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Been wrestling sciatica again, not as bad as two years ago but still no fun. Saw spinal surgeon on 24 Feb. He looked at imagery, listened to description of symptoms, said surgery not needed at this time, get an epidural injection. Can repeat injection later, should last for a few months.

Went to commissary yesterday. Price of eggs continues decline - $4.77 for a dozen jumbo eggs. Interestingly, they still had fresh cherries available, $5/pound. First winter cherries started in early December, March already. In our area we start getting spring-crop cherries in May, can last until early August. Heck, easily half the year now
 
I've just finished my first week of my new mailroom job. I love that my customer service is at a bare minimum and I'm mostly dealing with mail and paperwork. I couldn't be happier! Ideally, I would love to keep this job for the long term if not until I retire. Since I'm sick of job hunting and just want financial stability and a cozy routine.
 
Between Friday night social obligations, a friend's minor emergency late Saturday night, and a couple of lapdog-induced naps, my sleep schedule has become completely fucked. Gonna be a fun week.

Worth it.
 
I've been seeing somebody again. We cut it off a while ago for different reasons, mainly professional. We've always gotten along very well, we work together frequently and there have never been any conflicts. They got promoted recently and are essentially second in command running the business. I've been their confidant since we started working together, this is somebody I care a lot about and they get scared when things get real, even worse since the topic of nepotism has been introduced.

One of my coworkers made a comment last night about us, and I could feel the room tense up. Super irritated with that bullshit. It's really not their business.

I had the option to take somebody home last night, but I didn't. Because I care about the person I'm pursuing, genuinely. Maybe I'm sabotaging myself. Maybe I'm just deranged. I should talk to them about it, 100%. But they're the kind of person who shuts down when confronted and will pretend to be okay when everything really isn't, so for the past six months I've just tip-toed around our relationship.

I think I'm autistic, I can't read emotions, and I'm very drunk rn.
 
Yea, most likely. It'll pass but I hate it. They just happen for no good reason. The brain just decides "hey, fuck you,"


I get ya. I get chronic panic attacks as part of my autism shit. Even with medication it just lessens the frequency and makes it easier to control.


If you get them because of that, and you need someone to talk to about it, pm me.
 
My manager really spent eight hours basically telling me on and off about how nothing I do is good enough. He even sneered at me at one point tonight that I only got slightly faster at my (very good) IPM despite being mostly off work for two weeks and ending up back in the hospital a couple days ago for some other random fucking bullshit. He then promptly moved the IPM goalpost to the fastest speed possible and told me I was being too slow despite that I'm often top five in the store. I'm starting to wonder how much of my body breaking down is just a manifestation of severe stress from everything happening in my life. It's not solely his micromanaging causing it but holy shit is it not helping.
 
it's 3 am, and i spent all of my remaining brain cells to cure a fictional character's dissociative identity disorder in a way that may genuinely be psychologically effective
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^ me rn
 
Frozen. Wasn't in the mood to cook.
I used to eat a ton of frozen pizzas, since I started making them from scratch, I can't stomach them anymore. Soggy frozen pizzas haunt my dreams.

It's International Women's Day day after tomorrow, and I'm celebrating by baking. My mother always baked, it's a thing I associate with her very strongly. She's been dead for many a year (pbuh), but I keep the traditions alive. I'm still conflicted if I should make a raspberry cake or caramel fudge donuts. I don't know if I have an opportunity to bring them to my family, since we live in different parts of the country, but I'm very friendly with my neighbors so I will probably be offering them some. Don't think this altruistic, it's entirely self-motivated, if someone doesn't help me get rid of them, I'll eat them all.

Pretty food centered post but oh well. Work is going well, my department got a new boss, haven't figured out if this is an upgrade or a downgrade yet.
 
I’ve vastly improved upon their tactics.

They evicted a drug dealer from my building recently, if I see him out imma beat his ass, in River City Ransom.
I had thoughts of some random pasty kiwi becoming an effective yet comical antihero with nog superpowers he doesn't fully understand, and had a giggle. I'd watch that.
 
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I had thoughts of some random pasty kiwi becoming an effective yet comical antihero with nog superpowers he doesn't fully understand, and had a giggle. I'd watch that.
I can also copy the powers of beaners, illegal polocks, Arabs, etc



**goes into computer store**

“you give me discount. You give me America, now!”

*lets a long cabbage fart rip, searing the lungs of everyone within 50 feet*
 
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good, i stopped doing drugs and started lifting.. trying to get big so i can tell some darkie i dont like him and have him do something about it... just 5 more years!
 
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