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Undersideofcwcspillow said:
I have no friends. I never have. I have online friends who i have met and done stuff with.

But i just want normal friends. I want to have what everyone else has. I want to go out to bars. I want to have inside jokes. I want to have someone call me in the middle of the night. I want to know one person in the world gives a flying fuck i exist.
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It's just best to accept that it's not meant to be. Yea, there's billions of people on earth now. As usual, quantity does not mean quality. As most of them should not be alive, if humanity didn't try to play god and just let nature do its thing.

It boils down to. Don't be sad, because most people nowadays are literal retards.

I'm sort of mad, at the local mail service. I had a delivery scheduled for a parcel box on Friday, nah. Too big for it, so they loaded it up for delivery right after. To deliver it to a pick-up point, which the closest to the parcel box was about 200 meters away.
Yes, they still haven't delivered it. So gotta wait until Monday, hooray!
 
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My backup hardrive for music got corrupted, which is about 3TB of music and I've been having to deal with that. But, I've been chilling with the hubs all day and I've been letting him sit with me while I'm dealing with this so, still a good day.

Edit: only like 8 songs are literally not corrupted. Including Bück Dich by Rammstein. Which makes me wonder. Why tf was that not corrupted?
 
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the runt of my foster kittens lost 2 oz and he hadn't been gaining much before then. i was wondering why he was crying so much and so loudly but now i realize it was due to hunger :( all his siblings are eating all the wet food before he can get to it and he doesn't eat the dry food.
i fed him by himself and he ate a bunch so i really just need to feed them as much as i can. i left it up to my dad to give them extra food which he hasn't been doing and paid the price :(
now that i think i know what's going on with him though things should smoothen out.
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(the scraggly baby in question)
 
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Foltest said:
Had my big 30 this week. As it happend on the weekday, I will have my party today.
Looking back, my 20s doesn’t feel wasted. Could have done more, but I don’t feel regret.
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Age is only a number, dont think of it as getting old think of it as leveleing up...plus look at it this way only 32 more years till you can get the senior's discounts.

as for myself...well....I don't know. Have you ever felt like you have everything you ever wanted but then you realize...it wasn't really worth it? Like you felt like it was just a wild goose chase that should have never ended? The journey beats the destination it's the friends we made along the way that was the real treasure and other assorted clichés?
 
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One of my friends lost her cat (her substitute baby, because she's always wanted kids and and a husband and that's never happened and I have never heard the end of it) and her father within three weeks of each other, so that was a four A.M counselling session on my part yesterday. Around lunch time, my other friend rang up and spend twenty minutes hysterically blaming the covid vaccine on how she was going to be all alone in the world with no friends or family because everyone was either dead or dying because of the vaccine, or shunning her forever for being an anti vaxxer.

I love my friends, but I'm getting too afraid to answer the phone. And I want my friends to be there at my birthday in a week too, but I just know my anti vaxxer friend will go on a rant and spectacularly clash with my father, who's a hardcore vaxxer having grown up with polio and watching people die of measles and chicken pox.

I would like to have my family and friends to have dinner and drinks together for my birthday, but something tells me that's a really bad idea.
 
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glass_houses said:
One of my friends lost her cat (her substitute baby, because she's always wanted kids and and a husband and that's never happened and I have never heard the end of it) and her father within three weeks of each other, so that was a four A.M counselling session on my part yesterday. Around lunch time, my other friend rang up and spend twenty minutes hysterically blaming the covid vaccine on how she was going to be all alone in the world with no friends or family because everyone was either dead or dying because of the vaccine, or shunning her forever for being an anti vaxxer.

I love my friends, but I'm getting too afraid to answer the phone. And I want my friends to be there at my birthday in a week too, but I just know my anti vaxxer friend will go on a rant and spectacularly clash with my father, who's a hardcore vaxxer having grown up with polio and watching people die of measles and chicken pox.

I would like to have my family and friends to have dinner and drinks together for my birthday, but something tells me that's a really bad idea.
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That's absurd.
I can't believe there are people who actually buy into this bullshit where they invest themselves in and argue about whatever the issue du jour is to the point they let it affect their life and ruin their relationships. Turn off the fucking news and think for yourself, cutting off friends and family is going to hurt you way more than any cough is going to; I couldn't imagine someone having to avoid scheduling a get together for their own birthday because the people in their life refuse to control themselves.
 
Pretty decent right now and that's good, I've had an unknown sinking feeling for a couple of weeks and that is distressing. Every bill is paid, everything is as it should be.
Turns out some bothersome people are moving away so that's a win. Then I was asked to "counsel" what reputation says is the worst and most demeaning person in the world and I said no. Regular half-specials are fine. Feeling pretty good about saying no actually.
 
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Really pissed and agitated, the last few days I have t showered or slept properly because I’m thinking about some assholes that made life unpleasant for me temporarily and i would love to find a way to bring attention to how shitty they are or go full revenge mode on them. Call me petty but that’s just how I feel, what would be the best way to go about it. I honestly feel like driving a hammer through some of their skulls it’s so frustrating for me now.
 
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I have this recurring feeling of emptiness that's come back to haunt me. I wouldn't say I'm depressed. It feels like I'm missing something in my life. I don't how to deal with it. Sometimes, I wonder if maybe it's a deep-seated longing for religion. Or maybe I really do want an SO and I'm not being honest with myself. I really don't know anymore.
 
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How odd. I'm still torn up, but I managed to make a couple of trips today. It was very taxing, but I could do it. Had a test for that woo flu and I've been negative since my illness began; never had the woo flu.
Anyhow, people I have to deal with who got the vax? They are starting to get rather sick on a regular basis. It seems pretty bad for them honestly, but IDK.

With the jew / dem pedo crap over I get to start a load of new projects and personally I'm excited by three of them- things I have wanted to do for a long time.
 
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