Was honestly feeling like total shit, mainly because I haven't got much of a practical way to talk to my boyfriend right now... I'm really not stable without being able to talk to him easily (and yeah, we do plan on making it into an IRL thing someday, and I'd absolutely love that... I bet he's so warm and snuggly in bed too uwu)
Probably being cringeworthy but I generally just say whatever I feel, I also can't lie about most things but can overblow truths massively when I'm unstable in the way what was going on earlier. (I generally acknowledge my shortcomings when I'm in a decent mindstate, I'm embarrassed of having them but I also cannot hide things either. Events I mention etc did happen but at times I've removed context to benefit those on the opposition, regardless if I feel any genuine regret over the events - I just see them as unresolvable like effectively grooming someone - which I swear on my life I hope NEVER happens again and given I didn't even know I'd done that until over 12 months later, have no memory of it personally, and deliberately left that lack of whatever out that when calling myself out for it... idk, but it's worth reminding myself of to cause me pain...) My post history is proof alone of that I guess if you have some spare time to trawl through, depends though.