I probably have high functioning autism, so they probably think I'm retarded or something. I've actually been called retarded on multiple occasions (even heroin addicts) and I've had people stab me in the back for no apparent reason.
Example: A girl that I helped out in industrial arts class in high school by doing all of her welds said she hated me and said nobody likes me at the end of the school year. She never talked to me again after that. She even got better grades on her welds than me even though they were all of my welds. There are many more examples of this and I'm still heart broken about them to this day, constantly replaying them in my mind and getting hurt. The problem is, it never stopped after high school.
I'm honestly disgusted with the open sewers of human society. Humanity is a sewer of human filth. I've actually lost more hope for humanity after having to do a deep dive into the normie world of instagram, facebook, tinder, snapchat, etc. I used to ignore it and not participate, but it's disgusting, primitive and outright fucking gross.
I'm too bitter and too hurt.
I'm not a hebephile actually, just saying that most men like young, good looking and fertile women. While I do find young girls cute in an innocent kind of way, I'm mostly attracted to 18+ and I consider 18 year olds too dumb to even talk to.