Taken from the video Acedia & Crisis I:
For a year and a half I lived in Germany, but I knew that I was going to move to a different country, that I was going to be in a room on my own... this room [the room in London? according to the Phantom w/ Lucy Brown stream}.
Hmmm. Is this 18 months in Germany linked to Monica the German virgin in lil_fruhling's texts? Was he staying at her house? Or was she like the little sister of one of his fanboys that he was staying with? Did he have to leave the house in Germany because it was discovered he had pozzed up Monica?
It looks like he moved direct from Germany to London, because he talks about the fact that also socialized there in June/July, which corresponds to the time he was with Lucy and Michael.
I've always wanted an English girlfriend, or English wife, or Anglo-American. And I nearly got an Anglo-American wife at one point, but that's another story. ... I nearly, at one point, very nearly, had that, but then, for reasons related to the doxing, that fucked up.
WOAH WUT? Who is this almost Anglo-American wife? For it to get almost to marriage, they surely have to have met IRL. Did he meet her on his Dangerous Haggis Tour? That was in Oregon, AFAIK and maybe other states (just looking at the video list on his channel, maybe someone can help out here.)
For a narc like Colin, who cares only about POWER and CONTROL - all relationships are purely transactional - as in, what's in it for ME, is this alliance worth my time and energy investment? If you doubt me, you see him revealing how he sees relationships as transactional in his texts to Lucy, as he tries to regain control over her, when he tries to make her feel guilty for the time that he has "invested" in her without the ROI he wants.
So given that marriage is the biggest social transaction there is, this Anglo-American girl would have to be the kind of girl who would draw envy from other men. Someone who could help him climb socially in Internet Nazi circles, and increase his status, so I imagine she's a blonde wheatfield maiden, the ideal Aryan background for the spergs to drool over, confident, extrovert, talented in her own right (a bit like Lucy Brown.) She might have been a minor e-celeb back then, or known to the American inner circle, maybe a photographer, film-maker or journo of some kind. Some kind of creator or influencer, who could help Colin achieve his ambitions of fame and power (see text below.) And for Colin to be "fascinated" by her, she would need to be intelligent and interesting in her own right, and is probably around the same age as Lucy Brown. The little teenage girls who don't know themselves and don't have self-confidence or talent, or who don't meet up to his exacting genetic standards (I've seen comments that his 20-year-old accuser is a brunette, even a quadroon) he just uses as cum-rags.
The evidence for this is seen in his message to Lucy.
You asked this: Well why can you be happy with your three birds then?
Because none of them is you, Lucy, none of them is the woman who has fascinated me since the day I met her. ... Then professional reasons, these girls are lovely, but none of them has your rebellious spirit, organizational prowess or social ability. I believe you and I could change our nation, Lucy. Creatively we would be excellent together, and our profiles would rise exponentially over time as a result. We would develop a sort of "empire." Cringe though it sounds, we could be the king and queen of British identitarianism.
Empire? King? Queen? This guy is so delusional he sees himself taking over the world... if only he had the right woman by his side.
SO WHO IS THIS BLONDE WHEATFIELD ANGLO-AMERICAN FIANCEE? Did he give her his STI superstrain? Did he do a Siege of Fort Pitt 2.0, and bring his Old World disease to the virgin New World? Did she dump him based on the warts she contracted, and then used the doxing as an excuse to end their engagement? So many questions remain unanswered.
Seriously tho, watching this entire video, this guy is legit mentally ill. He should be nowhere near the internet. In fact, he should be in a padded cell somewhere, for his own safety and for the safety of others. He's dangerous.
Millienial Woes realizes he made a huge mistake feat. Reality Calls a.k.a Tara McCarthy
https://streamable.com/a8vo4
A good reminder that Colin only wanted "women in the movement" for two reasons:
a) to maximize his access to pussy - especially as his "pro-woman" stand made him look like the good guy, someone that women could approach and be made to feel welcome (and we know exactly how he welcomed them)
b) to help prevent homosexuals like him and BFF Greg Johnson being "kicked out of the movement"., because "Big Tent Nationalism" allows the fags to hide behind female skirts.
