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[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

I can muster a lot of empathy for people getting their ass kicked by depression and self doubt, but not when they demand that others feel that same way based on something as retarded as their race.

I 100% disagree (and have said so) with that perspective (self-immolation based on race). And so I have 0 interest in encouraging someone to lean into it.

 

[(((I am NOT a jew)))]

I mainly want people to talk to, at least just one person would be enough for me. I will probably do it if things will go down the hill with the person I was writing about here previously, and if we'll figure out all the problems I'll put this idea aside for a while.

Start now, mate. Don't even think about the friendship and where it's going. Do something for yourself. Easier said then done but truly I implore you to do it.
I've made a lot of mistakes, but the single biggest regret in my life was that I spent so many years (still do) trying to socialize with people and be that normal guy instead of working towards my dreams.

I promise you if you actually fully commit to one or two things that give you some artistic fulfillment, you WILL find those people. And they will usually be way better friends than just people in a fandom who like the same things as you. A lot of amazing filmmakers and writers met their wives through their fields. You'll make those connections if you just truly trust yourself and do the damn things.
I'm not saying it's easy. But some of your posts remind me a little of myself and you seem young. I really think you should go for it. Even if you don't publish that stuff anywhere, you'll just be in a zone when you're working on something you're really good at.
Please, please work towards those things my pal.

 

[Getmeout]

I've found my people in the Chud The Builder thread I knew not everyone was like this

>Grr I'm racist and I hate all niggers TND I want all niggers dead!
>Oh, I agree! I'm black and I'd happily be lynched! White people are inherently superior
>Oh That's sad, bro, no you should love yourself Have black pride, dude, we all bleed the same color

 

[(((I am NOT a jew)))]

I've found my people in the Chud The Builder thread I knew not everyone was like this

All due respect, I feel for some of the things you say and go through.
But you really are a giant fucking pick me.
Still think there might be some validity to the idea that you're a certain Lone Wanderer.

Self hate and doubt is okay, but stop shitting up the thread with
"Aw man, I'm a nigger why can't anybody see it."
"Yeah, you are lowkey acting like a nigger right now."
"You guys aren't cool for not telling me to lynch myself in the support thread!1111!! I'm going over here with the cool kids, be back in five with the same bullshit."

 

[Getmeout]

But you really are a giant fucking pick me.

There's nothing wrong with being a pick me for white people tho

"Yeah, you are lowkey acting like a nigger right now."

When have I acted like a nigger? I'm sorry. But it also lends credance to what I'm saying.

 

[(((I am NOT a jew)))]

When have I acted like a nigger? I'm sorry. But it also lends credance to what I'm saying.

As a general rule, wanting people to feel bad for you for being black while also not taking help or advice on how you could become a better person and making it your defining character trait that you bring up in every conversation is pretty much the hallmark of being a nigger, no?

 

[Getmeout]

As a general rule, wanting people to feel bad for you for being black

I don't want people to feel bad for me for being black. Nothing I say should illicit sympathy.

also not taking help or advice on how you could become a better person

How does not hating myself make me a better person?

making it your defining character trait that you bring up in every conversation

This is the only accurate part, and it's good to warn people that you're not to be taken seriously.

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

How does not hating myself make me a better person?

Well, depends on your spiritual or teleological perspective, but imo, we owe it to our...for lack of a better word, essence*...to be our best selves. Which you cannot do if you hate yourself.

* some might say to God or the universe or humanity or self or whatever. It's a fundamental aspect of humanity/ being a living, sentient human.

 

[MazonLabs Recruitment Rep]

But you really are a giant fucking pick me.

That stinktrench is the biggest pick me since pick me came to Pick Me-ville.

Remind her to make sure the toaster is plugged in before she drops it in the tub with her.

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

Still think there might be some validity to the idea that you're a certain Lone Wanderer.

Nope.

There's nothing wrong with being a pick me for white people tho

This is where you pass the point of belief. Like, I cannot even process this concept in the context you're talking about.

But FYI, if for some reason you're looking to curry favor with white people, at least make it a productive effort. Self-denigration to online people is not it.

Let me ask you: would it make you feel good for people to agree with you, to tell you you're forever worthless because you're black? What benefit would that have for you?

Or, conversely, what do you get from people disagreeing with you? You think that would mean you're a lone, shining star among black people? News: oodles of black people are - like I said above - wonderful, brilliant, accomplished people.

If statistics (that vary by circumstance and a million other factors) were dispositive of individuals' fates - or worse, natures - you would NEVER see an accomplishment by anyone other than those in charge (present or past).

Go read some W.E.B. Dubois or Thomas Sowell or James Baldwin or something.

 

[Getmeout]

Let me ask you: would it make you feel good for people to agree with you, to tell you you're forever worthless because you're black? What benefit would that have for you?

Yes, it makes white people happy. It doesn't benefit me, but it doesn't have to.