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- Apr 19, 2016
Socially induced dysphoria literally never happens, though!!1! You can't brainwash someone into being trans!!1 
Aww. Well, I'm glad you snapped out of it before you got too far into your transition. Testosterone can cause serious health problems in women and SRS is risky for obvious reasons. There's nothing wrong with being a tomboy or a lesbian. Don't be afraid to be masculine if it makes you happy, butch women are women too.Unfortunately I'm probably the "stereotypical" detransitioner: autistic (high-functioning) and lesbian, with childhood trauma. As for how I specifically got into trans stuff, surprisingly it wasn't online. I long felt out of place with other girls (and I went to an all girls Catholic school, and I was frequently called a dyke/les around 12 onward, so you can imagine how that went) and researched in the library LGBT stuff, because I was an autistic nerd who thought the library had all the answers. Found lesbian stuff but also transgender stuff, and I read up on it in some old children's psych book. I felt being a man would suit me better because I was a tomboy who played sports, liked women, and didn't give a shit about makeup, boys, etc. ("girl"things).
Didn't help that I grew up in a conservative Korean family, and that I was frequently singled out for being the only female child of a bunch of boys. My mom would, for instance, ask how could I call myself a girl because I wouldn't wear a dress or grow my hair out, too. I also received a lot of positive attention from girls when I presented as a boy, whereas they made fun of me for being les when I presented as a girl. It'd be more surprising if I didn't fall into wanting to be a boy at some point, to be honest.
I got into online trans circles (though it took me a while to get into Tumblr) around 2013 and from there I was a goner. Luckily my family was against it and didn't put me on T then, or I'd be fucked now. My bone structure and skull are still unaffected by T because I went on it past puberty, and I never underwent surgery so I'm lucky as far as detrans'ing goes.
I detransitioned because going on T, I still didn't feel right and was depressed, anxious, awkward. I felt like I was playing at being a man. Talking to other trans people, they would say it's imposter syndrome and to be more confident and explore my ~gender identity~ but I didn't feel right. Eventually I found a gender critical subreddit and at first went through denial - "they're TERFs so they're wrong," "they don't know what it's like to be trans," "they're bigots," etc. Practically went through the five stages of grief. But it clicked. I believe for some people transitioning makes them happy, especially if they don't fit the gender roles of their sex, but I don't know if I believe the ~laydee brain~ thing, and a lot of the troubling stuff in the trans community is hard for me to ignore now.
I hope this was informative. Sorry for rambling!
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