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I can’t believe I’m asking here out of all places but one of my friends went missing a few months back on all social media, Snapchat, Instagram, she changed her phone number too and I haven’t been able to find her since. She wasn’t particularly important, worldly or intelligent but she was a close companion of mine and I just want to know she’s safe. It brings out into a panic wondering if I’ll never see her again and I feel I’ve reached a dead end, how can I make sure she’s safe?
 
Damn, hope you heal up soon my man. Injuries suck, especially if they occurred doing something otherwise safely and within your ability.

I actually didn't feel my injury when it occurred. After racking the bar I was stoked as hell, and went down to 2 plates for some back off sets. It was only then I realised something was up.

Here's to kicking our own asses in the gym.
Thanks I really appreciate that. Your experience sounds very similar to mine where you did not know until sometime after....

Community norms here discourage divulging too much personal information, so I will only say that as one gets older, the joints become more vulnerable. I am afraid I am starting to see that. It has not yet happened in earnest, but the day will come where the joints cannot do what muscle can, and then if I am not really strict the muscles will follow.

I will divulge that I have struggled since Covid. I had actually fallen off the wagon for several years then in 2019 I got my fat ass back in the gym (used to be pretty serious). Just when I started showing real gains and getting close to how I used to be, lockdowns happened and the gyms were closed for over a year. Since covid mortality and hosptialization is directly linked with poor phyiscal fitness, utterly assanine policy. Indeed, I think that it was I was hitting the gym hard to undo much of the damage I did to my body that I was only sick for about three days end of March 20 (when people were freaking out because no one really knew what this was and the fear porn was at its maximum)

Then when they opened, you had to wear a fucking mask. I was not doing that so I just stayed home. That went away May 21 and it was hard to get back but I did July, then fell off after New Years because of some personal issues.
A confluence of circumstances have been weighing me down, much of it fitness related but a lot of it not. Recovering from the damage during the lockdowns is part of it, seeing people wear masks at the gym and other interpersonal conflicts are part of it, then dealing with these nagging injuries that I never had is demoralizing to me. There are other things to which are just made shitty that my attempts to get to where i want to be keep suffering setbacks.


Hope I can go tomorrow but my wrist felt a little still tender. Embarassingly enough, I think the wrist was made vulnerable from excessive self phone use.
I do have some weight lifting gloves with wrist supports, I do not favor them because I want those muscles in the wrist to face resistance but I think I will use them for a while. I have a 25 lbs dumbbell at home I use to sort of gauge how that left wrist feels.
I hope my comment re an impinged shoulder was helpful. I think that is what it was just based on how I was able to get back in so soon. The one thing I do not want to happen is to have a major shoulder injury. That has ended professioanl athletes' careers, and some people are never the same even with surgery. I am pretty sure though if I grow old (really old, say60 plus, it will happen before I die).
 
I recently found a cassette tape my dad had recorded of himself talking about how he wanted to commit suicide. I feel so weird about it right now since he was my age when he recorded that. I wish I could go back in time and tell him his life is going to get a hell of a lot better to cheer him up.
 
An old Job I used to work for has taken sympathy on me and is hiring me back. After everything else I've been though it's better than nothing Still waiting on that other job though the real one i mentioned. This is just to keep the lights on and bread on the table till then. Second chances like this are hard to come by almost nobody ever gets them. Can't mess this one up and also...obligatory:
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My cat died last night.

Took him to vet because he wasn't eating or drinking and clearly had become dehydrated. Was sure it was just something basic and we'd be home in an hour or two. Vet said he had an incorrectible wound to his stomach, probably from something he ate outside. They let me hold him as he was put to sleep.

dunno why Im posting this on the forum I go to for shitposting, but I have no one else to fuckin tell. I don't even like cats but he was the best fucking dude ever. Always kept the house rat free and never once declined to let me pick him up and hug him. Didn't bitch even when we moved clear across the country. dude was a trooper. I survived both losing my business and a divorce thanks to this cat and now he is gone.
Often times we need strangers to listen to us when we have problems that are uncomfortable to share with people we know, or have no one to listen to. A pet is as much a person to us as a real person and people grieve them accordingly (though, as I know from experience - mentioning one of my dogs dying to a friend - people who don't have pets, or have a bigotry towards dogs/cats, can lack sympathy due to their lack of perspective). I hope he at least made it to a good age for a cat.

A lot of the benefit of these animals is that they give us an opportunity to give affection towards a creature that will accept and return it much more easily than a human. The cost of it is that they're only with us for a fleeting time.
 
figure it has been a while since I checked in with the general discussion area, but I am going pretty well

First time I have sparred my dad in BJJ, he was coming in and out of the place I go to but he recently came back (mainly due to work and also since he has some conditions). He was running out of breath a bit but it was fun sparring him, honestly made my week sparring against him. Was pretty nice overall, so yeah, I am going alright.
 
So follow up to previous post...I mentioned how my old job (KFC btw) Took me back and gave me a second chance? well get this. I had another interview today with a college no less and since they're looking to hire a staff asap since the fall semester is coming up and they gotta get ready., and this ain't some little community college either. I saw three frat houses (though they may be remnants of old ones) they have their own campus police separate from the local police, a post office the whole 9 yards. Where am I going with this? Well like i said they need staff asap for the new semester and since i've done pretty much every kitchen job there is save for being a pro chef. I think they hired me then and there. Just gotta wait for a follow up call to get the work schedule/ all the details.


I'm really sure I actually got this one, the interviewer practically said so before I left, mentioned the salary and benefits and even asked if i had all my shots (annoying aspect of post covid modernity but hey if its a good sign you're hired I'll take it. ) but that brings me back to the whole..kfc situation. Yeah i know it's a shit job that nobody should STAY at, but my old boss went out on a limb and pulled a lot of strings to hire me back, It just doesn't feel right to do a 180 not even a day back and say "Sorry I got something better and don't need this job." Even then I'm not a hundred percent sure on this College job just yet just got a good gut feeling about it coupled with some good signs based on how my interview went. So I guess I'll go back to kfc tomorrow and see what happens; see when the college calls back, and see where it all goes from there.
 
I can’t believe I’m asking here out of all places but one of my friends went missing a few months back on all social media, Snapchat, Instagram, she changed her phone number too and I haven’t been able to find her since. She wasn’t particularly important, worldly or intelligent but she was a close companion of mine and I just want to know she’s safe. It brings out into a panic wondering if I’ll never see her again and I feel I’ve reached a dead end, how can I make sure she’s safe?
Do a search on her with a search engine. Likely you'll find something; there are sites that gather info and will sell it to you.
 
The bumps continue on the road of life.

In mid-July went to see hematologist/oncologist. Tests show anemia. Iron level has been going down steadily over time. Getting fatigued quicker, but still getting my stuff done. Doctor concerned about internal bleeding. Not apparent in stools. For the first time ever doctor told me they were glad I hadn't lost any weight. Seeing my gastroenterologist on the 9th, expect colonoscopy and endoscopy after that. Nothing is off the table, trust whatever I have can be fixed.
 
Landlord filed for eviction yesterday because I am $45 short for June, $80 short for July and am trying to figure out how to pay my rent for August. All the resources I know of are dragging ass because I believe there is a pipeline to poverty particularly where I live because of how the social systems are structured.

Had a job interview last week with a very sketchy guy. Had another job interview on Monday where the interviewer plainly told me he doesn't care about employees schedules because he's on salary and the employees can fight it out to get the hours they need.

I'm pretty disassociated from life at this point. I do what I can, but it seems mostly out of my control. Most of my family is dead and I think thats the true missing piece for my success in life.
 
Annoyed. I received another letter in the great reset here in Eurostan. Instead of 138€ four times a year, i now pay 370€ four times a year for electricity. Almost 1500 for a small 800sqft condo. My heating, water, utility costs went up too, from 300€ a month to 450€. Now add an average of 2,20€ per Liter or $8.50 a gallon for gasoline and you can imagine how quickly im burning through my savings.
 
Annoyed. I received another letter in the great reset here in Eurostan. Instead of 138€ four times a year, i now pay 370€ four times a year for electricity. Almost 1500 for a small 800sqft condo. My heating, water, utility costs went up too, from 300€ a month to 450€. Now add an average of 2,20€ per Liter or $8.50 a gallon for gasoline and you can imagine how quickly im burning through my savings.
I'd suggest that you invest to a third world country like Dom. Rep. (Since they love Europeans and there is a thriving Jewish community up north/European businesses like a Dutch cheese company)
 but! That would be insult to injury as Dom. Rep.'s mortgages/rents are also expensive. :(

I'm sorry
 
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I'd suggest that you invest to a third world country like Dom. Rep. (Since they love Europeans and there is a thriving Jewish community up north/European businesses like a Dutch cheese company)
 but! That would be insult to injury as Dom. Rep.'s mortgages/rents are also expensive. :(

I'm sorry
Im married to a thai and we would probably just sell the condo and move to Thailand in the worst case scenario.
 
Good. My colonoscopy results were good.
I had a medical appointment and was shocked that I'm down to 162.7 lbs. I'm also happier and drawing again
I don't even bother with that bullshit because I don't care. I literally don't care if I die tomorrow. This world is crap and I don't even want to exist in it, because it is worthless.

Also I am from a race of people where every single male ancestor I have drank all day and often smoked cigarettes and somehow still lived into their eighties, so fuck you.

Also have you ever heard this song? It pretty much encapsulates my philosophy.
 
@AnOminous, what a nice philosophy to live by: I've gotten to recently forgetting negative thoughts on purpose (Why am I wasting time thinking about this? Oh, this sperg online is irrelevant to me). Works instantly

That song is lovely, btw and I'll make a playlist for it
 
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