What brought you away from that, if I may ask?
Weirdly, Trump. I don't actually like him at all, except as political entertainment. On election day, I still would have voted Clinton if I were American. Now, I respect his preternatural ability to direct his detractors, though. There were a lot of things over the years, really, and it started with affirmative action in IIRC 83, but up until early 2016 i still considered myself a hardcore Bakunin-esque anarcho-syndicalist. The vitriol of the left, the sadistic delight in dehumanizing anyone who didn't ideologically conform during Trump making his run for president reminded me of the exact things the Bolsheviks did to the democrats, intelligensia, middle class, Mensheviks, social democrats, anarchists, Muslims, pacifists, Christians etc. and they had done that, crushing all of them, before 1917 even rolled around. There is nothing more ugly or potentially dangerous we've seen as humans than that mentality.
The current left is behaving EXACTLY the same as the Bolsheviks. The left turned it's back on everything it believed in during even the sixties (really the 1880s). The colour of one's skin, one's gender, one's heritage should be irrelevant. Segregation is wrong. Free speech, free of moralizing is sacrosanct, government is subservient to the collective of individuals not the other way around, the rule of law, audited by the democracy of people is inviolable etc etc etc etc And yet, all these betrayals are embraced by the left, and many more besides.
I still largely consider myself leftist, but think the danger is too apparent, so like a guy like David Horowitz, I will support virtually any right wing movement (within reason) over the left. WE have ample evidence of what this mentality leads to.
As retarded as it sounds, it sounds like "no true scotsman", but it's not leftism what they do. The left is entirely subsumed by Bolshevist ideology. Still, it seems people can't incorporate the potentially good aspects of socialism without descending into that nightmare.
Orwell called it perfectly in the title of Goldstein's Book, imo: The Theory and Practice of Oligarchal Collectivism. Every leftist I hear about nowadays is the equivalent of Parsons from 1984, and they don't even have enough self awareness to see it. Betrayal of all compassion, decency and humanity, willing subjugation for an ideology and dehumanization of anyone...self, friends, family, community, nation... for the sake of that ideology.. It's uglier than anything western religion has done for over a thousand years imo.
Apologies for being a faggot and posting this anecdotal, personal shit. Disregard me, I suck cock.