout]

Can people just randomly sign up for therapy without any sort of psychiatric consultation?

Absolutely. Therapy isn't just for the mentally ill, so there's nothing inherently medical you need in order to see one. Therapists range wildly from 'I can help you with your debilitating mental illness' to 'I can be a safe space to vent about your divorce or whatever'. Sometimes a therapist will be covered by health insurance, but not always. There's a reason every random white chick wants to be a fucking psychologist-- there's bank to be made in the private sector.

This all feels pretty off topic though. Intetesting topic, but still.

 

[Chicken Picnic]

Can people just randomly sign up for therapy without any sort of psychiatric consultation?

If she was psychotic, a psych consult would have to be done to get a diagnosis, your average therapist isn’t trained enough to make a formal diagnosis unfortunately. Same with Autism, they can only really comment on anxiety disorders and depressive disorders. But yes you can defo just sign up for therapy, even easier if you pay for it. Here at least, you need a referral of some kind to get on the waiting list- but for basic stuff like anxiety and depression you can self refer yourself to most services. Anything more complex, usually involving a psychiatrist, requires a proper referral from your doctor.

There are loads of people out there that claim to fuck ghosts though. I don’t think that they’re delusional people- more of some spiritual experience or whatever you call it. Like that weird deep breathing meditation shit that apparently gets you off like mad. Tantric(?) or something. It’s just bodily sensations, what you attribute them to, wherever it’s ghosts or whatever, is up to you. I think Steph is just combining that with her obviously rocky upbringing (wasn’t she adopted?) and using it to express herself, just doing so very vocally.

 

[Hamplanet Fitness]

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[GayDemiBoy]

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She left a sticky spot on the porch... She admitted she left it. She has pictures of her room where there's wax from candles on her shit... But that's apparently clean for her.

 

[PuckishRogue]

Oh dear god

 

[FeatherBomb]

what does she do with the skin......

 

[keyboredsm4sh]

Oh dear god

Look, I get obsessions and compulsions and how strong they can be, but some of them need to be put under control because this is straight fucking nasty. First it's fucking skin flakes, then next it's you living in a derelict abandoned shack piled high with garbage that you can't see through. She'll evolve into Misty. God knows she'd whine about "ablesim" and "muh compulsions" but goddamn, it's not an excuse to be disgusting and engage in blatantly detrimental behavior. For example, plenty of people having cleaning compulsions. Wanting to keep a tidy house is fine, flipping your lid when a single thing is out of its place is not, get it?

 

[Hamplanet Fitness]

Wait, I thought she said earlier that she ate healthy? Why so much ice cream? Also, by "help" no doubt she means "succ that clitty."

 

[zesty bill clinton]

If she was psychotic, a psych consult would have to be done to get a diagnosis, your average therapist isn’t trained enough to make a formal diagnosis unfortunately. Same with Autism, they can only really comment on anxiety disorders and depressive disorders. But yes you can defo just sign up for therapy, even easier if you pay for it. Here at least, you need a referral of some kind to get on the waiting list- but for basic stuff like anxiety and depression you can self refer yourself to most services. Anything more complex, usually involving a psychiatrist, requires a proper referral from your doctor.

There are loads of people out there that claim to fuck ghosts though. I don’t think that they’re delusional people- more of some spiritual experience or whatever you call it. Like that weird deep breathing meditation shit that apparently gets you off like mad. Tantric(?) or something. It’s just bodily sensations, what you attribute them to, wherever it’s ghosts or whatever, is up to you. I think Steph is just combining that with her obviously rocky upbringing (wasn’t she adopted?) and using it to express herself, just doing so very vocally.

The thing is I remember earlier in this thread Stephanie mentioned that once when she was admitted to a behavioral hospital and saw an actual psychiatrist, they diagnosed her as schizophrenic. Afaik that's the only legit, qualified diagnosis she has. Everything else has come from her holistic therapist.

 

[keyboredsm4sh]

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Wait, I thought she said earlier that she ate healthy? Why so much ice cream? Also, by "help" no doubt she means "succ that clitty."

She gets fucking SNAP benefits but bitches about how awful her life is living under daddy's roof... Some poor sons of bitches eat rice and beans 3 different ways. Goddamn she's the bastard love child of Misty and Marissa. Maybe they're her birth parents and one of them secretly used to be a dude.

 

[sugarcummies]

What the hell does she get SNAP for? She's basically a dependent of her parents at 30 years old.

 

[PuckishRogue]

What the hell does she get SNAP for? She's basically a dependent of her parents at 30 years old.

If her parents are retired and on fixed income, she'd likely be able to get them. She's too old to be considered their dependent (without being able to prove she's too disabled to be on her own, but that's usually based in mentality than laziness) so she could likely file on her own and go "I make so little money I need to live with my parents!!!!!1"

 

[Mary Tyler Meltdown]

So she's saying that she doesn't have PTSD from being raped as a child and thus it gave her PTSD? She has PTSD due to *not* having PTSD???

In what fresh hell does some nasty fat pariah have the gall to claim to have PTSD from *not* being raped as a child? This may be peak attention whore.

I'm somewhat entralled and appalled.

Fucking yiiiikes.

 

[FeatherBomb]

She has PTSD due to *not* having PTSD???

Schrodinger's ptsd

 

[keyboredsm4sh]

So she's saying that she doesn't have PTSD from being raped as a child and thus it gave her PTSD? She has PTSD due to *not* having PTSD???

In what fresh hell does some nasty fat pariah have the gall to claim to have PTSD from *not* being raped as a child? This may be peak attention whore.

I'm somewhat entralled and appalled.

Fucking yiiiikes.

If she is genuinely autistic, sometimes autistic people aren't able to describe their experiences with an abuser in a meaningful way, like hyperfocusing on one detail/story and not painting the full picture

I'm really starting to doubt she's autistic though. Maybe a condition that can be mistaken for autism? Before it was brought up that she has "autistic symptoms" but was not diagnosed with autism, and has had delusions from a young age, is still excessively paranoid about her family, thinks people want to murder spoonies (as evidenced in her retweets)... I'm aware that at least in children Autism and Schizophrenia/Schizoaffective can be confused with each other, maybe she's a genuine schizo, god knows.

You know what? I'd maybe believe she had schizophrenia or a schizoid disorder, BUT. She seems way too lucid. When you're schizophrenic, legitimately schizophrenic, you are absolutely all in on your delusions. That is your reality, and you genuinely wonder if other people are fucking with you when they deny your perception of reality (Pam is a good example). Sometimes if they have an audible/visual hallucination they can tell it's just a hallucination if other people are ignoring it or seem to be looking "through" it. Her talk of her ghost husbands could be a schizophrenic delusion/hallucination, but it's just the way she talks about them. It doesn't come off as someone who wholeheartedly believes that the person is in the room telling them things like any other person, but rather a kid with an imaginary friend. ('nother example: Knew a guy who one day went to his parents, said he had a friend named "Klondike" begins to describe something so graphic in nature parents were half-convinced he met a nut who went by Klondike in the woods and killed a man together, turns out he was schizo and Klondike was an auditory hallucination(he didn't hurt anyone). However, her overall crass behavior, dismissal of CSA victims, and trivializing serious disorders (PTSD) makes me wonder if her former psychiatrist was also a quack. Not to mention plenty of other cows (cough Phil) have had "delusions" that Kiwis are out to get them.