Porker LeVance
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I watch a lot of suicide videos and my Google search results are really worried about me
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PaleTay
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- Aug 25, 2020
I hate my job, I hate my commute, and I hate my gym and there's nothing I can do to fix any of it and technically I've already "improved" each as much as possible. Every day I think about how much I could have loved each, but my grandfather refused to co-sign for the house I wanted and instead pressured me to buy one he wanted because it was slightly "cheaper". My mortgage is $150 more because of HOA differences but the other house has already doubled this one in value already because of location. I wonder if I'll ever stop missing the life I could have had.
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- Dec 28, 2014
It irritates the shit out of me when I search to watch some retard blowing his brains out and it directs me to some suicide hotline or some shit. Bitch, I just want to watch some spaz offing himself, so I can laugh at it, I got no personal problem, just fucking show it to me.
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Not doing well these days. My mom has been very sick and going downhill for a while. She fell and broke 2 ribs and may have some bleeding in her brain. Thing is, I've been told numerous times to prepare myself, but she always manages to pull through. 15 years ago they told me she wouldn't survive surgery. 5 years ago they almost put her on a vent and told me she probably wouldn't come off it, but she miraculously got better. A few months ago, they told me she might not survive a procedure to clear some blood clots, but she did.
So, I don't know if this is really the thing that will be the end or not. And I'm afraid that if it is, I'm not going to be able to handle it because I've gotten so used to her beating the odds. But, she's pretty sick and miserable and I think I'm being selfish in hoping that she makes it. But then I feel guilty for thinking it might be better if she didn't make it.
Getting older sucks ass. And if you smoke, you might want to cut that out. It's brutal at the end.
So, I don't know if this is really the thing that will be the end or not. And I'm afraid that if it is, I'm not going to be able to handle it because I've gotten so used to her beating the odds. But, she's pretty sick and miserable and I think I'm being selfish in hoping that she makes it. But then I feel guilty for thinking it might be better if she didn't make it.
Getting older sucks ass. And if you smoke, you might want to cut that out. It's brutal at the end.
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It's gay too, you're basically sucking semen out of a fag.
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Flying out cross-country tomorrow to spend my dad's last days with him. I'm fucking destroyed guys. He knew he was terminal months ago but lied to protect me and my little sister from that agonizing reality until he couldn't anymore. I respect why he did it even if I desperately wish he had let us know sooner so we had more time together. Seeing him so frail on video call, looking like an 80 year old when he's not even 55 is killing me. My little sister already lost her grandfather last year, also to cancer. Fuck cancer. Fuck everything. I'm not leaving his side until he takes his final breath. God damn it. Even if I'm angry at a God that I don't believe exists anymore, I do appreciate thoughts and prayers.
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Last night I took my dog with me on a pub crawl.
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Gettin them bitches! Seriously, last time I did this I basically had to shoo women away. And now I have a sad cause the only bar I ever really liked is closed now and that dog died 6 years ago...
I should find a new dog-friendly bar... My mastiff is too high strung and basically insane, but my husky? Oh, lord! He draws the bitches in, the handsome little devil.
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He certainly does attract the women. I'm under no illusion they are attracted to me though. Keep it polite and don't engage. I went out to have fun with the dog anyway, not talk to random women
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Pretty much, but it can be fun. It actually does get pretty annoying on walks or at the dog park. Kids, too. Especially kids. Kids go fucking crazy for a snow white husky. And I'm getting too old to pretend I have patience with the children of strangers. Or to take my dog trolling for bitches.
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- Jan 23, 2020
My sleep cycle is an epic clusterfuck but things could always be worse. today was and still is above freezing, was a nice day.
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The only time kids bug me is if they run up and start stroking the dog without asking. My dog is cool, but one day they are going to do that to a dog that isn't and get bitten. Parents never give a fuck when I chew them out.
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- Jun 15, 2021
Hard day at work, but I'm gonna eat an edible and read some more of my book when I get home later so it ain't all bad.
Damien Thorne
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I have an infected nerve on one of my molars. It hurts a lot, but at least the antibiotics are helping and I have appointments for a root canal and a crown in a short while from now. Could be worse.
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Miss my cat. He passed about three months ago and the home just feels lonely without him, especially around the holidays. Never thought I’d miss having to scold him about fucking around with the tree and presents underneath.
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I've been stressed with uni, work, health, and family lately. It's like every part of my life wants to be awkward. Anyway, today I have a whole day to myself. I can do whatever I want. I can sit around in my pajamas, eat some junk food, relax.
Well, all I had were nightmares about all of the things stressing me in life and then I woke up to a text from my boss, from my mum / sister asking for something, and one from a friend starting an argument. Gonna switch this fucking phone off I swear to god.
Well, all I had were nightmares about all of the things stressing me in life and then I woke up to a text from my boss, from my mum / sister asking for something, and one from a friend starting an argument. Gonna switch this fucking phone off I swear to god.