bev
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- Feb 21, 2019
I will never fucking understand this. Never.
> Purposefully and willingly doing something to yourself/your own body that causes THAT MUCH PAIN. It's self harm. It is literal, blatant, outright self harm. That's what it fucking is. I cannot even imagine.
> Why the piles and piles and buckets and troughs of just plain ass bland as fuck white rice? Like...if you're gonna bust yourself into painful agony why use something so utterly banal and tasteless and boring and shitty? (This kinda goes beyond Hamburp as well, because plain boring white rice never struck me as an exciting food for ANYONE...same as white bread or plain white pasta/noodles and just shit with no fucking flavour) Like if you're killing yourself at least fucking enjoy it.
> B-BUT THOSE HUGE HONKIN' CUCUMBER BOATS THO!
You've got to keep in mind, though, she has been overeating for most of her life. Her stomach capacity is enormous from constant stretching. I don't think that it causes her much discomfort to eat as she does anymore. But to actually feel full, she'll need to eat slightly more and more each time. Furthermore, she's not really in it for taste. Like she said before, she's a texture person. She wants to eat something with a pleasant texture until she feels full. Rice is one of those things. Chocolate, chips, etc, can get expensive and it's hard to get bags of it for one sitting. Rice is cheap and does the trick. At least that's my assumption.
I do agree with you though, it is self harm. Not the eating, but the debilitating consequences of the eating (joint pain, back pain, HBP, social isolation, etc). To cope with that, and to get rid of the boredom from her increasingly shrinking world, she eats more.
sometimes i wonder if amber's mom looks the way she does because of a combination of drugs, one night stands, and amber sucking her dry of breast m.ilk bc of her insatiable appetite