Just to clarify and put on the record for people new here - I was Shmorky's (diaper fur pedo, Lowtax's close business associate in charge of The Flash Tub) fiance from 2014-2016. Lived a block away from the SA office and hung out there every day, because aside from the occasional cockroach, they had internet access (which me and Shmorky's home barely had), and Lowtax and I would often play video games in the gameroom because I had no modern game consoles and he had all of them.
@AnOminous is right, I am clinically crazy, officially diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder, Bipolar type 2, and Aspergers. But as of now I've been on top of managing it, see my psychiatrist once a month to monitor my meds, make sure I'm reasonably sane and get blood levels tested. I'm on my 4 meds right now, all antipsychotics and stabilizers and what not. So as of making this post, I am lucid.
This is because I am sober, and Lowtax has not been sober in a very long time. I actually go and get help for my mental illness, and Lowtax is the kind of person who would rather be shot by firing squad than actually admit he had a problem and seek help. Which is fucking tragic, because the man has children. Children I met, and they were sweet, well behaved, happy girls who loved their dad to death. That text message he sent to Lauren has made me fucking seethe more than anything else in this thread. Because when he was still somewhat in control of himself, he had a great relationship with his daughters. They made him so many cute little "I love you Dad drawings", hand drawn "Happy Father's Day" cards, and drawings of their house with a happy family standing in it, that he hung proudly all over the walls of the office.
That right there is what kills me, and honest to God makes tears come to my eyes. Lowtax, you may not remember that shit because you've swallowed so much pills and booze you've probably burned holes in your brain, but I remember it. And you threw it all away for a BPD home-wrecker who trust me, is going to dump you with a vengeance the minute you cease to be fun and exciting for her. That's all it took for you to throw away two girls who thought you were goddamn Superman. And eventually, years down the line, that is going to haunt you. When you're a cantankerous old man living and dying alone on a chair on your porch, rambling to yourself about how good you used to have it, it is going to eat away at you. I sure hope it was worth it, you prick.
The best answer I can give is that it's a kind of Folie a Deux. Logan is different from any girl Lowtax has courted due to the BPD (ah man is he NOT prepared for that kind of crazy), and Lowtax is in a different stage of life and mind from when I knew him. Logan and this whole twisted relationship dynamic...I have not only seen it, I have lived it. (Sorry if this is Power lvl-ing) I am no stranger to BPD thots. I was raised by one. My own mother was diagnosed with it. My mother was my father's Logan. The only job she ever held was being a stripper for 2 weeks. My Dad was one of her patrons. He cheated on his current wife with my Mom, and my Mom tormented his current wife. Slashed her tires, sent her threatening notes (where she actually called her a CUNT, but this well before the internet so you had to do it through handwritten notes!), called her in the middle of the night and breathed heavy into the phone and hung up, until my dad's first wife was so exhausted with the situation she divorced him. Mom and Dad got married, and when Mom was in her idealization phase, which is what Logan is in, everything was great! But oooohhh, then came the devaluation phase.
I say this because, Lowtax I know you read this thread because you mention it every fucking time you do a stream, I really want to drive home what the FUCK you are in for. And it will happen, because BPD thots in relationships practically work off of an algorithm in their brains and they ALL turn out the same way, and the passage of time and the advent of the internet has made them so much worse. And you really, REALLY need to understand what is going to happen to Sloane, because you know damn well you are already halfway there to making her your next wife and baby mama. This is what you are going to expose Sloane and your theoretical next child to:
The inciting incident for my Mom's devaluation spiral was me. After my mom had my sister (got knocked up in college), she had some fertility problem where it was like a 1 in a million chance she could have another kid. So when I came along, I was "the miracle baby." And that set my Mom's idealization phase, and expectations for me through the roof. She was on top of the world. Perfect family. And then it turned out "the miracle baby" got diagnosed at 5 with Aspergers and general mental illness (it's hard to diagnose shit that young), and heard voices in its head and talked to people who weren't there and wouldn't stop screaming about "the other world" it came from and that it didn't belong in this one. And my Mom, like every BPD thot there is once their ideal relationship/family doesn't go the way they want it to, went full devaluation and the hellfire rained down.
She started abusing my Dad, me, and my older sister in every definition of the word. You think getting an open palm slap to the neck is bad, LowT? You think Sloane having to witness violent abuse is bad? My Mom literally bit chunks out of my Dad. He still has the scars to prove it. Imagine having to see your Dad running out of the room, followed by your Mom, whose mouth is covered in blood. You think Sloane is ready for that, LowT? You think Logan is going to get scared when you threaten to call the cops? My Dad WAS A COP. He was second in command to the county Chief of Police. A pissed off high ranking cop can make your life hell, but he was so terrorized by how batshit and abusive she was, he not only didn't press charges, he stayed in the marriage for 10 years because he was terrified if he left my Mom would beat me within an inch of my life out of spite. Nothing you can do will scare a BPD thot out of getting violent when they're having an episode, short of pulling a gun on them and even then there's no guarantee. She blamed my Dad for giving her a "defective child". This is the kind of twisted reasoning BPD thots have for what they do.
You think Logan is gonna be a good Mom? My Mom regularly told my sister she wish she had aborted her when she had the chance, and told me I was demonically possessed psychopath who would amount to nothing but a homeless woman who sucked dick for crack. She told me that when I was 8. She'd crack my sister over the head with whatever object she had in her hand at the time and would flick hot cigarette butts at me when I "did anything autistic." My sister even started abusing me because she blamed me for my Mom abusing her. BPD thots destroy families on the level of Rome sacking Carthage, leaving not a single stone left standing.
And this, LowT, is what you threw away your family for. I see a lot of my Mom in Logan. The mannerisms, the vindictive behavior to Ashlii, her flaunting herself as your new trophy girl (even though you're totally not dating), the thrill she gets from being the hot young blonde mistress, the narcissism, the "vogue-ing" selfies, hell, she even LOOKS like my Mom since it looks like they got the exact same plastic surgery done. Like I said, BPD thots are practically all the same in relationships. Maybe not all, props to women who actually work hard to manage it, but Logan is not managing it. She's textbook.
With an abuser like Lowtax seeking out a BPD thot like Logan, there really is no victim, it'll wind up being a mutually abusive relationship. But you know who will be a victim? Sloane. The 3 year old who didn't do jack shit to deserve any of this. I pray to Christ Ashlii just gets full custody. And LowT, if you had any shred of care left for your kid, you would let her do it. As well as finally learn to use a goddamn rubber so you don't make anymore kids who you'll eventually throw the fuck away. You know you're too much of an addict to deal with the responsibility of kids anymore, just let her go. Let them both go. You hate me and think I'm totally batshit, so why would you want your kid winding up like me? Coming from the same kind of background I did? This is where crazy people get made. Be a fucking man one last time and do right by your kids, and then go and fuck up your life anyway you want. Please do, actually. I'm gonna laugh my ass off the day Logan bites a chunk out of you.
Heh, funny you mention that. I actually found a pair of open toed high heels that lit up and flashed at a Goodwill in Missouri. They were so stupid that I loved them, and wore them around the office all the time. Good Lord, it all makes sense now....