thats a good question, i actually spoke on it a lil in the discord a minute ago. dont have any probs with stating it publicly either. my feelings changed about mauer when i heard that people we were mutual friends with were getting dmca'd. i didnt want to believe it at first honestly, i wanted to believe alex had been hacked or something. i feel like i left hope on the table that if it wasnt the case, that i'd give alex a window of time to maybe approach me about it and say something like 'i dont have any other recourse', or some sort of justification after the fact of what she said to me, trying to get me to help her, or dino, or whoever she was talking to about her cause. because i knew alex longer than anyone else and saw alex grow up (?) quite literally, i felt i needed to say something to at least provide a little context, not caring about how it was a detriment to me, but moreso to protect alex from herself. i felt a lot of these details were crucial to state. another friend who writes music told me there was a thread on the internet about her i guess maybe around page 10 or 12 or so right when everything was beginning, i kinda saw the writing on the wall that i couldnt stop any wrath that was gonna come down on alex, but at the least i could explain that alex's story and what alex was known for was certainly atypical of most other people who would be in this position. will i ever trust alex mauer again? certainly not. i dont think alex will either unless she does a lotta soul searching and realize exactly what she lost, it'll be hard for her to figure it out too.
to a degree, i could have given alex a little bit of clemency on that due to transition. ive known alex has had issues with her own psychology and had felt 'trapped' for a while, but like i said, i tried to be supportive in getting alex to understand that theres a lotta different ways for one to fly a freak flag that isnt full on detrimental to one's being, social standing, career standing, even that same psyche. ive got other friends who are in transition, almost all of, if not all of em are musicians. as alex became more irrational, or unpredictable, it kinda felt like she was slipping away. so this has been in the making for a while and it was a conscious decision on alex's part to push further into an ethos that looked nothing more like a selfmade villain or cast out. when i started to see this and the antagonizing she was doing on facebook, and maybe that was feb-april of last year, by that point it had already made me throw my hands up because it was consciously looking for conflict out of thin air. out of a lack of attention. look at me, im flailing around for no reason. maybe it was around that point that our communication had slowed down a little bit, but i more or less chose to ignore that kind of uglyness outta alex but stay supportive, and maybe all the ignoring all around is what made alex go this route. its all a cry for attention, but its a cry for attention based on being bored and needing to rake the muck with no substance behind it, much less logic.
as it stands, i havent talked to alex since about 5 or 6 weeks ago before the trial moved forward, and at that point i said 'you need to take a settlement now before this case begins', this was before the deposition. in response i didnt get anything that looked like a sincere response, it was just a bunch of mad libs type crap similar to what she was posting on twitter. at that point i made it known to alex that it would be the last time i'd be reaching out to her, and if she ever managed to somehow share meatspace with me, to turn around and go the other direction. id think the same could be said for anyone else alex has known unless they've been under a rock these last 6 months. this situation has served as a reminder to me and everyone else to cut toxic, shitty, worthless people out of your lives before it becomes too late.
ps- i reached out to sid and asked him if there's any way he'd consider blocking alex on twitter. he said it'd validate her bs in her mind. i dont agree because i feel the cycle has run its course, if anything it invites alex to engage sid. you take away alex's means and shes got nothing to complain to. what alex deserves is complete radio silence.