Which brings up the question, the answer of which frankly could put an end to this whole story of the Fall of Digibro; is Conrad happier now (and I don't mean measured by the level of personal success; it is clear by day he is a complete careercow) than he was pre-trooning, c. early 2020? It's not the question of "should he be happy?" but more does he wake up everyday feeling better than ever before?
Personally, I don't think so. Digi is
chasing the Dragon. He's on a lot of hard drugs and he's chasing the high, he's grasping at a misty vision of what he thinks he sees. It's easy to get caught up in a euphoria of something you think is about to happen. But when it never happens, depression will set in, sooner or later.
He's having an identity crisis. He lost all his friends and loved ones by changing. He ruined his brand and fan-base. He's sold a lot of his cool stuff that used to bring him happiness. I don't believe that Digi is doing any of this for the right reason. It can feel very good
in the moment to purge everything, because you're starting fresh. But what happens when he is stuck in this "fresh" state and nothing he was trying to achieve ever happens? What happens when he cannot catch the dragon that he's chasing?
If Digi is waking up happy, it's only because he thinks he's moving towards something huge, but it will never be real. He's not going to blow up as a singer. He's not good at passing as a woman. His talent has completely vanished. He's lost everything. At this point, he might even be scared, but unwilling to admit defeat. The only thing holding him together are the drugs, other people's efforts and videos, and the high that he feels by trying to chase after this imaginary perfect life he thinks he's creating.