It doesn't help shes VERY lightly built. Like if you are a huge dykish woman already pooning probably isn't AS bad, but you are trying to APPEAR big and strong when you really aren't. She was small, very feminine, and actually fairly cute as a woman, but transitioning into a man is just....sad. At BEST she looks like an ABSOLUTE runt, a tiny thing which is man in biology only, but has not hit strides in masculine development, and even then its a trick of the eye
Its the other side of the coin to brick shithouse men who have square jaws which could tank a baseball bat and bodies built for heavy construction work trooning out and trying to appear "cute" and feminine. But its just not possible, sure surgery and makeup and ect can maybe trick people to a degree, but one does not simply jump to the other side when you are so DEEPLY on one side of the masculine feminine spectrum.
I think this is a big part of it, shes in denial how laughable that attempt is, and has never admitted she has other issues where she hates the idea of being a woman.
Also this is probably already been said but it makes sense her being a pooner considering how many of her performances were women suffering.