Holy fucking absolute farm-fresh steaming pile of shit why the HELL is this drama from four years ago coming up
Ok y’all lemme sit down with yet another fucking cup of coffee and I will see what I can dig up/need to explain??
Some thoughts so far:
-i’m perfectly ok if you think i’m a narcissistic white anime cos-poser old lady. I dress up and do this uwu shit for fun, and I try not to take myself too seriously. You taking me seriously is the highest form of flattery.
-Lori has had me blocked for mmm...2-3 years now? Anything since mid...2018? (Wait fuck thats 3) I haven’t been able to see her stuff. Yes, I can go around the block, but I also was worried of copying too much of her stuff myself? Almost like a weird aesthetic feedback loop? She got the FUCK into my brain for a few years after all the weird ass manipulation, so I chose to take space to reevaluate my sense of “self” i was able to block her account back after some finagling so idk if she’s unblocked me recently.
-I think the most i’ve done to purposefully copy her was satirical because I was well aware she was copying my looks for at least two years. I would post a new hair color and within 24-48 hours her hair would be dyed the same. The pink hair in 2018 was because I couldn’t get the red from the Todoroki hair out. I felt really weird because when I looked in the mirror it reminded me of her and that fucked with me for a hot minute. I’m finally back to blue now, though ( ´ ▽ ` ) If she continued to copy me after 2018 I wasn’t aware of it because of the purposeful avoidance on my part.
-Yes me dressing up as 02 was initially a casual troll (I did want to make the 02k follower pun for my own sake) but TBH I actually feel VERY VERY CUTE as 02 and plan to do her again in the future. For fashion and lulz
-My ex-husband had huge anger management problems to the point of cornering me in the kitchen, breaking things/punching holes in the walls, etc. (he never ever laid hands on me though) Rikki was my first escape from thinking that was “just how my life was supposed to be”. At the time I met Rikki I was in the deepest ugliest part of that, but it still doesn’t excuse the month overlap where I was, eh how you put, considering Rikki? Him and I never officially “dated”. If Lori said that, she was lying lol. I did actually initiate for divorce later that month, and it’s also good to keep in mind I have heavy religious conditioning in my childhood which made me absolutely terrified of the idea of divorce in the first place. Again, it doesn’t excuse my choices at the time.
-My ex-husband has since undergone an enormous amount of growth mentally/emotionally, and we’ve actually become good friends. I am not “sad sob story pity me” because I put him through fucked up shit mentally. So please, don’t think of me as here playing the “i am innocent look what this bitch did to me”. I’m just as fucked up as every other weirdly old e-thot. He fucked me up, I fucked him up, we both went through some hella growth and realized we needed to mature as (most) human beings do at age 24-28.
-uhhh anything else I can think of I’ll write up a story in a bit. I gotta dig out some screenshots from 2017 and I have noooo idea who I sent those to. So either I gotta find files on an old phone/computer, or I gotta dig through FB for a hot minute.
Much love, Miss Kitty
ps, you have no idea how validating this thread makes me feel. I literally thought I was batshit crazy for YEARS about what happened. Seeing other people put all these pieces together after I had blocked her, Kevin, Rikki, and just done my own thing to try and regain my sense of self is such a relief.
EDIT 1: sorry i’m new to this site i’ll do my best to put everything into here. The phone layout is poopoo
@misskittymoxie Thank you for being here and sharing your stories, even if it was from a ween contacting you.
This will really give some insight on what happened. Is it true that Rikki cheated with you? That was the story Lori was concocting. Of course, in Lori's case, simply talking to Rikki and trying to be there for him might have been considered "cheating" to her!
Ok so. This is the part where I feel like I was lied to by both parties. ACCORDING TO RIKKI: He broke up with her late January/early February. Did this actually happen?? I don’t know.
ACCORDING TO HER: He was supposed to spend Valentines day with her? But he broke up with her? So there’s about a couple week discrepancy on my end. From my point of view any of my actions taken were under the assumption that he was no longer with her.
NOW THAT BEING SAID actions taken were: talking at length about feelings/relationships/art/etc, hugging/cuddling. I did not allow him to even kiss me for a while because of my own situation. He actually kissed me without asking by force under the pretense of “Well I thought you wanted it.” later. It was around this time that I began the process of divorce.
BUT THEN IN APRIL Rikki and I went to Sakura Con. We got drunk and he stuck his dick in me before I realized what was going on. Now, the WHOLE ASS TO DO was that I didn’t put out. Like shit, i’m messed up from stuff (even before marriage) and I told him repeatedly about my issues. His reasoning for doing it? “Well you were just moving like you wanted it.” And honestly, I don’t even know if I was. I was drunk at a con. I made my own mistakes that led to that point and I could have avoided that whole thing anyway so, like, IMO he could have respected me but I also could have respected myself and made better choices.
That’s what THIS post is about:
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Apparently he called her up and told her that I was a shit lay. (I think the one in the star sweater is me). Which, of course I was a shit lay?? I have bad history and actively told him several times I didn’t want sex?
The thing she had that I didn’t was she would put out. And I TOLD her that him and I weren’t dating, so if they were having sex I didn’t care. The only thing I would have an issue with was him lying to me about it. I already knew it was a shortcoming on my end, and I told him if he needed it he was more than welcome to go seek it elsewhere. My only requirement was that he told me.
But yeah all that to say, from *my* understanding he broke up with her before him and I ever got romantically close. Now whether that’s what he told her, idk. I think he got a kick out of how the two of us reacted to each other’s venom tbh so my assumption is that either he stretched the truth or she’s outright lying.
Edit 2: ok so from everything i’ve been reading, he definitely also lied. Man I don’t even know which way up is after reading all of this.
-I think the most i’ve done to purposefully copy her was satirical because I was well aware she was copying my looks for at least two years. I would post a new hair color and within 24-48 hours her hair would be dyed the same. The pink hair in 2018 was because I couldn’t get the red from the Todoroki hair out. I felt really weird because when I looked in the mirror it reminded me of her and that fucked with me for a hot minute. I’m finally back to blue now, though ( ´ ▽ ` ) If she continued to copy me after 2018 I wasn’t aware of it because of the purposeful avoidance on my part.
Wait fuck Todoroki hair was 2019. I FEEL LIKE IT WAS MUCH LONGER AGO
"I don't know how to pick it back up again." You're actually "picking it back up again" by posting this. I think a lot of your friends miss you too, Kevin. You've got people out there thinking about you.
