TGWTG The Spoony One / Spoony / Noah Antwiler and Rachel Baker / @RaeAngel07 - The touching romance between a washed-up videogame reviewer throwing a decade-long pity party and his delusional Canuck stalker. #weaknotsick #donttellmehowtosulk

[Captain Syrup]

May I also direct you to when he bragged about being able to use his CS skills to hack phones like a Shadowrun decker?

He's just a drama geek larping as Jonny Lee Miller.

 

[Jan Ciągwa]

Sadly this kind of behavior is not exclusive to Noah. Ask an innocent question like, "Whats the easiest way to add 1 to a numerical variable in C++ for my intro to programming class?" and you'll have a lot of arrogant assholes just like Spoony tut-tutting your programming language choice and telling you how you should really do it like how its done in their favorite language.

template <class MyType> class MyNumericalValue{
 MyType _value;
 
 
 public:

 MyNumericalValue(MyType value)
 {
  _value = value;
 }
 
 MyType operator++(int)
 {
  _value = _value+1;
  return _value;
 }
}

int main(int argc, char* argv)
{
 int integer = MyNumericalValue<int>(1);
 integer++;
 return 0;
}

Serious question: how do you cause memory leaks by breaking a loop in Perl?

 

[Water Resistance]

template <class MyType> class MyNumericalValue{
 MyType _value;
 
 
 public:

 MyNumericalValue(MyType value)
 {
  _value = value;
 }
 
 MyType operator++(int)
 {
  _value = _value+1;
  return _value;
 }
}

int main(int argc, char* argv)
{
 int integer = MyNumericalValue<int>(1);
 integer++;
 return 0;
}

Serious question: how do you cause memory leaks by breaking a loop in Perl?

I don't know perl, but if it's anything like other languages, one way i can imagine is by making a global reference to something that should only live in the loop and never cleaning it up before you exit it?
Can't think of something else off the top of my head, maybe we should ask Noah on twitter.

 

[Divine right to rule]

I believe that Noah is a legit Narcissist.

So my theory concerning his online disappearance is that he is staying off willingly, not because his parents force him.
He is incredibly humiliated. As long as he was in the house, the enormity of his failure wasn't daily appearant to him, he escaped into pity parties on twitter, vidya, and his good ol grandstanding. Now, that he had to move back to his parents, he cannot maintain his narcissistic facade to himself anymore.
He is a failure, he pissed away everything he had, he wasted the luck that he had to gain a big fanbase early, he drove his fangirl gf away, and he wasn't even able to do extremely limited content to keep his house.
With the move back to mommy, his whole self image and persona crashed.
He is completely broken right now, and needs time to lick his wounds.
Maybe he will realize how bad he handles the internet, stay off it, and get a normal job. ( )
Or, more likely, he will be back after a few months of recovery, and continue as if nothing happened.
Sperging about wrestling, politics, and emotionally abusing his orbiters.

 

[Oliver Onions]

Oh Jeez, she's turning into a weeb next?

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She's clearly made peace with Noah not coming back and is now abusing hashtags --moreso than usual-- to try and entrap some new hapless simp she can @ incessantly until the heat death of the universe.

...Or until one of her innumerable falls proves fatal; whichever comes first.

 

[Pomniman]

Possibly. I still think his parents did the smart thing and immediately chucked his ass into in-patient therapy at a hospital while watching Oreo for him as the docs there figure out the right drugs that will un-fuck his brain into being a productive member of society instead of a colossal fuck-up.

Just pilling someone up doesn't magically fix them. Unless they want to change their dysfunctional behavior/thoughts and make a serious, continued effort to do so, they'll still be the same useless fucked up loser no matter what sorts of drugs you shove down their throat.

 

[Tripping Nice Clown]

Just pilling someone up doesn't magically fix them. Unless they want to change their dysfunctional behavior/thoughts and make a serious, continued effort to do so, they'll still be the same useless fucked up loser no matter what sorts of drugs you shove down their throat.

That's why I also said in-patient therapy. But then again, maybe I was being too optimistic on what's actually happening and he's just refusing to comply with shit.

 

[Butter]

That's why I also said in-patient therapy. But then again, maybe I was being too optimistic on what's actually happening and he's just refusing to comply with shit.

I don't want to speculate on what is going on, because I have no clue and very little interest.

But the only thing that would help someone in Noah's position is certainly an in-patient stay as you guys have suggested. In-patient mental hospital stay (6-8 weeks) for learning healthy skills to cope and having medication started/adjusted. Followed by, if the USA has something like that, long term rehabilitation.A place where your medication gets fine tuned (or changed) and you spend 2 years learning to be as much of a normal human being as you can be while doing a lot of different therapies (music/ergo/sports/work internships). In those type of institutes you have chores and responsibilities (such as cleaning the kitchen, shopping for the group etc.) but you can "tap out" if it gets too much and in the first few months do it at your own pace. But after a while people want to see improvement from you. After that, out-patient therapy (psychiatrist / psychotherapist), and keeping up with things you have learned there.

I have seen people worse off than Spoony become stable enough to keep jobs and healthy relationships. I have seen very mentally ill people become so stable that they can work in a workshop for the disabled. But the main thing to be able to do that is at least a smidgen of desire to change. I do not know, from all I know about Noah, if he is ready for that. He seems to be somebody that has to hit rock bottom (Homeless, broke, disowned by his friends and parents) until he realizes things need to change.

 

[plattschwanz]

Serious question: how do you cause memory leaks by breaking a loop in Perl?

I wrote a post about that in this thread some time ago.

I think Spoony's degree is completely worthless at this point. To illustrate my point, I'm going to discuss this chain of old tweets from 2018 which have never been looked into detail in this thread. (Unimportant parts are cut out.)

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Spoony used to program in Perl. In these tweets, he writes a bunch of gibberish how breaking out of loops somehow causes problems with memory, showing a core misunderstanding of the language’s garbage collection.

Perl uses a specific garbage collection algorithm which utilizes reference counting for deallocation of objects that aren't in use anymore. It's a very efficient way to clean memory, but it can cause problems when you use a series of references where the last object references the first, a so called circular reference. The memory of this circular reference never gets cleaned up by the garbage collector.

If your program uses a loop or a recursion then you must manually free the memory in the circular reference, else you will cause a memory leak. This is one of the most basic things about Perl, him not understanding this is laughable for someone who holds a degree in CS.

In the past he also showed that he doesn't know how E2EE works and that he isn't able to change partition size on his phone.

edit: small improvement

In short: Perl uses reference counting for garbage collection which can't handle circular references. Spoony is too dumb and doesn't quite understand how that works.

 

[Jan Ciągwa]

Just pilling someone up doesn't magically fix them. Unless they want to change their dysfunctional behavior/thoughts and make a serious, continued effort to do so, they'll still be the same useless fucked up loser no matter what sorts of drugs you shove down their throat.

It does, if we're talking about seizures, schizophrenia and other such disorders which suck out your soul through your eyes, jump in and drive you around like a car. There are very old meds like the irreversible MAOis, which are very effective at treating clinical depression... at a price. Unfortunately, modern SSRIs act only on serotonin, increasing which lowers dopamine due to brain trying to balance itself and lowering dopamine is the worst thing you can do when trying to lift up a depressed person. "Depression" as understood in modern medicine is marketing bullshit (~10x more people pay for depression treatments than for schizophrenia), but you can't squeeze blood out of a rock.

Assuming Spoonster doesn't lie about being bipolar II, then the best thing he could do is to stop taking his lithium and other mood stabilizers he's on. It's not like he's going to stab a random person on the sidewalk if he stops taking them.

I don't want to speculate on what is going on, because I have no clue and very little interest.

But the only thing that would help someone in Noah's position is certainly an in-patient stay as you guys have suggested. In-patient mental hospital stay (6-8 weeks) for learning healthy skills to cope and having medication started/adjusted. Followed by, if the USA has something like that, long term rehabilitation.A place where your medication gets fine tuned (or changed) and you spend 2 years learning to be as much of a normal human being as you can be while doing a lot of different therapies (music/ergo/sports/work internships). In those type of institutes you have chores and responsibilities (such as cleaning the kitchen, shopping for the group etc.) but you can "tap out" if it gets too much and in the first few months do it at your own pace. But after a while people want to see improvement from you. After that, out-patient therapy (psychiatrist / psychotherapist), and keeping up with things you have learned there.

I have seen people worse off than Spoony become stable enough to keep jobs and healthy relationships. I have seen very mentally ill people become so stable that they can work in a workshop for the disabled. But the main thing to be able to do that is at least a smidgen of desire to change. I do not know, from all I know about Noah, if he is ready for that. He seems to be somebody that has to hit rock bottom (Homeless, broke, disowned by his friends and parents) until he realizes things need to change.

So... like an opiate addict rehabilitation program?
In the Land of the Free, you have to be a millionare to afford a 2 year rehab like that. Assuming his parents even bother to spend money on him, they could afford a month-long inpatient stay, tops.

I wrote a post about that in this thread some time ago.


In short: Perl uses reference counting for garbage collection which can't handle circular references. Spoony is too dumb and doesn't quite understand how that works.

TBF he complained about rookies making stupid mistakes he had to fix over and over again, exagerrating as always. I can relate a bit; that C++ class template idiocy I pasted is an example of what you might have to read when maintaining someone else's code; there really are people out there paid fat money to turn simple 100-line prototypes into 2KLOC "mature" object-oriented interface doing nothing aside from strong source code encryption.

 

[Pomniman]

It does, if we're talking about seizures, schizophrenia and other such disorders which suck out your soul through your eyes, jump in and drive you around like a car. There are very old meds like the irreversible MAOis, which are very effective at treating clinical depression... at a price. Unfortunately, modern SSRIs act only on serotonin, increasing which lowers dopamine due to brain trying to balance itself and lowering dopamine is the worst thing you can do when trying to lift up a depressed person. "Depression" as understood in modern medicine is marketing bullshit (~10x more people pay for depression treatments than for schizophrenia), but you can't squeeze blood out of a rock.

Assuming Spoonster doesn't lie about being bipolar II, then the best thing he could do is to stop taking his lithium and other mood stabilizers he's on. It's not like he's going to stab a random person on the sidewalk if he stops taking them.

Seizures don't belong in the same category as the rest of these things. My overall point is that just being medicated won't fix any potential damage someone has done to their life while they weren't. It takes a lot more than just popping pills, even the ones that do work for specific mental disorders, to deal with the consequences of things like losing a job, dropping out of school, being evicted, picking up a drug or booze habit, etc. That's not even getting into the fact that they tend to have really fucked up side effects even in cases where taking them is unavoidable like schizophrenia.

 

[Butter]

So... like an opiate addict rehabilitation program?
In the Land of the Free, you have to be a millionare to afford a 2 year rehab like that. Assuming his parents even bother to spend money on him, they could afford a month-long inpatient stay, tops.

Sort of like that, yes. Only for the mentally ill. To rehabilitate them back into being functioning human beings.

Thanks for clearing that up. The USA probably has the best health system in the world, except nobody can afford it. I wish mental health gets taken more seriously and the mentally ill will be given more support into rehabilitating.

 

[RJ MacReady]

The Spoony One lives... to update his Amazon wishlist! In an outstanding display of improvement, he's seen reason and downgraded the bed he wants to something slightly cheaper. And also he still wants a blackout window cover.



I think the blackout cover is pretty much proof that he's not being forced to fix himself. He wouldn't need that unless he was sleeping all day like he always does.

 

[mlanguishi]

The Spoony One lives... to update his Amazon wishlist! In an outstanding display of improvement, he's seen reason and downgraded the bed he wants to something slightly cheaper. And also he still wants a blackout window cover.

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I think the blackout cover is pretty much proof that he's not being forced to fix himself. He wouldn't need that unless he was sleeping all day like he always does.

If he's updating this he clearly has net access. I think he's hiding mostly out of shame. I doubt very strongly that anyone, even if he's with Miles and especially his parents, will make him actually straighten up.

 

[White Devil]

Sort of like that, yes. Only for the mentally ill. To rehabilitate them back into being functioning human beings.

Thanks for clearing that up. The USA probably has the best health system in the world, except nobody can afford it. I wish mental health gets taken more seriously and the mentally ill will be given more support into rehabilitating.

It's only been like that since 2008.

 

[Fapcop]

Sort of like that, yes. Only for the mentally ill. To rehabilitate them back into being functioning human beings.

Thanks for clearing that up. The USA probably has the best health system in the world, except nobody can afford it. I wish mental health gets taken more seriously and the mentally ill will be given more support into rehabilitating.

In all fairness, I can’t offhand think of a country or a healthcare system where something like what you’re describing exists.

Except maybe for the very young/kids. A two year In Patient program is very expensive no matter what kind of healthcare system you have, and the chances of success with someone who’s already an adult (especially adult narcissist) are fairly slim unfortunately.

Especially if they haven’t made the choice to change themselves but are just put there by their doctors or the authorities.

(and hey: Especially socialized healthcare systems need to be very careful with how they spend their money. Spending it on re-adulting adults doesn’t sound like a great way to use taxpayers money.)

 

[Nobue]

The Spoony One lives... to update his Amazon wishlist! In an outstanding display of improvement, he's seen reason and downgraded the bed he wants to something slightly cheaper. And also he still wants a blackout window cover.

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I think the blackout cover is pretty much proof that he's not being forced to fix himself. He wouldn't need that unless he was sleeping all day like he always does.

To be fair, I had that when I worked nights

 

[mlanguishi]

Spoony is the absolute symbol of how socialized medicine can't work. I'm totally shocked that the euros on here will say 'if he has free healthcare... well' What a bunch of SHIT''

Edit: Europussies sure want their gibs.

 

[Water Resistance]

To be fair, I had that when I worked nights

Guess the difference between you and Noah

 

[Fapcop]

She looks fine. I mean she is 5/10 but still fuckable.

No. No, no, no! She MIGHT be a 4/10 if she lost some of those butter pounds, but even then her face would be fucking weird and old looking.

Fuckable? Only if you have a fetish for trying women up with their own arms, or want to have a story to tell about that one time you fucked someone who looked like a downsie.

And I’m the guy who caught shit for saying that DSPs girlfriend, pre DSP, was a 7, so it’s not exactly like I’m well known for my high standards around here.

Spoony is the absolute symbol of how socialized medicine can't work. I'm totally shocked that the euros on here will say 'if he has free healthcare... well' What a bunch of SHIT

Spoony is the kind of person who’d probably be worse off under socialized healthcare. For the same reason the best rehabs are in the US, and in most European countries addicts are just give the good ol’ benzo/methadone/free heroin heave-ho.

Fuck, there’s no healthcare system who can help someone like him. At least not until they develop a pill for being a narcissist asshole.