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i’ve been running across the same dude i know at least three or four times in the past month i’m completely different places. like pulling up right behind them at a light/drive thru. each time it’s been unintentional but i still feel like a creep and have the worry in the back of my head it’ll happen again.

obviously i have no way of knowing it’ll happen but each time it does it’s just looks worse. we haven’t talked in a few weeks either so i can’t help but think that’s somehow related. four times is a lot to be a coincidence but it actually is just a coincidence.
Oh man, I hate it when that happens.
 
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Had my 20 week scan yesterday. After the two miscarriages, Mr Squid and I were shitting ourselves but our squidlet is absolutely perfect. Little bastard has some kick on them too for only being a 20 week old foetus. After the scan I finally feel like I can relax and enjoy being pregnant.
i was about to rate with a drink emote but then i realized i really should not do that

edit for no doublepost: i shaved my stache dry and it is very uncomfortable
 
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Saw my dad after his heart surgery. He keeps waking up and not knowing where he is and ripping at all the IVs so they’ve kept him sedated for two days now.
Waiting to hear if his kidneys will hold up, and if not it’s dialysis which is bad news at this stage.
I’m really tired, the worst is not being able to do anything useful. Tell the people close to you that ya love em, I need to do it more.
 
Today at work is so interesting I just have to share.

So I got woken up by a call at 4:55 AM, It's my boss and he askes me to come to work because there's something wrong with the pcs. Okay cool, so I get here and all of the PCs had a stripper in the corner and I was just like "What the fuck?" Checked the networking pc, the networking guy who did the networking shit yesterday instead of me apparently didn't see that one of the workers was downloading porn and now both of them are in trouble. I spent almost all morning uninfecting all of them and I only got back home about 30 minutes ago.

But other than that I'm doing terrific, I'm going to go on a date tonight with my husband and I'm so happy and I can't wait, especially for the cuddles and sweet kisses after.

Edit: date went absolutely perfect, even got a little bit more than expected heh.
 
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Looking for a new apartment, sent a few feelers out already. As expected, 80% of the estate agents haven't got back to me at all. Fucking wastes of spaces. Why are they so shit at even the most basic of tasks?

My car got bashed again in the car park during work. Didn't notice until the next day. No cameras, so I can't do shit. That's two obvious gender bumps in 9 months, in addition to some small dicked faggot keying my car on one side, all panels from front to back. There's no sense in getting them fixed, as I'll be selling it before Christmas. Still, frustrating as fuck.

I've also decided to stop being a piece of shit and dating multiple women at the same time. I'm going one on one with this new girl, and I want to do it right. We've had a great start so far, compatible in every way. I've come clean and dumped the other girls/broken off other leads, and have settled things on that front. Call it an attack of conscience, no desire to keep up this game, or simply getting older. Either way, I feel liberated, and seem less stressed keeping up with the game.
 
First day on the new job, went great all things considered. A little slow and the only thing to do right now is set up since the college semester doesn't start till next week. Unfortunate there's no employee enrolment or courses since its a company contracted out to the college and not directly for the place. Even so it seems like it'll be a decent job, I've mentioned the perks and benefits before but it may be awhile before I can fully claim them. Got a new uniform and new shoes are due next week. Off to a great start.
 
Quit my job today. There has been zero work-life balance there for quite some time. Having to work a week straight of 16 hour shifts while the supervisor did fuck all to try and help was the last straw. Got a new offer from a rival company in less than 24 hours and I plan to start there next Tuesday. Gonna enjoy the week vacation before then.

Just haven’t told the supervisor I quit yet. Trying to think of a good “fuck you I quit” way to go out
 
Rained here, so its humid as its slitghly hot too. Can’t get away from it inside and everything feels slightly wet.

It’s getting darker in the mornings when i go to the gym, very happy about that. Its more calming when everything is dark, and less people out and about.
 
I have an early day. I made sure I didn't have a late coffee yesterday. Didn't eat 3 hours before bed. Had water. Friends wanted to stay up late and do things but I was responsible and was in bed by 11.

I woke up 3 hours later with a second wind, knowing I wouldn't be tired again for at least another 3-4 hours. What do you WANT from me, body.
 
Decided to take the plunge (no pun intended) and scheduled myself to get baptized less than a month from now. Wanted to make sure I had the day off from work to do so.

Never in my life did I imagine I was going to do this sort of thing, I always felt I was unworthy of something like that, but at this point in my life, I feel I really have no reason not to.

I told one of the supervisors at work who's always been super nice to me and she said she wanted to be there when it happens. It was really humbling. And this one lady I kinda have a crush on was practically over the moon for me when I told her. Telling me how she's so happy for me.

The pastor who talked about baptism to me made it clear that baptism in of itself doesn't erase my sins, it is a public declaration of my commitment to Christ. And that honestly makes me feel relieved oddly enough. I was under the impression that sinning (even unintentionally) after being baptized was some particularly heinous and unforgivable crime, and I fully expect to fall off the path a couple times and have my faith challenged down the line. Knowing that so long as I keep trying to stay faithful and climb back onto the path whenever I fall fills me with some inner peace.
 
That's been my entire week month so far. Except for one night when it rained.

Living in an older house in Europe where ACs aren't the norm is hell in a summer like this.
Same here. I love old Euro houses but during the Summer it's hell. Doesn't help that I spend most of my time on the higher floors where the temperature is almost always 30 or above. Only reason I haven't passed out is due to constantly drinking cold water and having a fan on the highest mode.
 
Meh, I wish I could re-direct my attention.
I'm getting older, becoming more of a "non-person", and I see more and more things that I can't "un-see".
Sometimes I wish I had the naïveté I had when I was younger. The total loss and lack of hope is very distracting and unfulfilling.
 
Quit my job today. There has been zero work-life balance there for quite some time. Having to work a week straight of 16 hour shifts while the supervisor did fuck all to try and help was the last straw. Got a new offer from a rival company in less than 24 hours and I plan to start there next Tuesday. Gonna enjoy the week vacation before then.

Just haven’t told the supervisor I quit yet. Trying to think of a good “fuck you I quit” way to go out
No need to. Your precipitous departure is a pretty good "fuck you" as it is. 👍

Saw spinal surgeon this morning. Went over MRI imaging. Got a disk that sometimes lightly touches the nerve on the right side. Result - when that happens, part of the right leg experiences some discomfort and weakness. Doesn't last long, hopefully will go away. Surgery not indicated, presently at most an epidural injection. Was offered one but not bad enough yet to warrant it. Know I can always come back if needed. But if it comes to surgery would rather have another spinal fusion, laminectomies don't seem to work for me.

On the way home went to Costco. Today is 16 August. Costco is already putting Christmas stuff out. At this rate believe one day Christmas stuff will be available all year long. Jesus.
 
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I was talking to a 10/10 Starbucks manager, looked kinda like this
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and I was like, damn I’m glad real women still exist. My cashier was like this mincing prancing Robert Guillame quantum homo type that was harshing my vibe. Women are magic, man.
 
I was talking to a 10/10 Starbucks manager, looked kinda like this and I was like, damn I’m glad real women still exist. My cashier was like this mincing prancing Robert Guillame quantum homo type that was harshing my vibe. Women are magic, man.
it's time to get off the internet buddy.
 
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