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Did an interview this morning and received a job offer; solid enough pay, solid hours but it's something kind of busy, demanding and stressful while being something that I'm not particularly keen on.

I've been holding out for something else which is far more oriented towards what I want (including where I'd like to be in terms of a career and location down the line) but at the same time I can't just wait around not having an income in hopes that I'll get a call. It doesn't help that I know I almost certainly won't be getting news on the latter today or over the weekend with it being Canada Day weekend.
Any port in a storm, for now. Know what it's like. And frankly, you never know, you might find the job more interesting as it goes on, could also learn a great deal. Get a job where you are busy, time goes fast. Do a demanding job well, other opportunities could arise.
 
Any port in a storm, for now. Know what it's like. And frankly, you never know, you might find the job more interesting as it goes on, could also learn a great deal. Get a job where you are busy, time goes fast. Do a demanding job well, other opportunities could arise.
Yeah I'm kind of leaning in the direction of just taking it and at least trying it out. I really don't want to be someone who quits after just a few days, but as you said it might be more interesting than I think. Although interesting isn't really the issue, it's more that it's pretty fast paced and stressful.

I do have an interview on Tuesday, however, for something else that's closer to the other job that I'm trying to get so I don't know. I'm not exactly begging for options at least, just waiting for my highly preferred one.
 
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Apparently on my workouts I'm becoming well known by some of the Mexicans of the neighborhood. I HAVE RED EYES AND AM SCARY! FEAR ME... or invite me to some barbecue or something.
 
Went to the doctor for some nerve issues and don't have lasting nerve damage, so that's cool.

I was somewhat paranoid about having some degenerative nerve disease but turns out it's something mechanical and not as dire. :dove:
Ya, from personal experience some nerve issues take longer to heal than, say, a broken bone. Nerves simply don't heal in a linear fashion.
 
It’s busy at work with people buying liquor for the holiday weekend. I’m busy dog watching and working back to back. It’s stressful.
Also I think I’m developing a tolerance to my ADHD stims which sucks but not the end of the world because I have a vacation coming up so med free time here I come!
 
My grandfather passed away on Friday morning, rest his soul. That means both of my primary parents/guardians died within two weeks of one another. I am, as Nietzsche described, now the 'ultimate man.'

It's a strange feeling. Complicated. I have denied myself nothing since news broke, under the advice of a priest friend and confidant. Things haven't quite landed to their full extent yet.

I'd appreciate if anyone could share their stories in this respect, as this is entirely new for me.
 
My grandfather passed away on Friday morning, rest his soul. That means both of my primary parents/guardians died within two weeks of one another. I am, as Nietzsche described, now the 'ultimate man.'

It's a strange feeling. Complicated. I have denied myself nothing since news broke, under the advice of a priest friend and confidant. Things haven't quite landed to their full extent yet.

I'd appreciate if anyone could share their stories in this respect, as this is entirely new for me.
My aunt died after a long battle with old age and emphysema in 2019...just less than a year later I lost an uncle... A man who was only in his early 50s, but didn't look it at all. He legit looked healthy as a horse in his prime. And less than a week after I last saw him alive he looked perfectly fine.


Yet as far as we know he was out on a walk early in the morning when he just.... Died.. They couldn't save him. He left behind a wife and three kids youngest in middle school oldest just about to start college.

My aunt at least was old, had lived a full life and was a great aunt and a grandmother. Her time came after living a full life. My uncle was cut down in his prime never seeing any grandchildren.

Ever since then I can't stop replaying their funerals in my head. My uncles in particular. I don't think I'll never forget the way my aunt was screaming his name in tears when they wheeled the coffin out the church, the very same one he was baptized, confirmed, and married in, quite literally from cradle to grave.

I used to never be afraid of death, used to see it as something only whinny angsty teenagers glamorize to cope with mommy and daddy issues. Now I realize it's an inevitably that's constantly hanging over us. Like the sword of Damocles....and I've realized that that's OK, it's been that way for so long why be afraid of it?


So aside that I feel great.... Better better than I have been in a long time.
 
Started telling some angry men in my life that they can miss me with lashing out and establishing some boundaries. I've realised that I don't need to be uncomfortable to make them comfortable, and caring about them doesn't mean tolerating antisocial behaviour. This is a novel concept for someone like me who is fairly quiet and neutral at all times.
 
Ya, from personal experience some nerve issues take longer to heal than, say, a broken bone. Nerves simply don't heal in a linear fashion.
Nerve damage is the worst, excluding the pain the mobility and dexterity is just fucked up and takes some time to getting used to while healing.

Personally I'm doing the worst because of the heat yet today is good. It's been so fucking hot and being an icepic(pronounced "ice spic") it's hard to deal with. I moved the couch and slept under the open living room window naked and for the first time in a while I woke up feeling refreshed. I had constant nightmares about having to deal with all kinds of things overheating and having to shut them down though.
 
This morning I went out to get a little last minute liquid supplies, but I had one of those gut feelings again and I ended up at an early morning 4th of July parade route. I went through the entire thing where the people were waiting, and then circled around the block to where the floats were waiting one minute before the parade started. This is what I learned:

I have seen more White people and Asians in the last 2 hours than I have seen in the last 3 1/2+ years up close.

The filthy jew media seems to be lying. I only saw what looked like 2 possible inter racial couples and one mutt kid out of a possible 3-5 thousand people.

Out of 3-5 thousand people, only two hot chicks, or close to hot chicks. One had too short of hair (not terrible though) and only decent boobs (black chick with a really cute face) and one decent bodied chick with okay boobs but a 4/10 face. She was all body; no face. As JC Denton would say, "What a shame."

I saw dozens of kids studying martial arts as they were part of a float. I also saw about 2-3 times that in running chicks. It's so odd. I think I was lied to by women. All these running girls, and martial arts boys and girls, and not one fat ass among them. It's almost like working out and self discipline... nah. Must be nerve gas.

I learned it's a dangerous thing to go past the democrat float near the front of the parade and shout, "Poverty! I love poverty!" It's something that seems to make their undies bunch up. Don't mention gas prices and home or rent prices either. Also don't mention (((jeffrey epstein))) or (((ghislaine maxwell))) and how they are democrat jews as you walk by. Makes them cranky.

The float right behind the dems was a group of sexual degeneracy supporters with their satan colored flags. It is also something you must consider before doing to shout out, "GROOMING? I LOVE GROOMING! REDDIT SAYS HELLO! HASH TAG MAP. HASH TAG LOVE IS LOVE!" They don't take a mirror very well.

The republican floats, the Christian stuff and so forth near the end had about 2-3 times as many people as the dems and pedo groomers. I wonder if that's a thing.

When parents dress up their little kids as fairy princesses for the parade and get those costume wings on them, it's kind of cute. When over weight short haired late teens; early 20s with fat ankles and tattoos wear them... it's a disappointment.

Not many car collectors in this as there was only two ancient fire engines at the beginning and seven classic Model T type vehicles up to about the 1940s near the end.

Some of the houses I had to walk past in the parade route before the parade started, a very few had pedo satan groomer flags out. Some of those people were out on their front lawn to watch the parade as well as others. These lgb-whatever supporters looked just like you'd think they would. Ick. I only hissed once past each of these homes.

The most incompetent looking pigs were put in traffic control positions where there would be the least problems. I'm really scared of 60+ year old boomer wearing traffic gear.

As much as this was a surprise for me to be led to, as much as I hated the dems and pedo groomer supporters... people were getting along. That actually felt good inside for once.
And I got my beverages too. Nyah.
 
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I literally do not understand how other people enjoy being alive. It's just time passing, clock ticking, awful groundhog day of emptiness even if you're a productive member of society. I take my fucking pills every day and it's still all gray and sad. Nothing has real meaning. Why are we even born? Nothing makes sense, nothing has purpose, and I hate it so fucking much. I want to kermit sewerslide.
 
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