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- Oct 25, 2014
and not at any of those points did you ever consider fixing yourself. It's all the screening of what you want. What about the guy's list of requirements? Like not being an obnoxious harpy.Yes, madness is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.
Keyword there: "same thing"
But that's the key. I haven't done the same thing over and over.
Here's the facts, which you haven't extracted very well from reading:
Phase I -- Age 17-24: Half-awake phase. I was still partially spiritually blind during the time. I was a Virgin and married the guy who seduced me, as The Torah requires, and I was with only one dude until I left. He believed in "G-d" but thought he didn't have to read The Bible because he was a "good" person. He turned out to be abusive. I left.
Phase II -- Age 24-30: I had a series of male concubines, all of whom I left. I went from having about 15 questions to ask a dude before getting involved to 150 questions. I grew in knowledge and understanding of The Torah. I cut out all Christian, Ultra conservative Jewish, Pagan, Atheistic and Goy men from the process. I went only for truth seekers. They all had eithe (a) closet addictions (b) were abusive or (c) wanted to control me/wanted me to submit.
Phase III - Age 30-35: Asked 150 questions of Marshall. Yes, 150 questions! That's how careful I was. By age 30 I was well versed in The Torah. This lead to my Second Marriage, with a Torah seeking guy. But he fails to follow The Torah on many counts!
Phase IV -- Age 35+: Twice divorced, but do you think I'm going to repeat Phase I, and Phase II? NO! There will be no more male concubines. I'm not getting married a third time without refining my 150+ questions process. I know so much more about Narcissism now than I did at 30!
Add to that, your screening process boils down to who follows your cult or not. Still going for spousal rape? That's fine and dandy! Just so long as I don't marry a Christian or pagan or an atheist! What a horrible marriage that would be, with a guy who let's his wife own her own body and be free to do things that isn't being a clown car. All those romantic walks in the park, laughing at each other in a restaurant, have someone interested in your hobbies and you as a person? Ugh! The horror!
I know the blatantly obvious on how to be relatively content, on how to keep a roof over my head, and not devalue myself to be a pump and dump victimYou think you know the secret formula for Mr. Awesome?
I'm suspecting all these pregnancies are all a plot to avoid getting periods. Not sure, but I wouldn't be surprised if she had some Carrie moment in her youth tooThat ain't healthy