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PetiteFeet said:
I was tested for and diagnosed with ADD back when I was 17, and while adderall never did a thing for me except give me brain zaps and make me sluggish, it's a diagnosis I've had in the back of my head, nagging me for years. I'll try bringing it up during my next appointment at the ward.
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You should cause when I read that it sounded a lot like ADHD (Uh they call "ADD" ADHD now right?), ime you don't necessarily need adderall. I mean if you want it you can, but there's other meds and even medless coping mechanisms.
 
Halo Cipher said:
His cat also looks like mashed potatoes.
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Please expand on this statement. My curiosity is piqued..

I feel… I dunno. It’s been a very hard few years for me. I’ve wanted to kind of step out of my world for a bit and got a chance to, I spent a weekend in good company away from all the sources of stress and unhappiness in my life, and I think it’s done me a lot of good.
It’s also made me realise I may not actually be terminally and permanently depressed, but rather in a place I don’t want to be. And the sun is out, which always helps. So now I’m faced with choices I haven’t really wanted to think about. But this weekend, I’m busy, and I’ll just get through best I can. Maybe life will throw me a bone, maybe it won’t.
 
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I'm feeling pretty upbeat and optimistic, and I'm shocked because most of this week I was spiralling really hard. I have misophonia (among other things lmao) and it's been fucking me up badly recently.
I absolutely hate it, it's the most retarded, absurd mental illness ever, so embarrassing and stupid but also so incredibly debilitating. Last year I hit a bit of a crisis point and decided that I had to do something about it, at least try, so I read tons of articles and went down loads of rabbit holes. There are therapy options and I need to bite the bullet and email some practitioners to get the ball rolling, but in the meantime I'm also trying the anti-inflammation route (probably a load of woo, but nothing ventured nothing gained) and I've spent some loyalty points on supplements which arrived yesterday. I'm bad at sticking to things, but I'm going to take them religiously for 6 weeks and see how it goes. I've certainly got nothing to lose at this point.
In every other way my life is fucking amazing and I'm so grateful for so many things, which only makes it more frustrating to be blighted with this clown-world condition.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!
 
so i did some research...i didnt pay enough in last year. i love it. are you kidding me?
they just decided to give money to these illegal faggots in this state for housing/other expenses?, and that is totally cool...but now i have to come up with this shitload of money (to me, maybe its just me idk) or whatever. because i make barely over the average amount. on paper it looks awesome, until its eaten away by every entity known to man.

im not even sure what would happen if i dont pay. im considering just ignoring this for now until i can figure it out. *sigh*
when it rains...it pours. its like when one thing goes wrong, everything goes wrong.
:'(
 
I fucking despise the public school system and the incompetent niggers who run it. Big month for standardized testing, im in charge of technology, and the teachers want to act like they have 0 idea of what they need to do technology wise for this entire period so its phone call after phone call. They had hands on training, and packets, for this. Why do I need to manually come down to a classroom and press 2 buttons for your braindead retarded students?

Not to mention, I cna't do my job if no one communicates. And I asked if anyone needed anything before spring break LAST WEEK and it was a resounding "no." from everyone. Find out this week they want me to order chargers from my own pocket to cover for those who dont have chargers for testing. No. Absolutely not. I sent a form out, I asked in person, I came door to door to ask. And if you told me no. Fuck you. Deal with it.
 
PetiteFeet said:
A bit peeved might be putting it mildly. Good luck!
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She shockingly was not a bit peeved, she seemed to understand when I explained the whole "I'm scared I look like a wuss taking meds" thing. She assured me I'm not even on anything that crazy or that high of a dose, and if my symptoms worsened, she'd only higher it the tiniest bit. She even sent me some jobs nearby when I said I'm struggling with employment, all in all a good 20 minutes!
 
Did lectures today. Teachers aren't making it easier on us telling that the upcoming test is going to nail us, specially with the heavy dope we have to study. At least handicap law is tolerable and easy to deal with.

I don't want to even think about the test or i'll get paranoid over not studying enough
 
You ever think it can’t get any worse and the world continues to defy expectations in terms of evil, corrupt shit?

Like the type of casually awful, bureaucratic systemic devil-worshipping bullshit that should be common knowledge but isn’t? Cause nobody cares?

That’s got me simmering. You learn one secret and more than ever, the world continues to prove its unfixable.
 
AnOminous said:
You think the world got as bad as it could possibly get. Then it got WORSE.
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Then it only gets WORSE. It's a vicious fucking cycle with the only hope to break it is to overpower, those currently in power, and as soon as anyone starts getting on that path they realize that too many fuckers are ungrateful sloths, and/or wouldn't jeopardize themselves by fighting the real power.

Small guy status quo and ignore the rest of the burning pile of the world, cuz you're sure as shit not effecting it in any meaningful way besides close and personal.
 
Unnecessary Surgery Land said:
got the fancy honey mustard
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Try making your own sometime. Maybe just me but it makes me happy to mix honey and spicy brown mustard up to my own personal taste (adding whatever fun little spice like paprika on a whim). See also: Making your own caramel sauce on the stove (sugar, heavy cream, water, butter). Simple little things with a little spark of happy.
 
obsdj said:
Try making your own sometime. Maybe just me but it makes me happy to mix honey and spicy brown mustard up to my own personal taste (adding whatever fun little spice like paprika on a whim). See also: Making your own caramel sauce on the stove (sugar, heavy cream, water, butter). Simple little things with a little spark of happy.
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Excellent suggestion! I also had bought a honey that I love so now I feel like I’m missing out…. this mesquite honey mixed with spicy brown mustard sounds insane.

The next time I go to the store I’m getting fancy brown spicy mustard! Oh! I’ll get the Trader Joe’s smoked paprika that will go great.

I’m legitimately way too excited to try this, thank you!
 
Family member came home with someone's wallet, it was left in a parking lot. Told the dumb prick he needed to return it to its owner or hand it in to the store. I told him broke as hell we don't take other people's money. (He's...a bit simple.)

He was tired from a week of ass-scratching so I went to the store, nobody had asked about a missing wallet. I don't trust those pricks with their sticky fingers so I just drove out to hand it to the person (their DL was in the wallet). I was bored and I know what it's like to lose your stuff and panic.

Was a retirement community, the gate dude gave me ten tons of hell before letting me in. I went to the house, knocked on the door before hearing GO THE FUCK AWAY. It was then I noticed they had a sign taped over the doorbell saying "day sleeper."

So I put the wallet in their mailbox, left a note, and left. The gatekeeper was still on his bullshit. I gotta stretch what little money I have until the 1st so that little fetch (or return) quest fucked my gas. There goes some small plans I had later this month.

A good deed is its own reward, I suppose.

edit: i did not want any material reward
 
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the khat quaffer said:
Family member came home with someone's wallet, it was left in a parking lot. Told the dumb prick he needed to return it to its owner or hand it in to the store. I told him broke as hell we don't take other people's money. (He's...a bit simple.)

He was tired from a week of ass-scratching so I went to the store, nobody had asked about a missing wallet. I don't trust those pricks with their sticky fingers so I just drove out to hand it to the person (their DL was in the wallet). I was bored and I know what it's like to lose your stuff and panic.

Was a retirement community, the gate dude gave me ten tons of hell before letting me in. I went to the house, knocked on the door before hearing GO THE FUCK AWAY. It was then I noticed they had a sign taped over the doorbell saying "day sleeper."

So I put the wallet in their mailbox, left a note, and left. The gatekeeper was still on his bullshit. I gotta stretch what little money I have until the 1st so that little fetch (or return) quest fucked my gas. There goes some small plans I had later this month.

A good deed is its own reward, I suppose.
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Good for you for doing the right thing, even if every other godforsaken person in your story made it such a miserable journey to do so.
 
legitimately getting filtered by an entry level cloud certification. sitting here at midnight getting 60% first tries.

Technically thats a passable score since these practice tests are supposed to be harder but I'm getting high level cortisol spikes at every question I miss.
 
Step 1: Told my dad he is my #1 Emergency contact. Should be obvious, he is my dad.
Step 2: Told my uncle he is #2, not as obvious but I trust him to make calls and decisions as needed.
Step 3: Gave my cousin my final word in a notarized letter. Should the worst happen she will know when to open the letter and tell everyone what my final wishes are. She wasn't happy, but she agreed.

I know that I am not long for this life, and I know that I need to ensure my wishes are followed. Wish I didnt have to do this, but I know when the timer starts.
 
Norms Abused Liver said:
Step 1: Told my dad he is my #1 Emergency contact. Should be obvious, he is my dad.
Step 2: Told my uncle he is #2, not as obvious but I trust him to make calls and decisions as needed.
Step 3: Gave my cousin my final word in a notarized letter. Should the worst happen she will know when to open the letter and tell everyone what my final wishes are. She wasn't happy, but she agreed.

I know that I am not long for this life, and I know that I need to ensure my wishes are followed. Wish I didnt have to do this, but I know when the timer starts.
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This is heavy; I'm sorry. But you just got a new job this week and closed on a condo last month. So is there a reason (other than general good planning) for these moves?
 
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