@TamarYaelBatYah You will never find "a nice normal" man to settle down with. The reason for this is because you are attracted to a man with the Dark Triad Personality type, which most women are attracted to btw. An upstanding guy, who has a good job, morals, just wants to treat you right, etc. would make you sick deep down and you would grow to resent him. Women, generally dont care about personality at all. Don't believe me? Then why did Adolf Hitler, Genghis Khan, Ted Bundy, Joseph Stalin, etc. not repel women? The truth is its all about looks and Dark Triad personality. Why do so many serial killers receive letters from women? Well, they have to be good looking serial killers.