Amber's life is dire. She's so fat she can't stand for long and can barely walk. Taking care of personal hygiene, like showering and putting lotion on her legs or feet must feel to her like a morning at the gym in a HIIT class feels like for a fit person, so having a normal job that requires basic cleanliness and demands she be on time in the morning is out of the question because it has to take her a very long time just to brush her hair, as fat as she is. Her friends list changes every two months minus Krystal, who really is too nice for her own good. She can't drive, she can't get groceries on her own, she's bringing in little income and may be living on credit and her student loan situation shows her credit score is shot so getting more credit lines is probably off the table. She is so physically debilitated by her weight and socially limited by her inability to drive that she can't even offer much help to her girlfriend when she got injured, let alone play a part in daily life, like working, running errands, walking the dog, cleaning the house.
I state all the obvious above because we can see it, but I don't know if Amber knows it. Is she so delusional or out of touch that she doesn't understand how much she has eaten herself into a corner, so to speak? Does she know how useless she is? Does she feel panic during times like this when it's clear to others how useless she is at best, and how much of a burden she is at worst? Does anyone really think on some level she gets it and hides the panic, or is she really so ensconced in Amber-world that as long as she doesn't weigh 500 pounds everything will be okay? Genuinely interested in other opinions because I can't tell if she understands reality and doesn't show it or if she really is unable to see what looms for her - being alone, completely broke, homeless and without friends to support her - if she doesn't begin to take control of the most basic elements of her life.
