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I was not prepared for that rabbit hole.I was a softie then, but I was still a wire mother.
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I was not prepared for that rabbit hole.I was a softie then, but I was still a wire mother.
Depends on the disorder. I know that for borderline, a lot of people tend to parrot the narrative is that it's a byproduct of early childhood neglect and trauma, but I've always been a little skeptical of that because:How is a cluster B personality even created? Are some people just born brokebrained like that? I have a friend with a history of mental illness and I sometimes worry about them, though they seem to be doing better than the subjects of this thread.
There are some people that i do believe are genuine with their gender issues and i would consider "real trans" but is one of those "i know it when i see it" situations, is still a disorder but you can't help but be convinced that they truly do feel like they say they feel and cannot really behave or think any different, they are probably a marginal minority nowadays.Yeah, when I was typing that up, I wanted to tell my past self "get away from the obvious Cluster B trainwreck." SHE DOES NOT JUST NEED JOB SKILLS, DUMBASS.
I don't think mine was really trans, but that's as much as "really trans" can ever mean anything. What she posted online was the classic snarky/woke/brittle Tragic Trans Tales that I still see everywhere today, so if those people are trans, so was she--but that math goes right back the other way, too.
Not groundbreaking, but I think it's seductive to decide that all your problems are due to one thing, and it turns out the one thing is something you can't control and you can use this new identity as an excuse and a cudgel and a ticket to a social group. And that identity means that nobody can criticize you ever again, and you always have reasons to flip out when you feel like you need more chaos.
One of the most infuriating things about these types is when you catch them throwing someone under the bus that you know for a fact have been nothing but nice and helpful to them. Their family might as well be the Brady Bunch but they'd still shit on them and claim they are all worse than Mengele if that gets them the sympathy of someone they barely know. I am no expert but the upbringing factors might not be the abuse one thinks like getting molested or beaten but more subtle types of neglect, like they needing a certain type of discipline that their parents don't enforce, it also seems very common for them to come from single parent households, even when the parent is not a terrible monster. Thats my personal take, is not so much the things they suffered but things they lacked, like developing a sense for boundaries.Depends on the disorder. I know that for borderline, a lot of people tend to parrot the narrative is that it's a byproduct of early childhood neglect and trauma, but I've always been a little skeptical of that because:
a. that sounds like exactly the sort of thing Cluster B types would tell people about their past, and
b. it's not unheard of for people with these sorts of personalities to have perfectly normal, functional siblings who describe them as having issues as far back as they can remember
I honestly wouldn't be shocked if they were just inherently emotionally/cognitively stunted in some way. I also wouldn't be surprised if it's something that ends up being better or worse depending on how much others enable them. One of my core problems with the social justice movement as a whole is that it's pretty much based around enabling and encouraging Cluster B personality traits.
Or even effectively single-parent households. I.e. one parent was normal, the other was absent or neglectful if not abusive.it also seems very common for them to come from single parent households
Actually shed some tears to this. You probably were more of a mother to her, than her biological mother. And you ended up with just being hurt.My closest transgender story has to be vague to not powerlevel. She's a relative of a lolcow, although she hasn't come up much in the cow's thread.
Met in a fandom, she early 20s, me 30s. She started as one of those bisexuals who constantly has sex with different men and never women but is bisexual all day (bisexually). Childhood abuse saga that I do believe happened, from observed effects on her adult behavior, but I wouldn't guarantee any of the specifics.
Was going to go into the armed forces to escape living with abusive family and dead-end town, decided her bisexual-who-only-fucks-men status would not be respected in the armed forces. Instead decided to couch-surf across the country. Incidentally became a Homestuck fan, acquired new typing quirks and more brittle emotions and wham! Now a FtM with makeup and tight girl clothes over huge free-range titties (not her choice to have breasts, but it's part of the picture) complaining people are staring at her on the bus "because I'm trans."
Also having sex on a borrowed couch with people literally from craigslist casual encounters (betraying the time setting here), when she isn't dogging with same craigslisters in the park, then breaking down and being near-catatonic for days after each instance. Craigslist sex randos pulled the surprise bareback, didn't listen to "nos," may have handcuffed her at different points. I noted gently that this seemed to be a pattern that was not good for her, and learned I am "sex-negative." Although she did ask me to help her buy Plan B, both financially and logistically. I readily did this as a service to her and the universe, and then helped her get to Planned Parenthood and get on birth control.
I was a softie then, but I was still a wire mother, although this isn't about my own personal failings. Friends, I confess it was my poor couch that had craigslist sex on it while I was at work. She was supposed to stay with me for [short period] before a normie relative could take her in, but this did not occur. Her lolcow relative was supposed to be giving her a car, which did not occur. She did not want to live with the lolcow, because (per her report) the lolcow's partner had tried to badtouch her, but that made sense.
I sponsored the kid into a short vocational program that would give her the income to rent a one-bedroom and live decently here, moreso if she ended up with a roommate situation. I took her to the public health office and got her her vaccines updated, kept track of dates and appointments, and got her new glasses after her near-blindness ended up being from a junior-high prescription. (If nothing else, this was concrete proof there was something up with her parents.) I showed her how to use the bus system and got her a pass, which worked a lot better after she could actually read street signs. I gave her a decent netbook. I helped her get her learner's permit and took her out driving (when she was still anticipating a gift car). She was still on her parents' insurance, so I encouraged her to get to a shrink, because (at the time) I thought "well OK if she's trans, uhhhh I guess that means therapy->hormones->a bunch of legal paperwork->surgery->normal life again, so we'll put that on the list and work through it like anything else."
I drove her to a local Homestuck fan meetup in the park, where she made a lot of new friends who were exactly like her, except jobless and living off their parents instead.
What I learned firsthand is that troons do not want help; they want "help." She didn't want to take any steps to change herself or her body; after declaring herself trans, she doubled up the makeup and the flouncing. She wanted to do nothing, act helpless and over-the-top femme and be treated (?) as a man. My research into what transition timeline the state health insurance required wasn't helpful. I started to put things together; before the sojurn at my place, there were always reasons that she couldn't take advantage of social programs, couldn't join the armed forces, couldn't do Americorps, couldn't go to a food bank.
I started to overhear voice chats about how I "wasn't exactly transphobic, but..." She made it through her program and got a job, and I helped her find a good, actually not-creepy rooming house situation literally down the street from work and on a bus line. Without my dubiously stabilizing influence, she spun further into the internet. She called me and part of a rant was that "I guess if you want people to see you as a boy, you have to dress like a boy."
As I know now, the correct answer to that was not a chuckle and "yeah, probably." It turned out to be a relief being unpersoned slowly; she socialized with her Homestuck genderspecial friends, she quit her normal job with benefits and became a live-in nanny, with no contract and being paid under the table, for one of the Homestucks' younger siblings. She later contacted me with regrets and fear that she was now in an undocumented position with unstable income, and through the Cluster B lens my careful advice was still seen as that of an evil transphobe, so she never talked to me again.
I was constantly worried I'd run into her at a store, or she'd call/message me in the middle of the night with a new plateau of psychosocial troubles, but she eventually fell in with a man, centered her life around him, and was last seen on her way moving across the country in a different direction. By then the FtM/FtX meme had metastasized in the female-heavy fandom community where we'd met, so I was able to delete all my links to her socials and be uninformed about her future life. I have had only occasional moments of worry in the years since. She could have actually done something about trooning out, she could be medicated and employed, she could have several kids or still be couch surfing and probably calling herself nonbinary by now.
I still hope she did not get murdered at a rest stop by a craigslist sex rando, even though she tried to teach me that that's a selfish and un-progressive thing to hope.
It was one of those situations where you don't realize the scope of the project until you're up to your ass in alligators, and then there's no way out but through. I'm a boring and risk-averse person--not the kind of person to Greyhound across-country to stay on an Internet buddy's couch--so most of this wasn't even something in my mental model.Actually shed some tears to this. You probably were more of a mother to her, than her biological mother. And you ended up with just being hurt.
I didn't know where else to put this, but I just found out that one of my favorite content creators on Youtube trooned out. It's kind of disappointing to me, and I hope it doesn't impact the videos he makes.
He doesn't have much of a following, it would be kind of a powerlevel to name the Youtuber.View attachment 2312383 as hell, but who trooned out? I personally know two YT creators that I enjoy troon out. One was a music creator and the other does horror stuff.
Would it? Are you related?He doesn't have much of a following, it would be kind of a powerlevel to name the Youtuber.
That’s because nonbinary is just today’s version of androgynous (Like how “goth” kids were later “emo”). Except there’s an inherent political “goodness” in declaring yourself nonbinarySide thoughts - The nonbinary women (for some reason its 90% women)
When I think of transsexuals in areas of medicine or psychology, that they stay in women's sports doesn't seem like a bad idea. Fuck, imagine that you go to a psychologist and you get a crazy transsexual who gives you wrong diagnoses and convinces you that the transition is the solution to your problems, they will no longer prepare young people confused in discord now they will be their therapists and they will give them vaginasNow she has almost graduated med school
God damn, my online friend said the same shit. Went from "I feel trans but I won't actually transition." To "I'm coming out as trans uwu"I tried to talk him out of it at first, but he insisted he was fine, he was just experimenting,
From my experience, MTF is more bitter/catty/petty. FTM are often straight up crazy, like a fucking roid rage.I'm still trying to take everything in since i'm still in shock, but the more I think about everything that happened it just... feels so disgusting. Now if you excuse me, I have to dispose of some gifts on my pinboard he made me before I set fire to my entire board.
Again, sorry this is fucking long I need to go to bed and I may have accidently vented but I just needed to get this out since it seems i'm not alone in the whole "I need help but not that kind of help" wheel house.
Your whole story sounded strangely familiar to me, this part most of all. Nothing ever works... and neither do they. All you get is them explaining their external locus of control.He tells me about internships? I tell him to go for it. "Buh they're unpaid"
Ok look for one that does pay or work in the college café or store or whatever "they won't take me because of ABC or I have XYZ going on"
House situation?
Why don't you move in with your waitstaff friend? You were going to get a flat with them anyways "Oh they said something transphobic so we're not friends anymore. (That should've been the BIGGEST red flag for me but ofc I ignored it.)
Why not move back in with your grandmother? "oh she's physically/mentally abusive and a grade a manipulator" (I still have a hard time believing this since when I met the grandmother the one time they seemed to get a long fine and that woman was about to cry buckets in the damn sams club so I'm still unsure if this is a pity me thing or a absolute fact)
Why not move back to X state? "that's my last resort and i'll detransition and move back in with my abusive grandma but I won't be happy about it.
When your so far left you think Ben Shapiro is alt-right.pint sized Alt-right Israelite live rent free inside your head.
Like I stated from the beginning, I got a weird set of morals when it comes to people i've met personally. Trust me I can easily deadname/gender my best friends exes like a drop of a hat, and deadgender any bitch on the damn farms, however for this individual in particular it's like difficult. I've never really been through the wringer like this with well- anyone since i'm used to people going "aight Kaiba fuck off you suck" or ghosting me and it's pretty obvious as to what happened. However since this interaction had ALLLLLL that shit some night's it's easy for me to deadgame/gender this retard since it's pretty damn obvious how toxic this was, but some nights its hard to do that cause my damn respect morals pop up (I don't think respect is bad at all, however, my stupid ass mind NEEDS TO NOT RESPECT THIS PERSON).From my experience, MTF is more bitter/catty/petty. FTM are often straight up crazy, like a fucking roid rage.
She will always be a girl, and she never respected you. Why in the flying fuck should you respect her delusion about being a man?
All I wanted to do was help the best I could since it's in my nature to help people, and I genuinely do enjoy helping people. However, after just getting told excuse after excuse, it was just fucking exhausting. Hell it made me re-evalute a little of my life to just get some shit DONE instead of "buh XYZ" since if that was exhausting for me, I couldn't begin to think how my excuses made other people exhausted.Your whole story sounded strangely familiar to me, this part most of all. Nothing ever works... and neither do they. All you get is them explaining their external locus of control.
I know these things aren't logical, but it seems counterintuitive that being a man means helplessness, emotional breakdowns and suicide blackmail vs. whoever makes the mistake of answering your messages.