I’m trying really hard to imagine how Amberlynn feels right now and I can’t what kind of feelings she should even have the right to feel.
On the one hand I believe since Amber really is being somewhat charitable (I mean, purely for selfish reasons but charitable nonetheless), Becky and her family should hold out their hands with a smile and a thank you because that’s what you’re supposed to do when someone gives you free money when you don’t deserve it, (is the governments money not enough for you trash hicks?) and it’s honestly kind of messed up to see that Becky’s family feels nothing is wrong with blatantly reaching out and talking to people that Amber probably seriously doesn’t feel comfortable with and making Amber look like a total idiot. It’s rude and seriously some pretty disgusting behavior on their part.
And yet the other hand is saying to me that a narcissistic, jaded, arrogant woman like Amberlynn should just shut her mouth and allow Becky’s family time to figure out this whole cancer thing, give them time to panic and time to calm down and gather themselves... after all a potentially life threatening illness in a family member can be extremely stressful and depressing and it’s a trying time in some families lives; (especially with an intellectually incompetent family like Becky’s, they are going to FREAK. OUT. and scream from the top of their lungs at anyone who will listen that their warrior mommy has an illness that she will most likely live from,) and regardless of whether or not Becky’s family is an actual heap of trash consistent of TV dinner and candy boxes set alight with Kentucky Deluxe and moonshine as an accelerant, Becky is just one of those people who will stand by her family. She just will. She’s fucked up and disappointed them too many times and I don’t think she can allow herself to lose them anymore; she’s a family man through and through... and Amberlynn can never understand this because she has no family. No one loves her undeniably, irrevocably, and completely complete with her bundle of absolutely disgusting traits besides herself. She can never understand the almost... idk primal? urge to stay with the clan (lol) that raised you, and if Amberlynn hasn’t been honest with herself about this before, she should now: AMBERLYNN IS NOT FAMILY. She can shower them with money, cheap and stupid Christmas gifts, staycations, graphic t shirts and gas they want, but she is NOT part of the family. They’re dumb as fuck but they see through that bullshit, I think they see how absolutely everything, even their mother’s illness, has to be about HER. “This is hard on US. This is hard on MY mental health. WE are going through something. WE need your support.” Amber, I’m sorry but your girlfriend’s mom who doesn’t even like you having breast cancer will never make you more likable, more relatable, or make us sympathize with you, because you are not a part of it for many reasons. Amber thinks she plays a facade well enough for people to like her but every family she’s tried to squeeze herself into ends up HATING her no matter what she buys them.
I honestly think her weight is a huge factor in this and has a huge impact because she can’t do shit with people and she’s so insecure that she can’t connect with others. She’s constantly wearing a mask that isn’t even pretty and nobody can relate to her anymore.
I almost feel bad thinking this but I truly believe it is just easy, refreshing and relieving to roll Amberlynn through the door and out of your life. If Becky and Al break up, Becky will feel SO much better. Amber will lose weight too, maybe enough to squeeze into a decent selfie that will help her find her way to a new feeder’s car and a new apartment to start this whole story all over again.
Her life really is a cyclical fever dream isn’t it? Sad :/
