Skitzocow Taxman / Kyle Hawkins

[AhoyFancyPants]

This is just harrowing to watch. I can just sense his fear seething from every word he says. It permeates him. Consumes him. It's all building up to a terrible climax, where the fear he harbors will literally kill him. He knows he needs help - he pleads for it each time he speaks to the camera - but he doesn't know that the only person who can help him is himself. And, now... as he continues to reach out to others, continues to plead with the impossible to lift him from his pit of misery, give him the 'new position he deserves,' 'recognize his genius,' and so on, it's far from likely that he'll ever see that truth he so desperately needs.

"Alone. Yes, that's the key word, the most awful word in the English tongue. Murder doesn't hold a candle to it and hell is only a poor synonym." - Stephen King

We can see it in this man, loneliness personified. It's pretty scary.

At the risk of sounding uncouth, this is beautifully worded. Also accurate. Sad and very accurate.

 

[Girlfriend-free Boy]

We're all human. I personally don't care if he's a brony, a basement-dwelling degenerate, or even a living shoe. He feels fear. I'm in no way defending the things he's done or said, but this man's plight is, no matter what way you look at it, a wonder to behold. He's so far gone from any place of reality that I see it as... scary. To think that a human, a man like you or me, could be in such a place makes one think.

...But we digress. I'm simply commenting on his latest video with my thoughts and feelings.

It's cat, dude. Posting shit like that is kind of what he does.

 

[Count groudon]

Yknow, when you think about it, him saying that he's similar to Don Quixote is actually kinda appropriate, since they're both more interested in their own fantasies than the real world. Only Don wanted to be a heroic knight after he read a shitload of books, and Taxy just wants to go to ponyland cause he's scared of minorities or something?

 

[CatParty]

It's cat, dude. Posting shit like that is kind of what he does.

Because we are here to mock lolcows not feel sorry for a sperg in the same community

 

[I'm With Chris]

FFS - this guy is for entertainment purposes only.

There is no need to feel sorry for him or hate him.

Here's how it goes down, no matter what your feels are:
(1) He offs himself, intentionally or accidentally.
(2) He gets thrown into an institution.
(3) God forbid - he wises the fuck up and quits uploading stupid shit to the internet for everyone to watch.

Until one of those happens, the only correct "emotion" to have is bewildered amusement. If you can't see the humor, either pour yourself a stiff drink or check out another thread.

 

[AnOminous]

Until one of those happens, the only correct "emotion" to have is bewildered amusement. If you can't see the humor, either pour yourself a stiff drink or check out another thread.

Nobody can do anything about what this madman is going to do to himself, so might as well appreciate the humor in it.

It's an abstract kind of feel.

 

[Strelok]

I suppose it helps to separate the Taxman of the past and the taxman of the now.

The taxman of the now is past the point of no return. There's no helping him. Might as well sit back and enjoy the show because they're ain't no retconning real life. But had he actually gotten some help before devolving into pony obsessed batshit lunacy, maybe he wouldn't have turned out so fucked up. It's like what would have happened to Chris Chan if Blorb weren't such shit parents.

That said my current hopes for Taxman are simply "Don't hurt anyone else with your fucking lunacy", which I think could very well happen with his propensity for trying more and more drugs and driving while clearly under the influence.

 

[AlmightyMagichan]

FFS - this guy is for entertainment purposes only.

Here's how it goes down, no matter what your feels are:
(1) He offs himself, intentionally or accidentally.
(2) He gets thrown into an institution.
(3) God forbid - he wises the fuck up and quits uploading stupid shit to the internet for everyone to watch.

You forgot (4) It turns out Tax has been right all along! And we'll all feel silly when Jewish Dark Wizards appear and try to destroy the economy only to be stopped by a bunch of misunderstood losers leading an army of cartoon horses.

 

[I'm With Chris]

also (5) - it's a low budget MDE mini-series.

 

[Phil Ken Sebben]

New Video

I feel like I'm witnessing a mental breakdown here. I'm no psychologist but there appear to be cracks in this guy's psyche.

And the really bad thing is weens are going to be popping out of the woodwork to take advantage of this guy.

 

[GRANDAD]

i hope someone did pm him about a place to lay low and it ends up being the address to a halfway house, and when he gets back home he makes a video about how the wizards are on youtube trying to trick him

 

[Hummingbird]

FFS - this guy is for entertainment purposes only.

There is no need to feel sorry for him or hate him.

Here's how it goes down, no matter what your feels are:
(1) He offs himself, intentionally or accidentally.
(2) He gets thrown into an institution.
(3) God forbid - he wises the fuck up and quits uploading stupid shit to the internet for everyone to watch.

Until one of those happens, the only correct "emotion" to have is bewildered amusement. If you can't see the humor, either pour yourself a stiff drink or check out another thread.

The one thing we can hope is he doesn't take any innocent people with him. (Even by accident.)

Taxman's paranoia is definitely getting worse.

 

[I'm With Chris]

Ugg.

He is trolling.

And doing a not bad job at that.

Like any IRL troll - he'll regret his attempt at online fame.

Powerlevel: I have a kid like him, same age. Taxman's performance is weak.

The only reason I like him is his ability to keep a straight face when he goes full retard.

We've all learned this lesson before.

 

[The Oddball from MLW]

Ugg.

He is trolling.

And doing a not bad job at that.

Like any IRL troll - he'll regret his attempt at online fame.

Powerlevel: I have a kid like him, same age. Taxman's performance is weak.

The only reason I like him is his ability to keep a straight face when he goes full exceptional individual.

We've all learned this lesson before.

There have been many people that have known him for some time, @LurkerTheLurker and myself included. He also has commissioned a considerable amount of pony porn as well. Needless to say, if this is a ruse cruise, the guy is basically trolling himself at this point.

 

[I'm With Chris]

There have been many people that have known him for some time, @LurkerTheLurker and myself included. He also has commissioned a considerable amount of pony porn as well. Needless to say, if this is a ruse cruise, the guy is basically trolling himself at this point.

And then he found a new way to draw attention.

 

[Silvana]

Nobody can do anything about what this madman is going to do to himself, so might as well appreciate the humor in it.

It's an abstract kind of feel.

Exactly this. It's precisely because he's so far gone - well past the point of no return - that Taxman is of such fascinating interest. You don't see this sort of outright crazed paranoia everyday. This being so, all we can do is sit back and watch this one man (or one man, one pony) psychodrama play itself out. Infuriating, though, to think we won't get to see the final act. Eventually, the videos will just stop - after which we can only speculate.

 

[Sigyn]

New Video

I'm torn on Taxman, this all started out funny, but has spiraled into some bad shit.

Spoiler: Mental health sperging ahead

Taxman needs to be properly assessed by a mental health professional, but it seems like his parents either don't know what to do or are content to let whatever they think is happening play itself out. By law he wouldn't be their responsibility, but you would think that if they allowed him to move back in that they would WANT him to get better.

Anyway, this whole situation is EXTREMELY common. Taxman over there appears to be in the throes of either schizophrenia or a schizoaffective disorder. As said earlier in the thread, his age matches up with the "normal" timeline for something like that to appear. To most people he probably just looks like he's on drugs (which he is, but not quite what I'm after), so he, like so many others, will most likely be kicked out on the streets where the police will eventually pick him up for something along the lines of being a nuisance/drug use/assault. From there he'll probably engage in a cycle of recidivism that accounts for a large portion of the prison/jail population. Unfortunately in the US, incarceration=mental health care, so without SOME sort of intervention by his family, this all could go downhill fast, and possibly violently. I know that all sounds over-dramatic, but if you don't believe me, feel free to look it up yourself.

Last point I have is that drugs, especially hallucinogenic or dissociative ones, are some of the worst things a schizo person can do. They will bring out the absolute worst of the problem, and often lead to violent outbursts due to the drugs inducing elevated anxiety, paranoia, confusion, and general panic/fear.

Or this could all be a very convincing fake, and if it is I will be very impressed.

Seconded on the spoiler^

But I was just thinking that he hit almost ALL the signposts of schizophrenia; carrying on a seemingly two-way discussion with himself, lack of eye contact, nervous twitches (hair pulling, grabbing) , random bursts of anger, repeating phrases, rocking back and forth, ect, and he's either genuinely this ill, (in which case I dont understand why his parents would keep him around, they'd have to be terrified of him, this stage can't really be hidden) or he's a really patient troll. For some reason this just seems odd to me.

 

[Girlfriend-free Boy]

I feel like I'm witnessing a mental breakdown here.

We've all felt that since Day 1.

 

[CatParty]

Ugg.

He is trolling.

And doing a not bad job at that.

Like any IRL troll - he'll regret his attempt at online fame.

Powerlevel: I have a kid like him, same age. Taxman's performance is weak.

The only reason I like him is his ability to keep a straight face when he goes full exceptional individual.

We've all learned this lesson before.

If he is rusing, then it makes anyone who feels sorry for him look like a total asshole

 

[tehfolder]

I disagree, and respect people who try to help (or at least try to not hurt) mentally ill people online. Even if they end up being fake.