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[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

I can muster a lot of empathy for people getting their ass kicked by depression and self doubt, but not when they demand that others feel that same way based on something as retarded as their race.

I 100% disagree (and have said so) with that perspective (self-immolation based on race). And so I have 0 interest in encouraging someone to lean into it.

 

[(((I am NOT a jew)))]

I mainly want people to talk to, at least just one person would be enough for me. I will probably do it if things will go down the hill with the person I was writing about here previously, and if we'll figure out all the problems I'll put this idea aside for a while.

Start now, mate. Don't even think about the friendship and where it's going. Do something for yourself. Easier said then done but truly I implore you to do it.
I've made a lot of mistakes, but the single biggest regret in my life was that I spent so many years (still do) trying to socialize with people and be that normal guy instead of working towards my dreams.

I promise you if you actually fully commit to one or two things that give you some artistic fulfillment, you WILL find those people. And they will usually be way better friends than just people in a fandom who like the same things as you. A lot of amazing filmmakers and writers met their wives through their fields. You'll make those connections if you just truly trust yourself and do the damn things.
I'm not saying it's easy. But some of your posts remind me a little of myself and you seem young. I really think you should go for it. Even if you don't publish that stuff anywhere, you'll just be in a zone when you're working on something you're really good at.
Please, please work towards those things my pal.

 

[Getmeout]

I've found my people in the Chud The Builder thread I knew not everyone was like this

>Grr I'm racist and I hate all niggers TND I want all niggers dead!
>Oh, I agree! I'm black and I'd happily be lynched! White people are inherently superior
>Oh That's sad, bro, no you should love yourself Have black pride, dude, we all bleed the same color

 

[(((I am NOT a jew)))]

I've found my people in the Chud The Builder thread I knew not everyone was like this

All due respect, I feel for some of the things you say and go through.
But you really are a giant fucking pick me.
Still think there might be some validity to the idea that you're a certain Lone Wanderer.

Self hate and doubt is okay, but stop shitting up the thread with
"Aw man, I'm a nigger why can't anybody see it."
"Yeah, you are lowkey acting like a nigger right now."
"You guys aren't cool for not telling me to lynch myself in the support thread!1111!! I'm going over here with the cool kids, be back in five with the same bullshit."

 

[Getmeout]

But you really are a giant fucking pick me.

There's nothing wrong with being a pick me for white people tho

"Yeah, you are lowkey acting like a nigger right now."

When have I acted like a nigger? I'm sorry. But it also lends credance to what I'm saying.