Skitzocow Connor Murphy - Body Building Youtube Superstar turned Drugged Out Peepee Guru who Drinks Cum for the Health Benefits

[third eye]

Like most bodybuilders apparently.

Spoiler: All this stuff reminds me of this

What would that entail? Also it's complete crap that psychadelics aren't dangerous. Wait until all those Acid drops pool in your spine so that when you crack your back in a year you'll be accosted by a horrible trip and maybe go crazy (my friend told this to me I don't know, I just don't trust anything that's gonna make me see anime irl)

This is patently false. LSD is water soluble and does not and can not store in your spinal fluid. Cracking your back couldn't and wouldn't send you into an instant trip. Your friend lied because he didn't know better and likely wanted to sound cool.

Since you also don't know any better, neither medically nor through tangential experience, best to keep it to yourself. Even if the redditors here give you agree reactions, saying something is complete crap when you have no experience, expertise or knowledge on the subject is... puzzle piece at best.

 

[Underestimated Nutria]

I'm sure under the right conditions they are fine. The issue is more that if he were mixing a heavy dose with SSRIs putting him at risk of serotonin syndrome. That said, drug warnings can be overstated. My thinking from what I heard in the youtube ladies video is that he was frying his brain on DMT more than anything, maybe exacerbating and underlying mental issue. Its actually quite fascinating, Ill have to go watch some of his live streams when I have time if those are still up.

Very dumb mistake in this post -- I typed tyramine instead of tryptophan. Apologies.

 

[DyingStarsForever]

Jane was genuinely trying to help Conner. Her experience with him will probably make her more cautious in the future but I’m not sure why anyone would criticize this girl when it was obvious there was no one around Conner doing anything to try and stop a very obvious dangerous downward spiral into total psychosis and dangerous behavior. At least she decided to try and do something.

All that said she obviously was helping him because she thought he was a cute guy that was in distress. Jane isn’t picking schizos living under bridges to help out like this. She could see Conner had a history of success on YT so I think she felt here was a guy with a lot of potential on the verge of killing himself if no one intervened, so she decided too.

She’s still got that sweet, naive optimistic veneer of youth that society quickly strips away during your 20’s, if not much sooner. People are basically criticizing her motives for giving a damn about someone who was a ver obvious danger to himself and in real trouble.

It was a strangely uplifting video simply because of how calm and sincere she came across. I wasn't aware of the criticism that she received so I don't know how bad it got but she seemed to handle it really well.

 

[LonelyEggRoll]

This video is terrifying but hilarious. Connor in the midst of his breakdown or manic episode, trying to enlighten his exhausted looking, boomer parents.

Connor asks his dad why he can’t be enlightened, he replies, “well for one, I’ve got to go to work this afternoon”.

 

[Guido Mista]

How fascinating. This is the fifth person i've seen both offline and online schizoposting like this and the thought style is always the same. I'd love to see some studies about what makes this third eye/chakra line of thinking so popular.

 

[Cydonia]

Maybe OP should include this information about his first stint to a mental hospital. I don't know if the second side of the paper was ever published though.

Spoiler: gravely disabled

 

[Seminal Ointments Lain]

This genre of /fit/cow is fascinating to me, and when you're connected to the broader bodybuilding subculture (especially at the level of those with pro aspirations), you'll see that Conor's state of mind is just a hop, a skip and a jump past where most of these guys are 24/7.

The extent to which bodybuilders cherish, nurture and encourage body dysmorphia is incredible, where they lose any sense of reference to what "ideal" looks like. Looking at the classic division of any recent bodybuilding competition that should be enough to convince anyone that these guys are not well.

I actually know a guy who was prepping to compete for his pro card a year and a half ago, got into DMT and psychedelics, and has since decided to become a Qanon-based neo-Christian trance music producer. He wasn't terribly bright to begin with but he's hard to hold a conversation with now, just nonstop pseudospiritual babble.

I'll echo what earlier posters have mentioned about the narcissistic obsession with looking at oneself along with an unstable sense of identity helping to set the stage for some of this. Point being, I don't think Conor is an outlier so much as a natural progression path for a solid number of young, fitness-obsessed guys like him. Not saying he didn't have underlying issues already, but I don't think his story is as uncommon as one would hope.

The future of mankind is bound by ripped abs and insane beliefs. Once all the incels and soyfiends and The Dead reduce in number as to stop poisoning the Soul of Mankind, this will be the template for the Overman or Anti-Human. Not a Return to formerly glory, but an Advancement to new and perilous heights. The tree has begun a great shaking of broken branches as it uproots itself. Abandoning prehistoric fallacies such as the requirement of suffering. A secret Truth: You don't need to suffer.

It is not his madness that damns him, nor his dedication to an alien abstraction. It is his casual prostration before the soul-devouring plant demon called Marijuana, and allowing his body and soul to become vulnerable to inhaibation by subdimensional parasites. And also not purging all familiy members who do not tow the line. For jealousy and resentment open you to the same infestations. Different bugs - Same grave Evil.

EDIT

He knows the truth.

Someone must communicate to the boy. If he is to transcend the currencia (current flesh), he must first imbibe his cum. If he fails, he will fail to attain dream-throne and be ensnared by the wicked imagings of the psychosphere. He will be edging in eterniality with Baby Monkey.

 

[Cpl. Long Dong Silver]

This video is terrifying but hilarious. Connor in the midst of his breakdown or manic episode, trying to enlighten his exhausted looking, boomer parents.

Connor asks his dad why he can’t be enlightened, he replies, “well for one, I’ve got to go to work this afternoon”.

Based bald dad with Fox News on in the background

 

[MirnaMinkoff]

This genre of /fit/cow is fascinating to me, and when you're connected to the broader bodybuilding subculture (especially at the level of those with pro aspirations), you'll see that Conor's state of mind is just a hop, a skip and a jump past where most of these guys are 24/7.

The extent to which bodybuilders cherish, nurture and encourage body dysmorphia is incredible, where they lose any sense of reference to what "ideal" looks like. Looking at the classic division of any recent bodybuilding competition that should be enough to convince anyone that these guys are not well.

I actually know a guy who was prepping to compete for his pro card a year and a half ago, got into DMT and psychedelics, and has since decided to become a Qanon-based neo-Christian trance music producer. He wasn't terribly bright to begin with but he's hard to hold a conversation with now, just nonstop pseudospiritual babble.

I'll echo what earlier posters have mentioned about the narcissistic obsession with looking at oneself along with an unstable sense of identity helping to set the stage for some of this. Point being, I don't think Conor is an outlier so much as a natural progression path for a solid number of young, fitness-obsessed guys like him. Not saying he didn't have underlying issues already, but I don't think his story is as uncommon as one would hope.

A pretty fascinating video to watch for some of his internal thought processes in the video does with his poor parents trying to "enlighten" them. Because of the mental illness and drugs he verbalizes what is usually the "silent internal dialogue" of his thought process.

My wall of text opinion

Spoiler

Obviously, his thoughts are incredibly disjointed and confused. He tries to grab onto certain concrete concepts or thoughts to anchor him in reality and this conversation with his parents. Weirdly, but not surprisingly, much of his anchor thoughts concern video making. He probably asks "what's the preface" 100 times in this video and keeps going back to that subject to try and ground him in what the fuck is happening. He then becomes paranoid his parents know what the 'preface" was and becomes accusatory as if they are hiding this information from him.

He also has strange dramatic emotive behavior and outbursts pretty regularly and says out loud it's because "emotion" gets people to watch videos - but given his current state it just amplifies his craziness x10 because it's totally inappropriate. However, I think much of the emotional outbursts are quite real but he immediately yells "I'm acting" because he realizes he just shocked everyone and looks crazy. It's not acting, he is crazy, but it's apparently a effective defense mechanism because people would rather believe it was acting/or a joke than they are watching his mind become unglued.

He is focused on everything being "acting" or performance for an audience, even though this was just supposed to be a private conversation with his fucking parents about their concerns for his mental wellbeing - he couldn't even make that a private moment. (It was private during the convo, but he's constantly thinking and referring to YT viewers during the convo. He then uploaded the whole thing later) I think his reality of always trying to create "content" for an audience completely consumed his reality and he started to being unable to tell the difference between his reality and creating content for YT. Even when trying to speak to his parents about enlightenment and spiritual subjects he kept retuning to basic bitch rules for how to make click bait for YT. Like he has deep spiritual combining in his head with what's basic hard sell and manipulation tactics for online media creation, it's a really bizarre combination to watch play out in his disturbed mind.

Conner is definitely severely bipolar and dips into psychosis/ delusions very easily thanks to the drugs. I think he'd certainly be having issues without the drugs but the drug experience totally unmoored him emotionally. He has lost emotional control and stability. I think it totally removed his emotional thermostat and control which is awful to behold and I'm sure not fun to experience. (A poster earlier discussed this is why psychdelics are really bad for some people, particularly the mentally ill and those who have suffered trauma or abuse.) Those people are totally not ready to deal with the coping mechanisms we learn have for emotional stability being suddenly ripped away during a drug trip. With mentally healthy people the control returns after the drug wears off and might have been enlightening, but for mentally ill people it seems they can't regain that stability again because it was much harder for them to achieve in the first place. It's like getting into the ocean and powerful wave knocks everyone on their ass, some people get up, swim a bit and go back to shore and then others drown or get pulled out to sea and can't find their way back to shore.)

Anyway, the initial experiences with ayahuasca he was fucked in the head and couldn't find his way back to shore/sanity. Instead trying to deal with this by getting the psychiatric help that he already needed before tripping balls, he instead decides MORE ayahuasca is the answer. He was lost at sea and decided to just keep on swimming and this is the result.

@LonelyEggRoll I was writing my wall of text as you posted that video. It really is the best video for insight on his state of mind. His verbalizing so much of his inner dialogue and thought processes (and how disjointed it is) is a great demonstration of how someone's mind is working when they are battling psychosis or various types of mental illness.

 

[Pope Negro Joe the XIIIth]

Good. If you need drugs to transcend, you will be barred from the Kingdom of Heaven and drown in a lake of worms and flutterings things. You will be riddled with parasites. You will be named Ourobouros, and set about a rampage of self-devouring.

Dependencies of any variety are a levy paid to the Court of Hell, and of Two Eyes, and approved via stamp slid in giddy monotony across the desk of Satan.

Haha I say no. As law on earth etc. lol. Where's my 10% kneelie?

 

[Mask_de_SMITH]

Me: "Oh, a new Cow. Alright, lemme check it out."

*Reads about him having a breakdown on video*

Me: "Come on, there's gotta be something more hilarious than that..."

*Reads about him drinking cum*

 

[Xenomorph]

This is why I can't understand people in this thread giving mild support for his recovery, even if he leads to more lulz. The guy is a deranged drug addict pedophile who drinks cum and is paranoid of another pedophile.

Guy deserves death.

Oof , who hurt you?

 

[Wodanaz]

Wow. This nigga found a fucking forbidden grimoire like the necronomicon or de vermis mysteriis in the pysch ward and unlocked the secrets of the universe.
According to scooby, the only way to gauge steroid use 100% is with an accurate timeframe of muscle gain. Big muscles fast = steroids.
So anyway, would you rather go out quickly like Zyzz, or stick around while being fucked up, like this guy?

 

[Jonah Hill poster]

Connor asks his dad why he can’t be enlightened, he replies, “well for one, I’ve got to go to work this afternoon”.

As his father should have.

Seriously, all this New Age “enlightment” nonsense is just an excuse to act out for the sake of doing the least amount of work possible. This philosophy is just based on competing to get the lowest hanging fruit that’s known to man.

 

[Its All So Tiresome]

Especially if you're going to basically do a keg stand with a bucket of ayahuasca like a fucking retard. I've never heard of someone getting "hooked" and consuming it with any regularity. It tastes like shit and makes you puke.

If anything, drugs like that makes you want to stop doing drugs after the first shot

 

[Mariposa Electrique]

He then told a girl begging for cash because of mother was dying of cancer - that she needed to stop eating.

LOL, he's a savage!

 

[tehpope]

This video is terrifying but hilarious. Connor in the midst of his breakdown or manic episode, trying to enlighten his exhausted looking, boomer parents.

Connor asks his dad why he can’t be enlightened, he replies, “well for one, I’ve got to go to work this afternoon”.

 

[Face Of A Ghost]

Damn that girl is a absolute Saint.
Helping him like that cleaning. After just knowing the guy for a day,
Would you do it. Not me fuck that. He could drown in his DMT juice for all i care.
Hope she dosen't get bullied for this I feel she did everything right.

 

[Mariposa Electrique]

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His dad is kinda hot.

 

[Kill a Troon for Pikamee]

Connor asks his dad why he can’t be enlightened, he replies, “well for one, I’ve got to go to work this afternoon”.

This sounds like one of those zen stories where the master has a clever response to a curious student, dad is more enlightened without doing lame joe rogan meme drugs