Cultcow EvaXephon / Yanderedev / Alex Mahan / Alexander Stuart Mahan / cannotgoogleme - Edgy weeaboo coomer with pedo tendencies and 15+ years internet history as a lolcow, now known as a disaster developer behind eternal debug build called "Yandere Simulator", confirmed groomer and dollfucker

The end of EvaXephon?


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I wanted to post this hypocrisy from them. When it comes to Alex it's okay but when someone dox Apeis then they're losing their shit. It's amazing.
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Assuming they're probably reading this, hey there. It's cool if you wanna lurk or something, but if you end up making an account for some reason, please have some decency and maturity. Expect to be mocked and possibly booted out if you come in with all Reddit karma and "le cum chalice xDD" blazing. God knows VW's gotta deal with enough twats shitting up the place as it is.
 
Assuming they're probably reading this, hey there. It's cool if you wanna lurk or something, but if you end up making an account for some reason, please have some decency and maturity. Expect to be mocked and possibly booted out if you come in with all Reddit karma and "le cum chalice xDD" blazing. God knows VW's gotta deal with enough twats shitting up the place as it is.

Vertexwindi's no longer a moderator, sadly.
 
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Do these guys still think Null is awesome and ebic haxxed the ebil Yandev or have they realised yet?

It's funny how these guys speak about us like we're some kind of meanie homogeneous group. Like sorry we're calling you faggots, maybe stop acting like faggots? Hey if you stop acting like 14yo retards maybe you can come over to the big kids table and laugh at Yandev with us? Crazy I know! But that's impossible so let's keep laughing at them.
This person doesn't even know that Null is the owner and operator of Kiwi Farms and that directly fucking with a cow is looked down upon here. Wow.
 
The most recent posts in this thread have been pretty eye-opening for me and I think I put a few pieces together in my own head. It's pretty clear to me now why Alex is so invested in sexual assault. It fills a gap for him that couldn't be crossed otherwise. Let me try to parse it out:

-Alex wants sex. Alternatively, Alex thinks men want sex. (I can't tell if Alex is self centered enough to only be thinking about himself or if he thinks its okay for men to have sex)
-When Alex (or men) want sex, it's good.
-When a woman wants sex, she's a slut.
-It's bad to have sex with a slut.

What to do, then? If we take this at face value, it means that Alex could never have sex. For Alex, it's only good to have sex with a woman if that woman doesn't want it. Therefore: sexual assault is necessary for him to get what he wants. Alex mostly seems to think that sex with a woman is good if and only if that woman doesn't want it. Fucking dark, man. (I don't even want to call it "dark" to be honest. Alex romanticizes the "damaged little boy" archetype and I don't want to give fodder.) Alex is the type of person who would cop a feel and then be disgusted if the woman actually liked it. What a psycho.

Now, here's where things get a little muddy. To be frank, I think Alex directly fantasizes about violence. However, I think he has a concomitant belief that "sluts" deserve violence. This is easily reflected in the fact that Kokona was the victim in all of his early vids. Kokona has big breasts (and is therefore a "slut". Iirc the other students bully her for this as well) and so therefore she must die. Again, I think there are two things going on at once here: Alex gets his rocks off to violence, but he also thinks that Kokona deserves it for being a "slut."

It's well-known that senpai is a self-insert, but I think there is at least one and possible two more self-inserts as well. The user on the in-game discord chat talks about how the world needs to pay for its sins, which is almost the exact same language Alex uses in the forum posts linked above. I don't know if Alex is hoping the people who play the game will end up agreeing with him, or if this is just another platform for himself to scream into the void with. The boy sure does chase after soap boxes.

I'm not sure if the Saikou CEO is supposed to be a self-insert, but there is one thing I'm quite certain of. The secretary figure is clearly the game's emblem of what Alex thinks a good woman is. Remember when Alex refused to hire a secretary in real life because he was afraid they would fuck everything up? Well, now take a look at the Saikou secretary. She has two PhDs (fucking lmao. Let's say 5 years for a double major in undergraduate which launches into two different fields for a PhD. Average PhD = ~6 years, so 12 total. 17 years of higher education for a secretary job?), has enormous breasts, is super sophisticated, and wears a comically small cocktail dress.

The thing that has still stumped me is why this woman is sexy + cool for Alex despite seeming to fulfill all his criteria for what makes someone a "slut". I saw someone in the thread say that it's probably because for a weeb like Alex that 2d>3d so they play by different rules than what makes a real woman a "slut". Admittedly I know literally nothing about anime, but I would think that would mean that Alex doesn't find other 2d girls to be "sluts", but clearly in his own game he does think that's the case. I wonder if it's the fact that she's smart enough for her to use her looks seductively, but that secretly she doesn't actually desire sex? That seems like a workaround and might explain why Ayano herself is so cold all the time (i.e. so Alex can still find her sexy too). Ultimately I dunno and I don't want to ramble more, but it would probably be illustrative to crack why the secretary isn't a "slut" even though she seems to fit Alex's criteria for one.
 
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What?! Discord teens here?? You don't want to mess with me.
 
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...He says that as if becoming a deranged serial killer just happens to a person one day, like it isn't a conscious choice to be evil.

I'm getting some @FuckYou vibes from this post. Sheltered, incel, mad at women, thinks killing could be a possibility. I say update the poll in the thread to include the option of "becoming a mass shooter."
As fun as it is to imagine Alex being a complete failure at shooting up a place like everything else in his life, I seriously doubt he’ll ever muster the courage to do something like that. Like most incels, he doesn’t even have the balls to leave his house or online echo chambers more than he has to.
 
Hello children, I hope you all had your mid day bottles and a good nap! This isnt the hill I'd wanna die on, so, be careful who you follow!
 
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The most recent posts in this thread have been pretty eye-opening for me and I think I put a few pieces together in my own head. It's pretty clear to me now why Alex is so invested in sexual assault. It fills a gap for him that couldn't be crossed otherwise. Let me try to parse it out:

-Alex wants sex. Alternatively, Alex thinks men want sex. (I can't tell if Alex is self centered enough to only be thinking about himself or if he thinks its okay for men to have sex)
-When Alex (or men) want sex, it's good.
-When a woman wants sex, she's a slut.
-It's bad to have sex with a slut.

What to do, then? If we take this at face value, it means that Alex could never have sex. For Alex, it's only good to have sex with a woman if that woman doesn't want it. Therefore: sexual assault is necessary for him to get what he wants. Alex mostly seems to think that sex with a woman is good if and only if that woman doesn't want it. Fucking dark, man. (I don't even want to call it "dark" to be honest. Alex romanticizes the "damaged little boy" archetype and I don't want to give fodder.) Alex is the type of person who would cop a feel and then be disgusted if the woman actually liked it. What a psycho.

Now, here's where things get a little muddy. To be frank, I think Alex directly fantasizes about violence. However, I think he has a concomitant belief that "sluts" deserve violence. This is easily reflected in the fact that Kokona was the victim in all of his early vids. Kokona has big breasts (and is therefore a "slut". Iirc the other students bully her for this as well) and so therefore she must die. Again, I think there are two things going on at once here: Alex gets his rocks off to violence, but he also thinks that Kokona deserves it for being a "slut."

It's well-known that senpai is a self-insert, but I think there is at least one and possible two more self-inserts as well. The user on the in-game discord chat talks about how the world needs to pay for its sins, which is almost the exact same language Alex uses in the forum posts linked above. I don't know if Alex is hoping the people who play the game will end up agreeing with him, or if this is just another platform for himself to scream into the void with. The boy sure does chase after soap boxes.

I'm not sure if the Saikou CEO is supposed to be a self-insert, but there is one thing I'm quite certain of. The secretary figure is clearly the game's emblem of what Alex thinks a good woman is. Remember when Alex refused to hire a secretary in real life because he was afraid they would fuck everything up? Well, now take a look at the Saikou secretary. She has two PhDs (fucking lmao. Let's say 5 years for a double major in undergraduate which launches into two different fields for a PhD. Average PhD = ~6 years, so 12 total. 17 years of higher education for a secretary job?), has enormous breasts, is super sophisticated, and wears a comically small cocktail dress.

The thing that has still stumped me is why this woman is sexy + cool for Alex despite seeming to fulfill all his criteria for what makes someone a "slut". I saw someone in the thread say that it's probably because for a weeb like Alex that 2d>3d so they play by different rules than what makes a real woman a "slut". Admittedly I know literally nothing about anime, but I would think that would mean that Alex doesn't find other 2d girls to be "sluts", but clearly in his own game he does think that's the case. I wonder if it's the fact that she's smart enough for her to use her looks seductively, but that secretly she doesn't actually desire sex? That seems like a workaround and might explain why Ayano herself is so cold all the time (i.e. so Alex can still find her sexy too). Ultimately I dunno and I don't want to ramble more, but it would probably be illustrative to crack why the secretary isn't a "slut" even though she seems to fit Alex's criteria for one.
This guy is so slimy. It actually sounds like a Madonna-Whore complex. He cannot form a true relationship with a woman because he cannot comprehend that women have their own sexual desires, or their own feelings. To him, women are not people, they're objects. More precisely, symbols of purity (Madonna) thus perfect saints void of human desire, or they are Whores, who deserve to be punished because sex is bad for some reason. As you say, he seems to want a woman who he can rape and would be more disgusted by a woman who actually enjoys him sexually. Appalling, right? Seems paradoxical right?

It's actually a legitimate psychological condition that was identified decades ago. (Which is a real marriage ruiner, also a significant amount of divorces happen because the woman is not sexually satisfied due to men pulling shit like this.) Men think they are marrying a perfect virginal girl. When they have sex on their wedding night, the man realizes the woman likes sex and enjoys cumming too! Man freaks out. In his mind, the woman is expected to maintain an IMPOSSIBLE ideal of being a sex object, used for sex by the man, while not actually enjoying the sex. And if she enjoys the sex she's a whore. But the man is fine, because sex is somehow only for men, not women. Because reasons. (Blowjobs, that's for men, men have needs. Want cunnilingus? wow you whore.)

Sounds crazy but it still happens today, and largely from people who were raised in some religious nut setting. Since Alex had a hardcore Catholic family, it was probably beat into his head as a child that sex is wrong and touching his peepee makes him a bad evil little child who is going to hell. (This is of course wrong and anyone who actually was raised normally knows sex is one of the things that makes us human.) Alex was scared to think that maybe, his parent's religion is wrong, after 2 decades at home. In order to reconcile mentally, he must protect his virginity and project his sexual insecurity on to women. Remember again: Alex's definition of a slut is any woman who had sex with at least two people.

This goes hand in hand with clinical Narcissism AKA "everyone but me is bad-ism." Now let's go back to reality here: Alex whined a lot about not getting laid. Hm. Guys who get laid easily, actually, they know women want to have a good damn time, and feel good. They sure aren't shaming them, they're making them happy and enjoying life with them. Not even talking about sluts, just NORMAL people with healthy lives. It's quite clear now that Alex could never show a woman a good time. He doesn't (or at least didn't?) believe in female orgasm, he doesn't realize women think about getting off. Wait. Sorry, I meant ONLY SLUTS think about getting off.

Now think of all the times he's tried to blame his lack of having a girlfriend on his face and "being ugly" when in reality he's disgusted by women who actually like men. That "I'm so ugly" bullshit is a fucking cope for the fact he's disgusted at the thought of actually having to make a woman cum. His main goal in talking to a girl is, most likely, in how he can get himself off, but he has no care to the woman wanting a good fuck. I would imagine even basic things like finding out a woman's favorite food, or favorite movie, or favorite color, are too much for him.

Madonna-whore complex narc.
///this has been another episode of Kiwi armchair psychology

He kind of has a point though. Imagine if people used their stiff, bony hands to grip and shake a very sensitive blood balloon with a lot of nerves. That sounds really disgusting.
You can tell the hamster wheel was turning hard when he tried to come up with this laughably naive idea about how female masturbation works (Wonder if he knows about vibrators yet?) He acts like wiiiiimen stab their own genitals with those long fingernails that all feeeeeemales have.

His mind is traumatized at the mere suggestion of female orgasm. And he thinks women could orgasm from some random guy sticking it in without even spitting on it first. A complete stranger. In an alley. With no foreplay...I wonder if he's realized after all these years why women want sensitive lovers with big wallets and large peens. 🤔
 
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Now, here's where things get a little muddy. To be frank, I think Alex directly fantasizes about violence. However, I think he has a concomitant belief that "sluts" deserve violence. This is easily reflected in the fact that Kokona was the victim in all of his early vids. Kokona has big breasts (and is therefore a "slut". Iirc the other students bully her for this as well) and so therefore she must die. Again, I think there are two things going on at once here: Alex gets his rocks off to violence, but he also thinks that Kokona deserves it for being a "slut."
IIRC the first nonviolent elimination method for Kokona was blackmailing her with the knowledge she's having sex with older men for money, so I think you're on to something.

It's well-known that senpai is a self-insert, but I think there is at least one and possible two more self-inserts as well. The user on the in-game discord chat talks about how the world needs to pay for its sins, which is almost the exact same language Alex uses in the forum posts linked above. I don't know if Alex is hoping the people who play the game will end up agreeing with him, or if this is just another platform for himself to scream into the void with. The boy sure does chase after soap boxes.
The user on the in-game discord chat is Luna from Lunar Scythe, the game Alex still wants to make.

On that subject, I googled Lunar Scythe and I found this: https://gaia.fandom.com/wiki/Item:Lunar_Scythe

Lunar Scythe is an item from Gaia Online made by Death for the Moon God[dess]. The moon goddess is called Luna in Roman mythology. Alex really is incapable of independent and creative thought isn't he?
 
The entire game idea was taken off a /v/ thread.
Pretty much all assets are stolen
Much of the game popularity can be attributed to the presence of easter eggs of more fampus works aka the only real stuff so do in the game yet.

Even his artist Mulberry shamelessly traces or recolors existing art.
 
Lunar Scythe is an item from Gaia Online made by Death for the Moon God[dess]. The moon goddess is called Luna in Roman mythology. Alex really is incapable of independent and creative thought isn't he?
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mfw the actual goddess Luna is a symbol of women's sexuality, womanhood, motherhood, etc. and is a symbol of sensuality that is freed from the constructs of men

mfw Luna's mythology represents the dangers men's lust can pose to female freedom, and Luna actively is the purser and dominant one in her relationships

mfw witch/pagan cults exists today to worship the moon as a symbol of female feelings/pleasure which only women know, as the "divine feminine"

mfw Alex shits on this because he doesn't believe in female orgasm

what a tool 🛠
 
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This guy is so slimy. It actually sounds like a Madonna-Whore complex. He cannot form a true relationship with a woman because he cannot comprehend that women have their own sexual desires, or their own feelings. To him, women are not people, they're objects. More precisely, symbols of purity (Madonna) thus perfect saints void of human desire, or or Whores, who deserve to be punished because sex is bad for some reason. As you say, he seems to want a woman who he can rape and would be more disgusted by a woman who actually enjoys him sexually. Appalling, right? Seems paradoxical right?

It's actually a legitimate psychological condition that was identified decades ago. (Which is a real marriage ruiner, also a not significant amount of divorces happen because the woman is not sexually satisfied due to men pulling shit like this.) Men think they are marrying a perfect virginal girl. When they have sex on their wedding night, the man realizes the woman likes sex and enjoys cumming too! Man freaks out. In his mind, the woman is expected to maintain an IMPOSSIBLE ideal of being a sex object, used for sex by the man, while not actually enjoying the sex. And if she enjoys the sex she's a whore. But the man is fine, because sex is somehow only for men, not women. Because reasons. (Blowjobs, that's for men, men have needs. Want cunnilingus? wow you whore.)

Sounds crazy but it still happens today, and largely from people who were raised in some religious nut setting. Since Alex had a hardcore Catholic family, it was probably beat into his head as a child that sex is wrong and touching his peepee makes him a bad evil little child who is going to hell. (This is of course wrong and anyone who actually was raised normally knows sex is one of the things that makes us human.) Alex was scared to think that maybe religion is wrong after 2 decades at home. In order to reconcile mentally, he must project his sexual insecurity on to women. Remember again: Alex's definition of a slut is any woman who had sex with at least two people.

This goes hand in hand with clinical Narcissism AKA "everyone but me is bad-ism." Now let's go back to reality here: Alex whined a lot about not getting laid. Hm. Guys who get laid easily know women want to have a good damn time, and feel good. They sure aren't shaming them, they're making them happy and enjoying life with them. Not even talking about sluts, just NORMAL people with healthy lives. It's quite clear now that Alex could never show a woman a good time. He doesn't (or at least didn't?) believe in female orgasm, he doesn't realize women think about getting off. Sorry, I meant ONLY SLUTS think about getting off.

Now think of all the times he's tried to blame his lack of having a girlfriend on his face and "being ugly" when in reality he's disgusted by women who actually like men. That "I'm so ugly" bullshit is a fucking cope for the fact he's disgusted at the thought of actually having to make a woman cum. His main goal in talking to a girl is most likely in how he can get himself off, but he has no care to women wanting a good fuck. I would imagine even basic things like finding out a woman's favorite food or favorite movie or color, are too much for him.

Madonna-whore complex narc.
///this has been another episode of Kiwi armchair psychology


You can tell the hamster wheel was turning hard when he tried to come up with this laughably naive idea about how female masturbation works (Wonder if he knows about vibrators yet?) He acts like wiiiiimen stab their own genitals with those long fingernails that all feeeeeemales have.

His mind is traumatized at the mere suggestion of female orgasm. And he thinks women could orgasm from some random guy sticking it without spitting on it. A complete stranger. In an alley. With no foreplay...I wonder if he's realized after all these years why women want sensitive lovers with big wallets and large peens. 🤔

Very well-said, hope you don't mind me bookmarking this post for future discussions regarding perceptions of female sexuality!

Yes, Alex, females often don't even derive pleasure from masturbation, which is why so many of us grow our fingernails so long. (And as for the women you sometimes see with at least the middle fingernail of one hand cut shorter? Completely unrelated, of course.) Don't listen to the people saying we use vibrators, that is such a degrading thought-- even moreso than the thought of you thinking you (or any other delusional incel) deserve to be the one to provide the sexual pleasure to us.

...jeez. Anyway, I'm still reeling from the fact that he thought women had penises til he was 10. That boy still ain't right.
 
Very well-said, hope you don't mind me bookmarking this post for future discussions regarding perceptions of female sexuality!

Yes, Alex, females often don't even derive pleasure from masturbation, which is why so many of us grow our fingernails so long. (And as for the women you sometimes see with at least the middle fingernail of one hand cut shorter? Completely unrelated, of course.) Don't listen to the people saying we use vibrators, that is such a degrading thought-- even moreso than the thought of you thinking you (or any other delusional incel) deserve to be the one to provide the sexual pleasure to us.

...jeez. Anyway, I'm still reeling from the fact that he thought women had penises til he was 10. That boy still ain't right.
Yes, more people should be aware of that one. Once you realize the Madonna/Whore paradox exists, it explains a lot, especially incels and people who have an unhealthy obsession with women's virginity. Making fun of lolcow thots is one thing, but that is NOT the level he is on. Being personally offended at the idea that women like men's bodies, and even that women masturbate is fucking nuts.

I do blame his parents for him not understanding how sex works, that wasn't his fault. I knew it was gonna be bad if we found more about his past, but holy shit this is wild. Sad truth is a lot of kids who grow up in very religious homes are never taught about sex because the parents/community is scared to death of discussing people's privates, and they bash into kids heads that they are "evil sinners" if their touch their "pee pees." It does result in crazy shit like not knowing was a vagina is, and it's meant to keep the cycle of "fear of sex" going.

What's even worse is that in some hyper conservative or hyper religious communities, they still teach boys that women do not enjoy sex and sex is only for men's pleasure. At the same time, they don't teach women's anatomy, don't explain female orgasms, how menstrual cycles work, etc. because of outdated ideas about morality, because in their minds, even knowing about sex instantly leads to becoming a crackwhore. (Not how it fucking works) They literally think it is immoral to know what a pussy is and how to get one wet. It's disgusting but still happens even today, and it's just like how some schools still get to teach "creationism" and other non-scientific bullshit. Also, the way he writes on the forums, saying "I'm limited in my computer time... I grew up extremely sheltered... I'm being forced off of the computer" etc. makes me suspect his family was extremely controlling. That said, Alex choosing to keep retarded views about women into adulthood is totally on him.

Thinking girls have penises is the kind of mistake a toddler could make IMO. When I was a kid, my parents taught me where babies come from about as soon as I was old enough to ask why boys and girls are different. Nothing weird, it was just a scientific fact of life. Many kids learned from their parents just explaining the ol' "birds and the bees" when they got curious and asked. Most kids are also taught this stuff scientifically in school. It's absolutely fucking wild that a little bit of education when young, can make all the difference between an enjoyable, well-adjusted adult life, vs thinking that having sex is some kind of insane moral failure.

I think this also explains Alex's seeming inability to grow up. The fact is, that learning about sex and becoming comfortable with sex is just part of growing into a mature, well-adjusted, secure adult. But, because Alex couldn't get past the fear of sex and "women's cooties sluttiness," he never made friends (probably rightfully shunned for being a moralizing asshole), never partied, never experimented a little, never got a girlfriend, and thus put all his social and sexual energy into god damn hentai.
 
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