If you actually demoted Glaive for lying about being a Wizard I can't blame him for being mad at you. Unless I missed something (I haven't been here for a while), Marvin and Alec haven't been punished for having decieved Chris for years. And they didn't just lie about being virgins, the entire personas through which they interacted with Chris were fake. If they get a pass why not Glaive?
Glaive was demodded because I can't trust him. Wizardchan is a good example of
why I can't trust him.
Do you know why Glaive was modded to begin with? He came over to the forum to defend his community and talk to us about how Wizardchan was a fun place filled with friends that was distinct from lust. He pitched it as a sexless community for both men and women who are virgins and more concerned with hobbies, work, and money. The defining feature of Wizardchan, he said, wasn't that you had to be a male virgin who hated women, you just had to be a virgin who knew feels and liked work. When he came to the then-CWCki Forums to pitch this idea to take heat off his friends,
it worked. He naturally gained off-topic access and became the first Wizard allowed into the club, and his sheepish and lurking presence crept into something louder and more friendly. It eventually ended up in him shocking people with his photos. Everyone expected him to be gross, but he was cute.
This made it all the more gutwrenching when Anachronos de-admined him in 2014 for being a part of his community. Glaive was distraught at being "exiled" by his former friends on Wizardchan just for coming over here and making the case that they weren't gross basement dwelling losers like we thought they were. To us, he had been suddenly and inexorably cast out of a warm circle of friends for little reason
and so I made him mod to cheer him up. He had community experience, he was amazingly easy to love, and he was technically competent. He understood the concept of lolcows and was a long-time Chris fan so there was no reason not to.
And then I get shit like this.
I feel very fortunate to be so readily included in the inner-inner-skype circlejerk as well as the CWCki as a whole. And CWCki is all thanks to you. The circlejerk and the amount of preference that staff and the favorites get is rather slanted, and really the only reason me as a new user got into said circlejerk was because you were so were welcoming and in part because you made me staff so quickly. Because otherwise new users (especially males) get ignored or even shamed here. Sometimes I think it's only because I'm staff, but at the end of the day I still get along with you and the rest of the crew and I feel thankful for that alone. Having that kind of a constant community to feel a part of is worth more to me than any GF or feels. So I've gotten quite a lot back after I decided to start posting here despite still being at WC back in December I think it was.
I DO think about tfwnogf, I would be lying if I said I didn't. And it does bug me. But we are all going to make it somehow, my time is just going to be a lot later than most. And I don't want any impulses getting in the way of the success I've been able to find in the other aspects of online and offline life. Sorry for splurging feels.
I don't
like knowing people. Do you think I like knowing you fucking assholes? No, I don't. I do it because it's a necessity. I have servers I play with and line graphs to fill up with new members and the means and modes of this equation are fucking nothing to me. I told you in 2013 this is a game to me, I want to see how far I can push this shit over the line. Part of the operation in doing so is having staff that can make decisions without me being there, so fuck me when someone comes along that I actually like and fucks up this system. You know all these people with colored names aren't
sycophants, they're people I:
1. Like as a person.
2. Trust to make good calls.
3. Mutually respect, and who respects the community.
That's the reason that since I took over there have been
exactly two demotions and one retiree in three years, and of which only Glaive has followed up with a ban. Everybody I promote brings something new to the table that ends up furthering my beautiful line graphs a little more and filling up the servers that now pay for themselves so I have some cool shit to play with. When I get bored of a toy, I build a new toy, and soon all my toys will sync up together and everyone will think they're really fucking cool because I know they are because I built them and fuck you. This how I occupy my thankless fucking days in between birth and death and the only time I catch feelings is when you motherfuckers get in my way.
When Glaive tells me that he didn't care about Wizardchan and only did it to harass "lifeless losers", he's either telling me that he lied about the grief he felt when I initially modded him, or he's lying to me then to seem cooler. Either way
he is fucking with me and I don't
trust him. Keep in mind he was an
administrator, meaning he had access to everything this server contained. All your email addresses, your encrypted passwords, usernames, username history, private messages, all that shit was on the server and he had direct access to it. It would be
incredibly naive of me to let someone bragging about
deliberately manipulating an entire community for fun to have that kind of system control. All that trust and respect I had for him over two fucking years immediately evaporated because he went out of his way to be as much of a nuisance and threat to me as possible.
Now I know Dynastia supported my decision to de-admin him, which is fair, but you criticize me for banning him. Immediately after he wad de-admined he began bragging about a competitor site and was talking about what domain names to buy in chat to fuck over the forum, and (by extension) my beautiful line graphs. I told Glaive the week before that I felt he was about to break off and that it worried me, and that if he did so he would probably be the only person capable of operating a successful splinter site. If a significant portion of the community did leave to go with him, I probably wouldn't even bother to compete and would just shut it down and send all traffic his way to get rid of my responsibilities on an unsuccessful site. Glaive has the money and free time to do whatever he wants. His new job provides him with unlimited access to hardware and a lot of desk time with nothing to do. He could easily,
easily take the community away and host it himself. I don't pretend to think I have more friends here than Glaive. I've been told for three years my presence is an unwelcomed burden, and that if you swapped me out with any other working part the community would be better off because of it. So if you were waiting for that, here comes Herr Glaive to sweep you off your feet.
That's why I banned him. I had to get rid of him because I know he'd sit in chat every day for his entire work week doing his best to piss me off as revenge for his drama thread, passively advertising his competitor site in private and over Skype. If I didn't get rid of him then, it would continue to blow up. This was his modus operandi, a slow death of atrophy. So before you fucking wag your finger at me and criticize it as a rash, emotional decision, know that we had fully discussed the ramifications of a Glaive de-admin situation together weeks before it happened.
Now you can backtrack and say, "but Null, if only you hadn't of bloodlet!" -- Yea no shit, and if only Glaive hadn't attacked other users at the request of Snakes. Dynastia criticizes me for spinning some web of lies about her, but the proof is in the original fucking thread. A 20 reply conversation chain with some innocent sweet as fuck girl who didn't do shit, all because this woman asked Glaive to.
Glaive goes out of his way to document everything he does, but for some reason this particular encounter with the other girl went unmentioned. Not a fucking peep from either of them until months after the fact when I'm trying to unravel what happened to Deagle Nation. Then I find out, "oh by the way Snakes had this kid by the balls so tight he was fucking with other people by request". How do you think I feel knowing that one of the people I trust the most fucked with someone else I like like that? She was so fucking battered by this encounter she didn't even tell anyone else.
And then you can say, "de-admin him on the spot and work it out from there". I
believed in Glaive. I had absolute fucking confidence in him being able to hurdle over the obstacle of a little embarrassment. Fucking hell, I do it on a routine basis. I thought for sure that Glaive would take his scolding like a man, recognize that he is not allowed to berate other users like that, and learn from it. I had been told by multiple people that "Glaive is mad at you", but I thought that was a misinterpretation. We still talked every month about shit going on on the forum and in our lives, he'd show me pictures of his trips and beer and all sorts of shit. I assumed he had done exactly that, let it fucking go. Exactly what I wanted. I thought I had gotten away with bloodletting and accomplished everything I set out to do while retaining the only person I cared to keep. Then this happens. The dude gets his dick wet with some dangerhair cunt and the very same week starts acting like king of the fucking world, insulting me every day after months of being chill as shit.
When I say I accomplished exactly what I set out to do with that thread, I mean it. This isn't my "cool sociopath facade", this is reality. I wanted to expose the drama and amputate it. The fact that Glaive is now a part of the culling is not unanticipated, rather disappointing. By this point I expected him to be over it or gone.
There's my horrible evil angry tween retelling of history,
@Dynastia. Make of it what you will.
