Connor, I've waffled from being downright A-loggy at you, to trying to sincerely be helpful to your rather pathetic personal situation in life. It varied by day. You'd say something inane, I'd get pissed, yell at you, but my deep-down feeling that everyone is capable of personal improvement would win out in the end, and I'd honestly do my best to give you relevant advice. To try to reach out to a fellow human being to improve their situation.
With the above comment, you have both proven me wrong, and quite frankly- earned my deepest contempt. As an adopted person, I take deep personal offence at you comparing both me, and my adoptive parents loving relationship to a fucking goodwill jacket or Tupperware of leftover noodles. Your comment proves you emotional shallowness, intellectual buffoonery, and an almost titanium carbide resistance to accepting anything remotely approaching what constitutes a healthy emotional relationship in our society.
And not to put too fine a point on it, If I had you in arm's reach right now, I'd disjoint you like a fucking chicken. I'm that goddamn angry with your bullshit.
But simply put, you're not worth being made a personal project. All told, you're simply a pathetic know-nothing tryhard bag of bullshit and misogyny, leeching off the sweat of others for you living, impotently posturing as an "oppressed misunderstood intellectual" while you masturbate and dream of sadistic acts you would never have the balls or backbone to actually preform in the real world.
With the intell both you and this site have provided into your situation, I can think of no more appropriate fate to a total waste of biomass like yourself.
Enjoy your own personal hell. It's been forged by your own willful ignorance and apathy. You made your bed, now lie in it. It's no one's fault but your own.