FierceBG · @FierceGa1889
3rd Jul 2021 from TwitLonger
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Letting It All Out.
Hello everyone!,
If you're reading this, you most likely know that by the title, that this is going to be a vent post. Just know that when you read ahead. There is some positive acknowledgements inside of this twitlonger though, so know that as well.
First and foremost, we have the positive.
Let's cut to the chase. I wanna say thank you. I've been watching the support that @TheReplySeeker has been getting recently and honestly, I couldn't be happier. This community has a goal of getting everyone closer together, helping them find similar traits to one another and most importantly, making strong friendships together. I couldn't do that without you guys and very soon, it appears we will hit 1k. Thank you so so so much. I love you guys to the moon and back and I'm so grateful for what we have accomplished together. Here's to many more replies together, forever.
Now, we have the negative.
Recently, despite the happiness that the reply seeker account has given me, it's not the only thing I have going for me. I've mentioned it a time or two in a few deleted twitlongers, because it was too personal, but now things have hit me on a personal level and I officially don't care anymore.
This has to deal with my girlfriend, Shelbi.
Usually, I'd talk nicely about Shelbi, because she's my girlfriend (obviously), but as of recently, there's not really much I can say that's nice about her. It's been what you could call a "toxic relationship." Quite a few people know about what's been going on and have come to my aid multiple times (you know who you are, thank you), but not everyone knows the whole story. I'm sick of holding back my feelings, so since Shelbi won't listen to me, I'm gonna type it out for the people that will.
When I'm not on Twitter, most of the time you can see me trying to get Shelbi's attention to the best I can. My Discord status gets based on her and it depicts my mood and I've all in all been a very supportive and protective boyfriend. However, Shelbi apparently hasn't seen that at all. In fact, this entire summer (late may, to now) I have only gotten one day out of her, where she actually gave me 100% of the time. She usually goes by the defense of "I'm here sometimes!," but this defense is utter bullshit and completely incorrect. The only time she's here, is when she hasn't got anything planned (which is literally never). When she is here, it's either screenshare on discord or do nothing at all. No communication, no nothing. It doesn't help that a lot of people have told me that she spends a lot of time in call with them and tells them not to let me know. That's not the worst part by a mile. The worst part is when we get into things like what happened yesterday and today.
Yesterday, Shelbi got a "haircut". I put that in quotations, because I don't even know if I can believe that anymore after what happened. She gets home afterwards and starts talking about how her father was being a terrible father, because her hair was too short and he didn't like it. For the past few weeks, I had been trying to get her to stay home at magnificent rates, and not go anywhere, because I've been tired of her going on trips. Usually when she goes on trips, she's gone the entire week and sometimes even more. It's very demoralizing, considering that I have never dunked her like she does me. Anyway, keeping in mind, she was set to go on a two week vacation to Tennessee and I couldn't go. This absolutely terrified me, because one, I have terrible separation anxiety and two, I wanted to spend time with her since she's never here (literally). I begged and begged and begged her, even shedded some tears while doing so, because I was so desperate to get her to stay. It wasn't until a few days ago that I convinced her to "cancel the trip." Anyway, this story is relevant, because I would bring this up, knowing that she would get mad at me instead of being upset at her dad and I'd rather take the assault and make her feel better more than anything, so I brought it up. She responded with "This isn't about the trip! I don't wanna go anywhere anymore, I thought you'd know that! This is about my hair, not a stupid trip. I'm crying and you don't care!" Naturally, this shut me up and I took care of her for the rest of the night, assured she wasn't going anywhere. I wake up this morning, she texts me and says "I'm at my sister's house, I didn't have a choice, and I don't know when I'll be back." This pissed me off on a whole different level. I spent so long trying to get her not to go to one trip, but she goes on an entirely different trip and lies twice. For the record, she did have a choice. No one made her go, I know this, because I know her parents and they aren't like that. She made herself go and completely lied to me. Not only that, but she also knew how long she'd be staying. We won't talk about too much of that, because I honestly can't take it, but enough is seriously enough. I've given this girl everything she could've wanted. She gets treated like a queen, gets expensive gifts, gets my attention 24/7 and even has me loyal, despite the fact that she has cheated on me. But apparently, I'm not enough. She has to go on all of these vacations, regardless of how it affects me mentally. The worst part about it is that she knows it hurts me, but she doesn't care. At this point, it's starting to appear as if she just does it to piss me off, shut me up, and get away. But this is by far the craziest shit she can ever do. I've given you the breakdown of what's going on right now, so there you go. Shelbi is being a careless asshole lately, so don't be surprised if I end up walking away from her, because my heart can't take this shit. I'm too nice to be put through hell like she does, so if it keeps me from doing something very stupid, then it might be what I eventually have to do. I hope it doesn't come to this, but it's obvious that Shelbi is treading on thin ice.
Anyway, I'm done venting. I want to end this off on a good note, by saying thanks again for the support on the reply seeker account. It means a lot to me that everyone has stepped up and played their part for the gimmick and I can't wait to see it grow further. Thanks everyone and I love you all. Here's to many more moments together, forever.
Sincerely,
Brett.
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