LORD
this fucking article is about a woman who 41%'d was some sort of sick total inversion of jazz yet is still so spot-on predictive of what his life will be by his forties.
imagining him at his end like... going through shit like "Verhelst had hormone therapy in 2009, followed by a mastectomy and unsuccessful surgery to construct a penis in 2012. “I was ready to celebrate my new birth, but when I looked in the mirror, I was disgusted with myself,” he said hours before he died. “I do not want to be a monster.” "
i... never really truly understood the depths of how nightmarish this all is. to look into the mirror as your ruined body falls apart and realize you were frankenstein's monster, and all because society was willing to allow this to happen to you.
i'm legitimately, deeply sorry this happened to you, jazz. i'm sorry your mother didn't let you just be the femme gay boy you are. hell, i'm even sorry to
sander. even as a true believer, he hears of janine threatening to dilate jazz's surgical wound. his hyperfixation on jazz's support and wellbeing may well be the primal part of his mind processing how fucked up this all is. magical thinking can't go on forever. maybe that manic look in his eyes is latent desperation.
edit to add: just. a whole life ruined for the rest of it. for this. shit, dude.
triple edit to add: it's still mad fucking funny it's happening to yaniv, though.
can't stop me now edit: i looked up the details of
nancy's life and holy shit, this reads like a fictional narrative i would dismiss out of hand as too much if i read it. this is the saddest shit i've ever heard and a GREAT fucking example of her mother being pure evil. like move over, daddy issues, we found the big one. i really want to read that interview.