How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Vingle]

I miss community and knowing neighbors etc.

Yea, I do see my neighbours as a liability. Had to notify the board here, because the fuck next door did make a hole through his wall to the public area in the complex. Luckily it was a small hole, but the point is. He made a hole through a load-bearing wall, without asking the board if it was okay. He could've destroyed the whole fucking complex.
No one in the complex is notifying the board, when something happens. It went MONTHS where the calling system/door bells wasn't working. Guess who had to notify? It even started when I was away for Xmas, so I couldn't even notify.
Or the time where a fire alarm in an apartment where beeping because of low battery, for weeks. There is NO sound isolation here, so it were very noticeable.

I'm frustrated, because all the responsibility is on me. And I'm not even a member of the board. So I truly despise my neighbours and I do not wish to ever meet them. Because I would get too angry at them for making me their "saviour".

Cope. Sounds like I struck a nerve. Normal people are charismatic enough that people want to naturally befriend them. I dick around with whomever wants to be my friend and those that stick around tend to not care what I say; because they actually like me. There's no frustration lol.

I'm getting edgier and edgier cause kiwi farms is beginning to annoy the shit out of me. It's a bunch of sad rightoids with no future in life. Outside of picking on a lolcow, all they do is bitch about trannies and their new dead end job. It's honestly depressing.

People do want to be around me, but I don’t want to. Because I see them as an annoyance.
When I was younger, I was sperging out about being alone "I'm so scared about ending up alone".


So you’re triggered because we don't share your extremist view, of loving troons and niggers?

 

[Bussyking7]

People do want to be around me, but I don’t want to. Because I see them as an annoyance.
When I was younger, I was sperging out about being alone "I'm so scared about ending up alone".

Hahahaha. Yes, I'm sure the reason you have no friends is just because you're a giga brain that is too evolved to socialize with any normal humans. There's a difference between choosing to actively socialize and find friends versus other people inviting you to go do interesting things.

So you’re triggered because we don't share your extremist view, of loving troons and niggers?

Uh, yes sweaty?

 

[Vingle]

Hahahaha. Yes, I'm sure the reason you have no friends is just because you're a giga brain that is too evolved to socialize with any normal humans. There's a difference between choosing to actively socialize and find friends versus other people inviting you to go do interesting things.

Uh, yes sweaty?

I didn't know it wasn't allowed to choose not to socialise. I'm truly sorry, I'm such a bad boy.

N-I-G-G-E-R.

 

[verygayFrogs]

One of my friends was murdered last night by his skank junkie ex over a custody dispute so I'm feeling pretty pissed off today

Oof.

I know too many people that don't fit that bill. I'm gonna just go with everyone that sees a shrink is a pansy that believes in snake oil voodoo.

Honestly it’s easier for some bc their problems are their family or friends and need an outsider’s perspective on it.

Real friends are rare, most people especially in the millennial and zoomer age bracket just hang out at best and drop each other if it actually means taking the relationship seriously.

or at worse use each other when it’s beneficial to them and throw them away when it’s not to their benefit anymore.

Tbh Tom showed up and I’m in so much pain I could barely get out of bed only to the annoyance of my insistent family who wanted to open presents early. And I got yelled at for “thinking of myself its Father’s Day.” I LITERALLY CANNOT MOVE AND MY UTERUS IS THROBBING SO MUCH I’M AFRAID THERES A GODDAMN CHEST BURSTER IN THERE. How in the ass am I thinking of myself? Hopefully the pamprin kicks in eventually and it stops

 

[Nick Obre]

Oof.

Honestly it’s easier for some bc their problems are their family or friends and need an outsider’s perspective on it.

or at worse use each other when it’s beneficial to them and throw them away when it’s not to their benefit anymore.

Tbh Tom showed up and I’m in so much pain I could barely get out of bed only to the annoyance of my insistent family who wanted to open presents early. And I got yelled at for “thinking of myself its Father’s Day.” I LITERALLY CANNOT MOVE AND MY UTERUS IS THROBBING SO MUCH I’M AFRAID THERES A GODDAMN CHEST BURSTER IN THERE. How in the ass am I thinking of myself? Hopefully the pamprin kicks in eventually and it stops

I'm sorry FagFrogs, I don't believe you. All I see you doing in these posts is blowing pretty regular things out of proportion.
If your menstrual pains are truly incapacitating, then you should go see a gynecologist, if you haven't. If you have and they didn't help enough, go see another.

And you do seem like you never look outside of your own perspective.

I'm also sorry if I'm harsh on you, I may even be misjudging everything, but I have a teenage daughter and I recognize some of her immaturity and teen theatrics in you, except you're a whole ass 19 year old and yours are way worse than my kid's.

 

[verygayFrogs]

you haven't. If you have and they didn't help enough, go see another.

I can’t even find one because nothings open in terms of looking for new patients

 

[Nick Obre]

I can’t even find one because nothings open in terms of looking for new patients

Well, I don't know where you are, what the situation is there with all this coof nonsense, or how your healthcare system is, so maybe that's true.
But surely there must be some kind of option you can try.

 

[verygayFrogs]

Well, I don't know where you are, what the situation is there with all this coof nonsense, or how your healthcare system is, so maybe that's true.
But surely there must be some kind of option you can try.

I’ve been taking pills, stretching, heating pad, nothing really works

 

[verygayFrogs]

Spoiler

im fucking done. I can’t even have boundaries in my own fucking home. I have to trek my ass that can barely move an entire flight of stairs for cake I’m not even hungry for to celebrate a man who is as abrasive as the goddamn green side of a kitchen sponge and when I want to get out and go back to bed to lay on the heating pad, suddenly I’m in the wrong and if I say something not positive I get my shit taken away for a month!? Dude accuses me of hating his guts but I really can’t anymore. I’m shocked they still call me family after what I’ve done. I’m done with people fake liking me and I’m pretty sure if I an heroed myself no one would care and or celebrate. The fact I find more comfort in the cyber bullying site than my own fucking blood is saying a lot. Can’t wait until Thursday so I can have some sort of guidance from a councilor since clearly I have no friends and my family hate me and you all seem to think I’m annoying.
Edit: my mom just barged into my room and got into my face about “instead of being a dick, you should ask me to rub you.” And this and that about how I got my way and I’m being a brat to my father on Father’s Day. That man isn’t a father, he was barely in my life until now. I never had a positive male role model in my real life. Hell the closest I have to a positive male role model is fucking anime characters!

 

[BingBong]

 

[Cheerlead-in-Chief]

Yesterday I got questioned for having an angry countenance and I'm forced to hug before bed....yes, even my expression and voice has to be policed.

 

[Vingle]

Yesterday I got questioned for having an angry countenance and I'm forced to hug before bed....yes, even my expression and voice has to be policed.

Not a native english speaker, but I did learn something new today. Never seen the word countenance before.
But, can't you refuse to hug? This is confusing, is it common for parents to hug their kids at over 18 years old each evening before bed? Or are you 10?

I get 3 boxes with stuff tomorrow (2 from the same order), maybe posting something in the autistic stuff-thread soon.

 

[Cheerlead-in-Chief]

Not a native english speaker, but I did learn something new today. Never seen the word countenance before.
But, can't you refuse to hug? This is confusing, is it common for parents to hug their kids at over 18 years old each evening before bed? Or are you 10?

I get 3 boxes with stuff tomorrow (2 from the same order), maybe posting something in the autistic stuff-thread soon.

It's common in Hispanic families to hug, hell some adults live with their parents....

 

[Vingle]

It's common in Hispanic families to hug, hell some adults live with their parents....

Oh, that explains everything. Thought you were American or something else, where there isn't a requirement for family to live onto each other all the time.

 

[Nick Obre]

Spoiler

im fucking done. I can’t even have boundaries in my own fucking home. I have to trek my ass that can barely move an entire flight of stairs for cake I’m not even hungry for to celebrate a man who is as abrasive as the goddamn green side of a kitchen sponge and when I want to get out and go back to bed to lay on the heating pad, suddenly I’m in the wrong and if I say something not positive I get my shit taken away for a month!? Dude accuses me of hating his guts but I really can’t anymore. I’m shocked they still call me family after what I’ve done. I’m done with people fake liking me and I’m pretty sure if I an heroed myself no one would care and or celebrate. The fact I find more comfort in the cyber bullying site than my own fucking blood is saying a lot. Can’t wait until Thursday so I can have some sort of guidance from a councilor since clearly I have no friends and my family hate me and you all seem to think I’m annoying.
Edit: my mom just barged into my room and got into my face about “instead of being a dick, you should ask me to rub you.” And this and that about how I got my way and I’m being a brat to my father on Father’s Day. That man isn’t a father, he was barely in my life until now. I never had a positive male role model in my real life. Hell the closest I have to a positive male role model is fucking anime characters!

Jesus Dick you can't even go eat some cake and make nice for 10 minutes without breaking into histrionics

Don't worry, I won't reply to you again after this, god forbid you stop feeling comfortable in the cyber bullying site, but lass

You need to change your fucking attitude.

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

Let's say, I am not really happy with how I've spent the last year and I can't see it getting any better.

 

[Meat Target]

Had a nice weekend, spent it hanging out with my dad. And now, thanks to merciful rain and clouds, it's the first time in a week I've stepped outside and not been on the brink of bursting into flames.

 

[Overcast]

“instead of being a dick, you should ask me to rub you.”

I'm sorry, what?

Anyway, good friend of mine at work is leaving. It sucks because she's so fun to talk to and be around. During the pandemic and forced lockdowns, she always had something to smile about. And she was fun to flirt and tease with as well.

She said that she needed room to grow and expand her horizons or something to that effect. Which, frankly is awesome. I wished her all the best.

Was pretty bummed about it for a bit. Still am. But she wouldn't want me moping around, so I gotta keep going.

Sent my old man some small statues of the four animals representing the seasons in China. Has them on the windowsill next to his desk. So I'm happy about that at least.

 

[Blamo]

I will recharge my batteries with reducing my Internet usage. I need some positive feels in my system.
I just wish I had some magic powers to turn my e-books into normal ones. I hate reading on the screen.

 

[SouthernBitchBob]

Lost a grandparent to cancer a few weeks ago. Found out my best friend's boyfriend had an embolism and dropped dead at a pretty early age this weekend. Extremely rare guy I developed an interest in and flirted with for several months vanished from all contact and internet haunts with no explanation back in March; pretending he's going to come back or was anything other than a well-executed catfish despite my highly-attuned suspicious stalker research skillz is a desperate child's game.

Doing my damnedest to keep my personal locus of control on an upward trajectory. Health, career, etc are great. I'd be over the moon if one single event outside my bubble of influence was positive, but it just hasn't been. For a long while now. I don't think I need a therapist. I don't need some crunchy granola lady telling me that objectively sad events are sad, or that I should just abandon my standards and hop on the next greasy pole that gets erect near me as if that improves anything. I need a fairy godmother.