Chris only hid it because he thought the trolls would try to ruin his relationship. He didn’t see anything wrong with it and even was playful with Null about it and wanted him to know. The fact he looks happy and feels smug over his arrest shows that he views this as perfectly normal. His incestuous comments over the years only back this up.
Chris wrote to Null, and I quote:
"This relationship was something I have
extensively given much, much deep thought and within myself. I had foreseen this among the infinite possible outcomes long ago.
I no longer believe in labels that would hinder, and
I do not listen to those shadows. This was of
my own choice and acceptance,
and I have no regrets.
This feels right and good with I, and her."
[Emphasis added.]
Especially those two middle parts make it clear that he was well aware of how his actions would be perceived and that it is wrong. None of these statements make any sense whatsoever under the presumption that he was not seeing anything wrong with it. Here:
It's something he had to "think about extensively", cause he knows it's not considered to be okay to pork your own mom. He would not feel a need to emphasize that he had to mull things over, if he thought this was okay from the getgo, he would have just done it without thinking about possible consequences. It becomes very damning when considering how he follows that up:
He chose to ignore the "labels", cause he knows being a literal motherfucker is considered bad (to put it mildly) by everyone else. He knows how this is perceived, he knows it's considered taboo. This gets emphasized even further when he says that he chose to ignore "the shadows" that would presumably tell him no or that this is wrong. He knows that literally any non-sycopanth would tell him to suckstart a 12 gauge, if he asked them their opinion about fucking his geriatric mother.
He says he has "no regrets", if this was hunky dory in his mind, why could there be a possibility for regrets that he even needs to say that? If it's something that's okay to do, there is no need to point out that you don't regret doing it. He knew it could be wrong, he did it and he doesn't regret it (obviously, he didn't, otherwise he wouldn't have raped her with autistic regularity), cause it helped him get his rocks off and that's all that mattered to him. He didn't know whether it was okay or not to fuck his mom, he did it, it felt good and that's what mattered to him.
This assessment is easily validated by his last quoted statement. He says that it
feels good and right. It is not right and good, but rather
feels right and good. This statement literally only makes sense when it is at odds with any contrary point of view - ie: the opinion of the vast majority of people, that think fucking your own geriatric mom is bad.
It's clear as day. He knew it's considered bad. He knew it's not considered okay. He did it after thinking long and hard about it, decided to ignore the labels and even though he might have had scruples, he came to the conclusion that he did not regret it and that it feels right.
There is absolutely no wriggle room in what he wrote.
[edit:] Also that turn of phrase that it is of his own choice and acceptance. What is there to accept if it isn't something bad? Literally the entire paragraph is one long "I did something bad, but it felt good, so I don't regret it", he repeats these verbal cues over and over and over again. How can this even be a point of debate when it is so blatantly obvious in his writing?
He teased Null with the details cause he was gloating about outsmarting everyone. He might not have guessed that anyone would call the cops on his ass, but he knew shit would hit the fan if he came out towards anyone not a sycopanth.[/edit]
If Chris was rich he'd probably be able to get a heavily reduced sentance through technicalities.
But lets be honest here, he's getting a public defender who will probably want this case over as quickly as possible so they can move onto other clients.
He has been handled with kid gloves by any previous judge. The trial is going to be a blood bath for Chris, especially if he maintains that raping his mom was totally a-okay.