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Had another relapse today.

Yesterday would have been my old man’s 56th, found myself hitting the Valium again to cope with work. Can’t really take any more time off, so I just have to push through it.

verygayFrogs said:
I have no energy to do anything anymore but I still have to keep going and god forbid to these people I take me time and sleep. Also sick of all the damn shootings n shit. At least when I’m asleep I don’t deal with that crap
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I assume you’re based in the states? I have to admit, even if I live in Britbongistan, I don’t envy you guys having to put up with shooters on a weekly basis.
 
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Zebedee said:
Had another relapse today.

Yesterday would have been my old man’s 56th, found myself hitting the Valium again to cope with work. Can’t really take any more time off, so I just have to push through it.


I assume you’re based in the states? I have to admit, even if I live in Britbongistan, I don’t envy you guys having to put up with shooters on a weekly basis.
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Pretty damn close to Chigago and Minneapolis actually
 
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I'm finishing up a 16 hour workday on two ounces of cashews and a Bang energy drink.

On the plus side pizza and ice cream await.
 
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Back out of the hospital... again in two months. This time, heavy surgery from the reason I was in the hospital last month. Was outpatient type stuff, but I can't stop bleeding. (I can't even do any stupid Wraith mage jokes because of how much blood I have lost.) I have to change my bandages way too often for my liking. When I find the faggots that did this to me, they will melt down into piles of green goo. Generally good mood, but completely messed up, so no working out my STR stat for a long time. Every time I make headway and something happens.
Why am I bleeding so much?
And the blood is coagulating into chunks that looks like cranberry sauce. I am not kidding.
 
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Wraith said:
Back out of the hospital... again in two months. This time, heavy surgery from the reason I was in the hospital last month. Was outpatient type stuff, but I can't stop bleeding. (I can't even do any stupid Wraith mage jokes because of how much blood I have lost.) I have to change my bandages way too often for my liking. When I find the faggots that did this to me, they will melt down into piles of green goo. Generally good mood, but completely messed up, so no working out my STR stat for a long time. Every time I make headway and something happens.
Why am I bleeding so much?
And the blood is coagulating into chunks that looks like cranberry sauce. I am not kidding.
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Perhaps you are overexerting yourself too soon after the operation? In any case cranberry isn’t the worst, it’d be much scarier if it looked and smelled like blue cheese sauce.
 
I finally did the thing that I’ve been holding off for too long and reported my downstairs neighbors.

I’ve been living in my current apartment complex for about a year and a half now. I live directly above a couple who absolutely despise each other. They’ve been fighting since the start of 2020, so about two months after I moved in. The male counterpart accused his girlfriend of cheating (no idea if it’s true) and their relationship has been going downhill ever since. And it’s the bad kind of fighting, too. They scream at each other, attack each other, bang on furniture, slam doors and destroy each other’s possessions. It’s genuinely disturbing sometimes and I’ve been woken up by their screaming far too many times. As far as I can tell there’s no single abuser and victim in this situation, they’re both mutually horrible for each other and need to be separated before someone gets seriously hurt. I overheard one of them choking the other’s dog once, and if that doesn’t prove how unstable these people are, nothing will. The police haven’t been helpful.

The first time I spoke to management about it a year ago, they implied that all I could do was repeatedly submit noise complaints, which made me hesitant to bring up the issue again. Today I finally decided to change that and I spent a good 10 minutes venting to management staff about how bad it’s been. Just to be safe, I also snitched on them for smoking weed in their apartment. Normally I wouldn’t do something so petty, but I know they’ve already gotten a stern warning about it in the past and I’m tired of my apartment smelling like shit because the smoke wafts up through the vents.

I honestly hope they get evicted and it sounds like they might. Maybe that sounds harsh, but these people desperately need to be separated. They’re trashy, obnoxious, and disrespectful, and I have no doubt that many other tenants who live here are tired of it too.
 
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Lil' Misogynist said:
I finally did the thing that I’ve been holding off for too long and reported my downstairs neighbors.

I’ve been living in my current apartment complex for about a year and a half now. I live directly above a couple who absolutely despise each other. They’ve been fighting since the start of 2020, so about two months after I moved in. The male counterpart accused his girlfriend of cheating (no idea if it’s true) and their relationship has been going downhill ever since. And it’s the bad kind of fighting, too. They scream at each other, attack each other, bang on furniture, slam doors and destroy each other’s possessions. It’s genuinely disturbing sometimes and I’ve been woken up by their screaming far too many times. As far as I can tell there’s no single abuser and victim in this situation, they’re both mutually horrible for each other and need to be separated before someone gets seriously hurt. I overheard one of them choking the other’s dog once, and if that doesn’t prove how unstable these people are, nothing will. The police haven’t been helpful.

The first time I spoke to management about it a year ago, they implied that all I could do was repeatedly submit noise complaints, which made me hesitant to bring up the issue again. Today I finally decided to change that and I spent a good 10 minutes venting to management staff about how bad it’s been. Just to be safe, I also snitched on them for smoking weed in their apartment. Normally I wouldn’t do something so petty, but I know they’ve already gotten a stern warning about it in the past and I’m tired of my apartment smelling like shit because the smoke wafts up through the vents.

I honestly hope they get evicted and it sounds like they might. Maybe that sounds harsh, but these people desperately need to be separated. They’re trashy, obnoxious, and disrespectful, and I have no doubt that many other tenants who live here are tired of it too.
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I found apartment living to be not for me, and moved into a rental after my last one for 2 years until I bought my current house, and this kind of shit is exactly why. I have to ask though. What kind of apartment building has vents between units? I've lived in 4 apartments over my life, and several of my friends live in them, and that's something I've never seen. That sounds fuck awful. At my last apartment before the rental, my neighbor was a drunk who would put shitty frozen food into the oven and pass out at least 3 times a week. Its fun waking up every few nights to the FD pounding on a neighbors door trying to wake him up while the scent of burnt garbage tinges the air. I would have went insane if there had been a vent.

Anyways, dealing with that shit is never easy, and you've been far more patient than you probably should have been, but that just indicates you're probably a pretty decent person. I hope you get a quiet little old lady that bakes cookies for you and gossips about the shitty neighbors to replace them, as that was one of the nice things about my last apartment. We'd shittalk about the drunk with the fire guys before they left and have cookies. And everyone should have a neighbor like that.
 
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I've been sitting outside for hours looking out at nothing every night before bed. I have reasons to keep going, and I try to be positive whenever I can. It just feels like I'm never gonna find anybody to share my time with. I'm basically a lurker on these forums yet I feel closer to the farms than anybody I actually know. It's pretty damn depressing honestly, but I gotta keep pushing through hoping for a better future.
 
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Feeling bitter and dissatisfied, cranky. Went into a bullshit field (field that pays well, has high employment rate, but doesn't actually contribute anything to the world, and is mostly a bore) and didn't jump ship, despite my concerns, because of sunk costs. So now in grad school doing tedious work, learning useless theorems that have nothing to do with real skills, when I could be wealthier and quite possibly happier/more content with my job if I'd just jumped on the programming bandwagon every peer did.

And I was really social with the other "freshmen" but now it's gotten late enough in the year that I've figured out who I genuinely enjoy being around and who I don't and the former consists of just one person. Can go to parties and have a good time, just keeping up with people in the department and playing board games and shit, but they're not people I feel like calling up to just hang out, except two new guys I met who I'm thinking might be a better fit for me than the people in my own group.

And trying campus activities hasn't really satisfied either, I did one sport but sucked too much at it to make the cut, and the other one is okay but it takes too much time going through the dross to get to the actual good parts, and I just feel utterly indifferent towards the people there, like there's nothing wrong with them, but even though I go in part to try to meet more people to socialize with, I don't want to socialize there either.

Just a hole of trying to bury my career regret and feeling of meaninglessness by pleasure-seeking, but the pleasures all come up empty and bitter.
 
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Zebedee said:
Perhaps you are overexerting yourself too soon after the operation? In any case cranberry isn’t the worst, it’d be much scarier if it looked and smelled like blue cheese sauce.
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Honestly I've been trying on and off for a ridiculous amount of time. I swear on an Italian mother's eye balls that for several years now, every time I try to bulk up, something stops me, injuries, something gets in the way, sickness... I think it's a conspiracy to keep me from being a little buff. Legs are great though- ridiculously so. Go figure.
>blue cheese sauce blood
Tell me that's not real, like a blood disease and you're teasing.
 
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Wraith said:
Honestly I've been trying on and off for a ridiculous amount of time. I swear on an Italian mother's eye balls that for several years now, every time I try to bulk up, something stops me, injuries, something gets in the way, sickness... I think it's a conspiracy to keep me from being a little buff. Legs are great though- ridiculously so. Go figure.
>blue cheese sauce blood
Tell me that's not real, like a blood disease and you're teasing.
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Nope. This was the most SFW picture I could find of such an infection, believe me it’s even worse in person.
 
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Get annoyed with society more and more. The worst part is my dad is my boss at my current job, and feels like I'm stuck here and accidentally signed a moral contract not to leave the company for at least a few years, even though I'm already sick of it, though it's not like I have the motivation to go to any other job. I wish I could pull an uncle ted and go live in the woods in a cabin on my own, with no burden of having to get a job to contribute to society, or to pay taxes and contribute to any country that I'm in. Would be nice if there was a country that allowed that sort of thing. Paradoxically, I'm still too attached to the internet, so I probably wouldn't be able to do it without an internet connection and electricity. Sucks that such a thing isn't feasible anymore
 
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Lil' Misogynist said:
I finally did the thing that I’ve been holding off for too long and reported my downstairs neighbors.

I’ve been living in my current apartment complex for about a year and a half now. I live directly above a couple who absolutely despise each other. They’ve been fighting since the start of 2020, so about two months after I moved in. The male counterpart accused his girlfriend of cheating (no idea if it’s true) and their relationship has been going downhill ever since. And it’s the bad kind of fighting, too. They scream at each other, attack each other, bang on furniture, slam doors and destroy each other’s possessions. It’s genuinely disturbing sometimes and I’ve been woken up by their screaming far too many times. As far as I can tell there’s no single abuser and victim in this situation, they’re both mutually horrible for each other and need to be separated before someone gets seriously hurt. I overheard one of them choking the other’s dog once, and if that doesn’t prove how unstable these people are, nothing will. The police haven’t been helpful.

The first time I spoke to management about it a year ago, they implied that all I could do was repeatedly submit noise complaints, which made me hesitant to bring up the issue again. Today I finally decided to change that and I spent a good 10 minutes venting to management staff about how bad it’s been. Just to be safe, I also snitched on them for smoking weed in their apartment. Normally I wouldn’t do something so petty, but I know they’ve already gotten a stern warning about it in the past and I’m tired of my apartment smelling like shit because the smoke wafts up through the vents.

I honestly hope they get evicted and it sounds like they might. Maybe that sounds harsh, but these people desperately need to be separated. They’re trashy, obnoxious, and disrespectful, and I have no doubt that many other tenants who live here are tired of it too.
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You're too nice. Reporting them for smoking inside isn't really petty. Those rules are for people that are allergic or have other respiratory problems. Mentioning that the people are a danger for their own lives usually bring quicker action, don't know if you tried this. It doesn't sound harsh at all for them to be evicted. It is mentally draining to live in an abusive environment, you're the victim. Don't blame yourself for wanting to take care of yourself mentally.
Not a local said:
It just feels like I'm never gonna find anybody to share my time with. I'm basically a lurker on these forums yet I feel closer to the farms than anybody I actually know. It's pretty damn depressing honestly
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Ironically, I was afraid of this happening to me a few years ago and I'm under 30. Lots of people find me attractive, but they tend to flee after I opened my mouth. It takes a few years to accept that some people are meant to live alone.
I guess it's unfortunate, but you got to make the best out of it. At least, I don't get banned here.
Smolrolls said:
Hello my fellow nigger lovers!
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What the fuck is wrong with you, this is slander!
Sped Xing said:
I told my wife I'm thinking about having kids.
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Do you have a plan for how to make them despise black people and everything related to SJW's?
 
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