How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

I've been pretty much catatonic for the last couple days. Brain feels like it's turning to mush. At this point I'm almost guaranteed to fail my senior year. I just sit in front of my computer doing literally nothing most of the time. I feel so tired even though I get plenty of sleep. I guess I should start researching jobs that don't require a high school diploma.
Lack of exercise can cause fatigue, surprisingly. You should look into software solutions so you can block the timesink websites from your router for certain "focus periods". You'd be amazed how productive you actually become when you're so bored from a lack of stimulation. Reading books becomes fun!
 
I've been pretty much catatonic for the last couple days. Brain feels like it's turning to mush. At this point I'm almost guaranteed to fail my senior year. I just sit in front of my computer doing literally nothing most of the time. I feel so tired even though I get plenty of sleep. I guess I should start researching jobs that don't require a high school diploma.
update: I'm now talking to a cute boy on discord, so I'm feeling a bit better now. lets hope things work out.
 
Just got back from the dentist - after further examination he decided not to drill my root canals and just fixed the filling, so next to no pain had to be endured. But it was funny when I tried whistling with a half of my face paralyzed.

Take care, people.
 
Despite my rage I'm still a rat in a cage. Meme quote from a meme song, but it fits my life pretty well.

I'm grateful and happy to have a faithful love partner in my life, but it won't replace or fix the fact that I am consistently alone. I wish making friends was easier.
 
I dont like the direction the world is heading.
I m not prepared for Mosh pit world tour.
I want to survive whatever the world going throw at us but I want and need major changes in my life to make that happen.
 
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Decided to do a wellness check on myself. Went to a store 10-15 minutes away to see how I could handle it. I needed a portable inhaler 5 times before I could make it back. Not good. If you have asthma (I don't, it's something terrifyingly worse to me,) you have my utmost sympathies on levels you can't understand. My heart is that big; my experience is now that big.
So I come back to the lair (sic) and get a great idea. To fix lungs, bring out the old humidifier. I never said I was smart 100% of the time. The respiratory attack lasted an hour. I checked my weight. Because of this very long term thing I have been going through for at least a year an a half, it's been rough. In the last three weeks I've lost 11 pounds. The good part is I get to eat a lot to replenish the lost luxury of what's left of me.
Again, if you have asthma, I don't, I sympathize with you. Whatever was done to me was vicious (not woo flu) and I hate those that did it with a passion I don't even have a name for what it is.
 
Today, I’m noticing that during my Internet posting, I (almost) had a tendency to over share information to the point where it started to sound like I was rambling on too much.

I‘m learning a lot more to keep things in a concise matter, but I don’t want to make my posts/writings too short and vague.
 
In the last few days my boyfriend lost his mother, another good friend lost his father, a third friend is sitting vigil while his father dies, and another lost her husband. I’m Gen X. I guess this is how things are going to be now.

edit to avoid double posting: if you’ve been following my adventures in midlife autistic dating in this thread, yes the guy I suspected my friend was setting me up with a few months ago and I are together now. He is amazing, everything I’ve dreamed of, and he loves me despite (or possibly even in part because of) my spergery. His loss of his mother breaks my heart.
 
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