thats been my logic. My goals are long term anyways, so i am only minding that i keep my regimen, and only keeping track of what i do, calories i intake, etc
I fast 16-18 hours a day with no issues and I recently had to get on a scale post-lunch for an apnea test. I plateaued at 85kg after an intense diet years ago but now I'm down to 79. Makes me wonder if I can like.. fast myself even further. Anyway: Fasting rules. No breakfast and an early dinner means you got a lot of hours in the day to do shit other than eating. You stop thinking about what you eat and only focus on when you eat.
Idk I love being an adult and having my own apartment in my name, a dignified job that can pay food and bills, the feeling of stability in life.
On the rare positive day, I agree with this. Car, apartment, cat, money, no debt. Then I look at myself in the mirror and feel terrible about my employment even though I enjoy it. I have a job, that's more than can be said about a lot of people right now. Shit, it's a great job that many people would kill for, but I have this nagging voice in my head that goes "if these poor americans were given your lot in life, they'd study economics and become millionaires". We get a free choice of education and I chose to be broke.
I think the most important thing would be a feeling of progression. Normies are very judgemental about anything really, be it jobs, fashion sense etc.
First day back at my old job today and all my coworkers were happy to see me. Then I went to this introductory meeting for new employees, meaning primarily graduate doctors, nurses, all kinds of health folk, and I just sat there at the literal bottom of the food chain. I don't feel shame about my job but I have a hard time being okay with it. I get these small glimpses of intense despair. Like, the longer I'm not trying to get a better job the worse it'll get, but I had my hands burned in "a better job" and now I just wanna do grunt work without too much thinking.
A friend of mine drove trains for like 9 years then went into debt to study lite IT shit for 8 months and landed a government gig. It makes sense you'd need recent education to renew your appeal on the job market. All my coworkers are like "you'll make it, just keep trying", but they're boomers who were handed the world, or people who had long careers and actively chose to work this simpler job.
I just need to learn to be happy with what I've got. I don't even want to be rich and successful. I'm turned off immediately by f*males on dating apps with fancy titles compared to "Stacy, 31, baker". I don't want soft competences, meetings, and dinner dates after work to network. I want a book, a cat and maybe a friend or two, and all of that I can work towards without even thinking of my career.
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