How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

Me and my bf live with a relative of his. Said relative is either incredibly stupid, apathetic, or senile. They’ve done a number of things that make me irritated or completely baffled. Tonight is one of them.

A bit of background, there is a jacuzzi room on one side of the house. This evening sometime she must have been filling it up and it overflowed. She shut the water off when she noticed. All well and good right? Well, did she then alert us to what happened so we could help dry stuff off? No. Did she even try to herself? Nope. She stayed in her room watching tv. We would never have even known if I hadn’t been going to the garage to give my chicks dinner and felt the carpet squish beneath my feet.

The water was left to practically flood that side of the house for hours. Like, what the fuck. It could have been all night. I just finished spending an hour or more with a shop vac trying to suction as much water as I could from the garage. There’s so much junk in there though that I couldn’t get all of it.

Are there silver linings? At least the flooding was on the complete opposite side of the house than where me and my bf live. But I shudder to think how much water is still under the carpet in and around relative’s room (next door to jacuzzi room). And thank god the water didn’t get to the part of the garage where my chicks’ brooding cages are. I don’t want molding bedding or them touching any possible chemicals from the pool water. Plus their food is in a plastic bin so it should be safe.

You may ask, why not move out? I’d love to. But right now we don’t have to pay rent (just help with food, utlilities, etc.) and even though I graduate this month I still need to find an actually decent paying job so we can both afford to move out together with our incomes. There’s a chance bf could get the house in his name if said relative moves (or passes away...) and I considered trying to help clean it up and everything. But at this point there’s so many little things wrong with it it’s pointless imo.

I’ve grown up with hoarders and packrats my whole life and this is more of the same. Is it too much to ask one day that I have a nice, clean, organized house of my own? It feels impossible.
 
  • Horrifying
  • Thunk-Provoking
Reactions: Blop and Sped Xing
I worked out a lot more this week, ate less, i did so much static bicicle yesterday my legs were numb. Today i found out i actually gained an extra kg from last time i checked. Fucking kill me now

loosing weight at my age is becoming impossible. It was so easy when i was younger, i could go berserker for a few weeks and be back in shape like magic. Now it takes me months with uninterrupted routine to loose a couple kgs and be on the same fucking clothing size.
 
I am about to have my all three (God, please, not four) root canals drilled. I've never done this before. I know, I am way too old to be afraid of dentists and they use painkillers nowadays, but still I can't help myself to stop being a little nervous.

Take care, people.
 
It's been a really tiring couple of weeks, life seems to have gone from a pretty good high to a really sad low. All of my social circle is growing deader and deader, the hobbies that kept us going seems to have ran its course. So now I'm faced with needing to try to find more groups to do so while also dealing with a lot of incredibly depression personal crap.

Found myself going to nap more and more because I just don't feel up to doing anything, I know it's a bad idea and I'm trying to fight it. Strongly considering trying to pull out of this the hard way but that'll be its own thing. Though in this case I'd rather put the effort in than just give up.
 
Miserable and kind of good actually.
Health wise it's been terrible. Had another visit to that doctor. ... When I saw his last name was potentially (((of a certain people))) I knew I was into for trouble, and I got every bit of it. Can't sleep from pain half the time, and then during the middle of the day when I should be doing stuff I get to pass out. Yay, tech wizard me.
On the other side I'm oddly optimistic on a level I have never been before in my life. Ever see yourself surrounded by every enemy you know and are glad because you know if you took a shot you just can't miss? God is great. Don't know why I have to go through the health crap, but I have a feeling that... here:
 
Got accepted to grad school (again). Looking forward to finishing my degree in < 3 years! Sadly, the university is in California (going to the fucking lion’s den). I know us kiwis want Cali to vanish after the big one, but can we wait 3 years beforehand? K Thanks. 😊
 
Very true. It is not so much the salt that worries me, as much as it is the fact that it is potato chips. There are healthier ways of getting a salt fix than that.
Roast some chickpeas in the oven! Drain and dry a can of chickpeas, coat them with salt and pepper and vinegar, then roast them at like 400 for 15 minutes or so, stirring them around occasionally! Great healthy protein treat.

to avoid double-posting... a while back I posted that I was suspicious I was getting set up but couldn’t tell due to autism. Then I posted that yes I was getting set up and dude is awesome. Now, dude just keeps getting more and more awesome and he is into me too, quirks and all, and expresses it (helpful, see autism). It’s really great.

(edit for typos)
 
Last edited:
  • Feels
Reactions: naaaaiiiiillllll!!!
Wound up staying overnight at the hospital recently, due to kidney stones. Not the first time it's happened, but is the first time since the Apocalypse started. All the covid patients are apparently quarantined in what used to be the psych ward, but according to staff, there aren't that many of them. My side still hurts, and my chest feels it's been punched repeatedly, although I'm thinking a lot of that could just be stress (a friend from college died a few weeks ago, and like everyone else these days, I'm going more than a little stircrazy)

But I saw a cute dog avatar just now, so life's pretty good!
 
high and vaguely sad. starting to fall in love with a friend and its tearing me apart i dont want to fuck up our friendship but all i can think about is holding them in my arms and running my fingers through their long hair. really sucks especially since im socially a retard and hardly ever feel anything about people. convinced i was never supposed to be human. its two in the morning and i really should be getting to bed but i think im just gonna re read some threads until i pass out.
 
Last edited:
I am about to have my all three (God, please, not four) root canals drilled. I've never done this before. I know, I am way too old to be afraid of dentists and they use painkillers nowadays, but still I can't help myself to stop being a little nervous.
Sending virtual hugs - I hope your procedure went fine if you already had it, man. Root canal treatment is ugly and painkillers only do so much - it's totally okay to feel scared/nervous beforehand, no matter how old you are.
 
Woke up to massive gains from shorting dogecoin on retards, walked my cat in nature barefoot to ground the earth energy, read the bible while sunbathing because its sunday, actually managed to outrun the cops tryna fine me for not wearing a mask on my way back from tha liquor store (lol git gud scrubs, cant beat da crackhead cardio), ordered veal busiate, fresh oysters & calabrian ravioli, lookng forward to my weekly organic nicaraguan cigar (just a lil treat)
 
Lazy Sunday. Finished a cup of coffee, lazing around in bed but need to start some laundry and get some cleaning done. Sunny day, will probably do a hike after lunch.

Life is good, I feel like a beer later. Might go find a new brewery to try.
 
Uncomfortable since grandma frog was being incredibly racist about a doctor from Nigeria, calling him a gorilla and stuff. The dude is trying to idk keep you alive? At least when shit like that is spewn here it’s on people who are actually degenerate. In front of me and my mixed race family member
 
A bit hangover, was obviously a lot worse when I woke up. I was at a birthday party to a friend yesterday, ate dinner, cake and a lot of alcohol. It was fun and since my food budget is a bit tight after I spent nearly all of my moneh on this (payday in next week)

806319.jpeg

So felt I had to really stuff all the food I could get in me. Probably the only one in the party who actually exercise regularly anyway, so it's just bulking for me. Probably ate more than the fat blob :)

One of the guests were a stereotypical gay BDSM "bear", fat blob and leather trousers, he didn't drink alcohol either. The host were all like "So stunning and brave". Bitch, it looked like shit and why the fuck go out of your way to be seen as a stereotype?
I'm a twink and well, I felt uncomfortable around him. As the predator he is, glancing down his prey. Didn't talk to him, but sometimes you can just feel it. Anyway, since I'm a mean cunt when drunk. Obviously, I talked shit about him when he was gone.

Think I did mention KF to the host, don't really remember. It was at the point where I was the drunkest :story:

Only thing I regret, was not taking a shower and cleansing my face before falling asleep*sigh*
 
Back