Careercow Narcissa Wright / Cosmo Wright - Former speedrunner tumbling down

[AnOminous]

It takes a strong person to turn their life around. Stronger than Narci is. Stronger than most are. That's why most people never change (and thus are tard cum for us all).

Turning it around wouldn't be hard. Stop the drugs. All of them. Put effort into being a professional, quality stream. Treat it like a job. So no more stupid non-game streams and drama rants and weird sex shit. Do this for awhile (6 months at least) Scrub old content as much as possibke. Try and return to twitch claiming mental breakdown for behaviour. Start over.

But thatd be hard so she wont do it (and be a tranny or whatever, but get your life together).

What makes people look at this troon shit and decide this looks like a good idea? I mean how many people start out semi-normal, troon out, and then do absolutely nothing but scream and do drugs and threaten to kill themselves constantly? None of these rat king troons have improved in the least. They all look like they live shitty, nightmare lives of pure misery and angst.

Who the fuck decides this is a good road to go down?

 

[Man vs persistent rat]

What makes people look at this troon shit and decide this looks like a good idea? I mean how many people start out semi-normal, troon out, and then do absolutely nothing but scream and do drugs and threaten to kill themselves constantly? None of these rat king troons have improved in the least. They all look like they live shitty, nightmare lives of pure misery and angst.

Who the fuck decides this is a good road to go down?

In Cosmos's case, his sexual fantasy was dickgirls and wanted to become one. I don't know if becoming a junkie happened when he realised this didn't make him sexy, desirable or satisfied, or whether he was doing that all along.

He literally looked at airbrushed model shoots and hentai and thought he could live like that (okay this does probably confirm he was on drugs before).

 

[Rei is shit]

. He literally just looks like any other kinda wimpy long-haired guy. He looks... normal. It's throwing me off.

Because that is exactly what he is. Just with a lesbo fetish taken to its logical conclusion.

As a side note, on several streams cosmo has mentioned some sort of "mental breakthrough" circa 2014 where he "saw everything for what it is". I would assume this was some kind of drug induced episode, but what happened exactly and what "breakthrough" thought he had has never been explained. Does anyone know what actually went down then?

 

[[V A P O R W A V E]]

It's not in the OP. What is his Twitch Stream? Cosmo?

 

[John Connor]

It's not in the OP. What is his Twitch Stream? Cosmo?

https://www.stream.me/narcissa
chat disabled, you can try the discord but the whiteknights are there to ban anyone who say cosmo

 

[[V A P O R W A V E]]

https://www.stream.me/narcissa
chat disabled, you can try the discord but the whiteknights are there to ban anyone who say cosmo

Wow. If I didnt know Cosmo was Trans I'd just assume they were a moody Teen boy.

Stream is kinda boring. Just doing art.

 

[Twinkie]

I went through a shroom phase in high school. One thing that I noticed is that whenever I was on shrooms, I hated looking at myself in the mirror. The effects of the drug made me perceive my facial features to be shifting around very subtly and it was unpleasant. Standard visual hallucination stuff.

But I can't imagine how someone like cosmo who stares at himself for hours would handle that. Then again I'm not autistic and if he really is, maybe he doesn't even notice. I heard autists aren't good at distinguishing facial expressions or subtle facial features

 

[AnOminous]

I went through a shroom phase in high school. One thing that I noticed is that whenever I was on shrooms, I hated looking at myself in the mirror. The effects of the drug made me perceive my facial features to be shifting around very subtly and it was unpleasant. Standard visual hallucination stuff.

But I can't imagine how someone like cosmo who stares at himself for hours would handle that. Then again I'm not autistic and if he really is, maybe he doesn't even notice. I heard autists aren't good at distinguishing facial expressions or subtle facial features

If I were on hallucinogens and I looked in a mirror and saw something that looked like Cosmo staring back at me, I'd assume I'd completely lost my mind and was hallucinating monsters and I'd call the ER.

 

[CrunkLord420]

"I'm in a lesbian relationship"

The current stream consists of ghoul groans and burping directly into the mic.

 

[BeanBidan]

animals? watching narcissa is like watching a sad russian circus where the animals are all sick and losing their hair

Hol up iz you sayinz Narcissa looking like wild life that just came outta Pripyat?

 

[vertexwindi]

What makes people look at this troon shit and decide this looks like a good idea? I mean how many people start out semi-normal, troon out, and then do absolutely nothing but scream and do drugs and threaten to kill themselves constantly? None of these rat king troons have improved in the least. They all look like they live shitty, nightmare lives of pure misery and angst.

Who the fuck decides this is a good road to go down?

I have known people online like that. It still never fails to baffle me.

 

[GhostButt]

I didn't even say the song I'm thinking of because you know the one...

 

[Sinner's Sandwich]

What makes people look at this troon shit and decide this looks like a good idea? I mean how many people start out semi-normal, troon out, and then do absolutely nothing but scream and do drugs and threaten to kill themselves constantly?

Troonery is a symptom of a mental health problem. It gets worse and worse until you troon out or do some other fucked up shit.

Also don't forget that being trans is the explanation and trooning out is seen as the solution for your problems.

You feel like an outsider, you have issues with your biological sex, , you like jerking of in womens clothing etc. not because you are mentally disabled/ill, a fetishist with paraphilas etc. No, it's because your are in the "wrong" body.

So of course these people spiral further into madness because their mental illness is still there. There is no way to help them because they will reeee & call you transphobic.

The only thing you can do is watching the trainwreck.

 

[Orange//Net]

so cosmo, are you gonna do that stream in a bikini like that creepy fat guy wanted? he's paying your bills dude

I don't want my eyes to bleed to death.

 

[Francis Dollarhyde]

But I can't imagine how someone like cosmo who stares at himself for hours would handle that. Then again I'm not autistic and if he really is, maybe he doesn't even notice. I heard autists aren't good at distinguishing facial expressions or subtle facial features

Deal with people with tism a bit. They can and will remember faces and names, trouble for some comes when they need to put a name with a face. They have to make a conscious effort to remember a name and face and mentally combine the 2 if it is an issue for them, whereas for you it comes naturally. Whether they do subtle or not depends entirely on what kind of tism they have but usually no. What they do (almost) all have in common is a weird attention to detail and most have memory like an elephant. They will admire and remember the leaves but forget all about the lush forest. So even if Cosmo will not really be seeing his face that well, he will remember fine details about his trippy face for quite a while to come. Most likely scenario if he really is on the spectrum.

There are so many types on the spectrum that some differ from others like normal people differ from those on the spectrum. There is also the isue of comorbidity with ASS as the primary disorder. A not complete list. So if he is, 9 out of 10 he as other issues. Druguse, alcoholism and fucked up sleeping patterns are big with these people, as Cosmo so aptly demonstrates. Trooning out is as well, and I refuse to believe it is dysphoria, something else is going on. Gender dysphoria is a thing but so are autogynephiliacs.

 

[Zilortha]

Trooning out is as well, and I refuse to believe it is dysphoria, something else is going on. Gender dysphoria is a thing but so are autogynephiliacs.

Honestly? I think there's enough evidence out there (based on the things that Cosmo himself has said) to kind of confirm the theory that he's just an autogynephile.
Even recently he said something like (paraphrasing): "I like touching my boobs, I mean if you had boobs wouldn't you ever touch them? It's a comfort thing."
And of course he said that whilst groping himself...

 

[AlmightyMagichan]

I do wonder something. If the new Smash Bros is going to be the only thing that will save his life and give it meaning, why isn't he practicing at all?

 

[Gustav Schuchardt]

I do wonder something. If the new Smash Bros is going to be the only thing that will save his life and give it meaning, why isn't he practicing at all?

Maybe's he's a modern day version of Bartleby. Come to think of it scrivening and speed running are kind of similar - they're both things people in 100 years or so will be baffled were full time professions.

 

[agptroon]

Gender dysphoria is a thing but so are autogynephiliacs.

Autogynephilia is a proposed etiology for some cases of gender dysphoria.

According to Blanchard AGP is a paraphilia, as such it becomes apparent during puberty and from then on is permanent and not curable (like any other sexual orientation). Some people are content to express their AGP through porn, role-play in the bedroom, etc., others develop gender dysphoria due to it. Once you have gender dysphoria, transitioning is often the only way to deal with it.
Lawrence (who is a troon herself) puts a bit more more emphasis on non-sexual aspects - according to her people with AGP actually develop a meaningful romantic relationship with their imagined female self, which explains why they stick to the whole thing even after dressing up as a woman becomes the new normal and does no longer elicit arousal.

Blanchard supports transitioning for autogynephiliacs who desire to do so, as both paraphilias and gender dysphoria are impossible to cure.

The latter point also is why Blanchard & friends make such a big deal about ROGD. According to them, these kids obsessing over dissatisfactions with their assigned gender can lead to them developing gender dysphoria and once that's a thing, it's too late to do much of anything about it other than transitioning. So their advice for parents is to try and get their kids' minds off that topic by breaking social feedback loops that may reinforce the obsession, encouraging them engage in unrelated interests and make positive experiences in other areas of their life, showing them attention and love while trying to bracket the gender question, etc.
As in this case one is not dealing with a paraphilia, early intervention is possible.

(There's also a subtype for AFABs who get off on imagining themselves in gay male relationships, that's a distinct matter from ROGD, though.)

Blanchard does not advocate a model where early transitioners (homosexual/androphile transsexuals) have gender dysphoria and everyone else is faking it. That's something KF made up.

 

[Zilortha]

So I checked the stream, and one of the first things I hear is "Ugh, 16 days, hurry up November! All I want to do is psilocybin and Smash. And I can't even do drugs because of tolerance!"
This won't end poorly, right?